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Im At Point where im just gunna say FUCK it and stop being mr nice guy all the god damn time.

so today i came on. and read this blog on how shitty oiler fans are. now im not the biggest oilers fan ever but i am an edmontonian, so if u dis the oilers ur dissing edmonton. i think we won 4 cups in the 80s and one in the 90s. and calgary won how many oohh one??? and it is a fluke because smith banked the puck off fuhr in game 7. so if that didnt happen calgary would have no cups. then as for the eskz well the stamps have nothing on that shit. i believe edmonton is called the city of chamamps because we are champs and well it might take us a while to get going but when we do, WE WIN. also last year when the oilers went to the stanely cup i know we lsot but how far did calgary make it. umm fuck they lost 4-0 to the ducks 1st round and we beat the ducks 4-2 in round 3. umm go figure. so please please. if ur going to diss any team in sports haver the facts straight and dont be singled minded. oh and as for this ugly girl comment. well edmonton has some of the hottest girls in canda. also if u think about. the people in etown demand nothing less then perfections or wins. as for calgary they are just glad IF they get a win. ether way people are band jumpers or should be. because the last thing any canadian wants is to see the cup still be in the US. it belongs in CANADA! also its nice to see that calgary is trying to buy their way to the cup as for edmonton we let propescted do the work. which i believe they become stars later on. ohh also calgary is losing 4-3 right now to a the avs who i believe is behind edmonton in the standings. umm go figure

People lets fucking face facts hey. If U have no intentions of anything or to do anything then for fuck shake dont give false hope. like WTF. all this shit. i dont want to hurt so and so and or he wont leave me alone. well here is a thought. umm use your fucking head and stop with THIS aka ur mouth. and dont give hope! u leave the door open people will walk in. again this is a mental thing. it is also a fact that if u do leave ur door open in real life people will walk in, but im not talking about that, thought i add that for those people who have the ability to not grasp the common sense of which i am speaking of.

so before u go off telling me or anyone of your friends about that kinda shit. sit down and think before I or they have to do it for u because really if we have to do so ALL the time. well ur FUCKED. plain and simple.

In life you strive for one thing
Perfection
you feel that being you is not good enough
so you try to be someone your not
in order to be perfect
u try different things, wear different clothes, study harder
train harder, leave everything behind that has ever mattered to you
because perfection is what we strive to have
we do things that hurt us, just in order to make others happy
we start to lose our selves n become something we always feared to be
we look into that mirror only to see nothing because we have lost ourselves
through my experiences I have still not learned how to be perfect n give people what they want
but see that is where we all go wrong
being perfect is not getting straight As or changing who u r
being perfect means doing the best u can do n being proud of it
it means knowing u did everything u could
being perfect means that ur able to look into anyone’s eyes n tell them the world with just a smile.
perfection comes from just being you, and not being scared to be who u r.
Because in the end, that is the only thing that matters.

A man lays on his bed
with his hands holding his head
he looks at the ceiling, without even a blink
listing to the same song over n over again
thousands of thoughts rush in and out of his head
for him just to make sense of things
when he gets up off of that bed
he tries to forget
goes out, drinks, have fun
but everywhere he looks, he still has that look in his eye
every time he gets up from that bed he tells him self today is going to be different
he puts on a smile, that is not his own
goes around pretending things are okay
when in fact he is slowly falling part
when he looks into his mirror, n looks into his eyes.
He does not see himself anymore
All he sees is the past
He closes his eyes trying to forget
Reopens only to see her, looking back at him
He places his hand on the mirror, n closes his eyes.
Only to reopen them n see himself in the mirror
He goes back to his bed
Where he shall lay
Asking him self
How?

u sit alone, on your old wood deck,
rocking back n forth in ur rocking chair
the wind brushing across ur withered face
your heart beating at is consistent pace
until u hear a sound
a sound that u have not heard in years
u raise ur head ever so slowly
ur eyes finally seeing the world
everything around u has come to a stop
not a sound or even the feel of the wind
in the distance u see
a figure walking slowly towards u
u close ur eyes
the soft gentle feel of a women’s hand,
pressed against ur face
she leans over
Whispers in Ur eye. I love u forever, love u for always, forever n forever we shall be
U open Ur eyes, n look eye to eye
she has a smile n yet she still looks sad
U raises Ur hand to feel hers
All u feel is Ur own face
N the image that was her, slowly disappears into the horizon
U close Ur eyes n quickly reopen,
Only to see the world as it is
U look up into the heavens
With a face of desperation. U whispers to Ur self.
I’m coming
A tear drops from Ur face to the ground
U close Ur eyes again
When u reopen them.
U smile