who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make
all the girls jealous;
i want someone who would sing to me at random moments;
someone who is more goofy than romantic;but knows the right things to say and do at the right times;
the boy who will introduce me to his friends and they'll all say "Oh that's the girl you can't stop talking about".
a guy who would tell all his friends about me and
smile when he tells em; a guy who would call me three times a day and apologize for calling too much, and no matter how
many times I tell him it's okay, he still does it and I don't get sick of it. a guy who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. a boy who'd throw stuffed animals at me when i was acting dumb someone who`d bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win; a guy who`d make fun of me just to hear my laugh; he`d play with my hair all the time and surprise me with 25 cent rings; a guy whos never afraid to say "iloveyou" & it doesnt matter who its infront of and he actually means it; Someone who would still think I was beautiful if I was wearing sweat pants, hair a mess, and no make up on the one who will be on my mind only on two occasions, day & night. who i dont have to tell anything to, because he'll see it in my eyes. someone who i could share lollipops with and someone to lay on a blanket with to count the stars; but mostly, someone who would be my bestfriend and would never lie to me or break my heart; he would just always make me smile.
I am shorter than 5'4
I think I am ugly sometimes
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings
I have piercings in places besides my ears
I have freckles.
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I've had children.
I've lost a child.
I have a job.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do my homework.
I've missed a week or more of school in my life.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I've stolen something from my job.
I've been fired.
I've skipped school.
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my trousers rip in public
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had surgery.
I've had chicken pox.
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to America.
I've gotten lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
I've kicked a guy where it hurts
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the Internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played truth or dare
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding. --- well tried.. hey manda! haha.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've gotten divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I am a cuddler.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've consumed alcohol.
I've passed out from drinking.
I've smoked weed.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've eaten shrooms.
I've popped E.
I've inhaled Nitrous.
I've done hard drugs.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow pills no problem
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I've taken anti-depressants.
I'm anorexic or bulimic.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.
I've attempted suicide.
I've written a eulogy for myself
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books
I own something I got on e-bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.
In general, I don't like people.
I listen to political music.
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a night person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
I bake well.
I cook well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
I would wear pajama pants to school.
I like Martha Stewart
I know how to shoot a gun
I am in love with love
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, with an online message
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate
I bite my nails.
I play video games. ..
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
im sick of this summer shit. a person can't do anything without getting called a slut, so im stopping myself here. nothing will happen with anyone, unless im going to be dating them. it's a fact. and i mean nothing this time. not just what i told mic, but NOTHING. it's bullshit. random hookups, ruining friendships, cheating, fights over stupid little bullshitting girls, people you will never see again, it's not worth it. none of it is. i want someone who will be there with me, a boyfriend, an actual boyfriend, someone who does mean something to me, if anything were to happen.
im just trying to find mr. right.
and i really wanna find him.
he could be y o u,
or someone else
but if i find him its only him.
mm.. double chocolate cake
did you know it basically solves all problems?
it's so yummy =)
i found my new love.
it will never make you upset.
it will never cheat on you.
and it will never lie to you.
it will only add pounds to your ass. but who cares
you'll walk them off eventually =)
you know what. you were my best friend, you really meant everything to me, and now you just up and do this to me. like what the fuck. and then i try to talk to you about it. the last thing u said to me forget about me, forget you even met me because ... ahh FUCK YOU. i loved you so much, you were my best friend babe. and now. like jesus christ, and then you have the nerve to block me. and then fucking nexopia decides to re do its fucking site like honestly. how am i suppose to get through this. evberytime i walk past your cabin im going to remember the good times, and what happened to them, their all down the fucking drain. well you know what, maybe i didn't know you in the first place, maybe we never really were best friends, maybe yuo didnt actually love me as your friend like you said. BECAUSE BEST FRIENDS DON'T DO THIS SHIT TO EACHOTHER. you know what. i told you everything, you knew everything about me. we had so much fun.. i stole my first big thing with you. A BOAT! i snuck out. and slept in a fucking van with you and lissha and 3 guys, when i could have went home or stayed at the house we were at, you held your hand over my eyes when i slept so that the light wouldnt wake me, you walked me home, you came down an hour just to see me. don't tell me you don't miss that. but whatever if you just want to through it all away just like that. then fine. you know what go ahead. because i don't think i actually knew you. whatever. fuck it.
on the flip side of all my angriness im sad.im never going to get to see you ever again. and i can guarentee you deleted my number out of your cell. ignored me on nex. and blocked me on msn. and it hurts so much jess. like come on.. how can you do this.. it's tearing me up inside. ugh.. i don't even know what to say anymore. it doesn't even feel like i knew you at all.. maybe i didn't.. maybe it was all make believe.. the perfect life.. the perfect friendship.. the perfect setting.. the perfect two people... and you said fuck it to all of it. every single bit of it.
so. i don't really know how i feel right now
but i want to be with someone at this exact moment
and it's basically killing me. lololol. ahhh
this water bottle im drinking just doesnt taste right
either. it's warm.
my drawing of batman just doesn't quite look right
and my god damn cd keeps skipping.