i look at my phone,
and put it down with dissapointment;
the message isn't from who i want it to be from.
when i am hanging out with someone,
i look forward to going home.
because i am not with the person i want to be with.
i go to sleep every night,
wishing things could have been completely different.
the connection we had was overwhelming,
and i miss you.

i dont understand how you can get to me so easily. you've broken me down so much. your a person who has perfect timing it seems. and whenever you do something bad, youre always able to take something away from me. is it because im weak? well im telling you now, that i'm going to try and try. because i wanna be strong enough to let you go. you are a person who means so much to me, which makes it even harder to just forget about you. i befriended you, we became close and then you took advantage of the feelings i had for you. how much i cared. now you make me scared to be a caring person, a person who is just going to be taken advantage of for the rest of her life? well thanks to you thats how i feel. im always going to be here for you, im always going to wanna talk to you, and im always going to love you. you built me up so high. gave me hope; a reason for why i was feeling the way i did. but then you just brought it all crashing down on me. i come of harsh so much and i hate it but i need to tell you how i feel. its like i wanna push you off the high level bridge but then rush to the bottom to save you. thats how difficult it is for me to let you go. this whole thing has made me stronger but tell me, why did the person who hurt me have to be you?