I'm just a girl
And you're just a boy
This is my heart
It's not a toy
So what's with you playing with my mind?
We used to be cool
This used to be love
Now it's become
Something like a job
Like it or not
Maybe things are changing
Right before out eyes
I tried to be your picture perfect girl
But you were in your own fantasy world
Tryna control me
Like some kind of barbie
But that just ain't me
Cuz i'm not a doll
This ain't a dollhouse
Your way too old to be
Putting me down like this
And playing around like this
I ain't a doll
This ain't a dollhouse
No i could never be stuck living like this
Behind these four walls
Cuz i ain't a doll
You call the shots
Right down to my shoes
I liked what you liked
Cuz you told me to
And i don't think that you could even tell
I fell out of love
But it never showed
I gave up on us
So long ago
But you'll never know
Baby don't pretend like you know me so well
I'll never be made of plastic
So glad my hearts elastic
No matter what you do
I'll bounce back off of you
Cut me but i'm bleeding
And i come with imperfections
Epitome of perfection
If you can't understand
Loving the way i am
Then you're no good for me
So glad i kept my receipt
i miss you.
as a friend.
as a shoulder.
as a fling.
and as more
goodbye donna, don't run with scissors.lmao
it may seem that i haven't been thinking of you and that this memory of you i've held in my heart... i've *
--- finally been able to let go. i'm just trying to give you some space, give you some
TIME TO REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME AND HOPEFULLY YOULL PICK UP YOUR ACT AND COME
back. you and i both know that deep inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. because as
much as i cry, fight & stress about you i wouldn't do it if i didn't think that you were
-worth it... whoever you decide to let take my place, just*
REMEMBER THAT IT WON'T BE FOR LONG BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT TOGETHER, PLEASE >>>
don't doubt that it was real. i don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better days. a
* better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. i don't want a fresh start; i
WANT TO LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES TOGETHER. YOU KNOW I'D DO ANYTHING FOR YOU I WANNA SEE
how far you'll go for me. there's a lot of things i want and you're not one of them. i need you. i keep trying
to push away these feelings and hide them underneath anything that will keep me.. +
sane for the day. me and you we're just the 8th wonder of
THE WORLD. I'M DYING INSIDE BECAUSE I HOPE WHAT I'M SAYING ISN'T TOO LATE. ASK ANYONE/
____________that knows me well; the best part about me was you.
i remember the first night we met and how sparks just started to fly and we both knew it. the way you looked at me when we were playing that kissing game making sure it was alright to agree to it. but little did you know that it was perfectly fine. when we kissed it was amazing even though i was amazingly nervous and your friends were watching. but you didn't really seem to care. and when you helped me out of the truck i couldn't wait to see you again. but little did we know that he was going to make that wrong decision and mess up our whole night. i don't think i have ever seen you that disapointed before. but when we ran into you guys later you seemed to have a smile on your face. so i agreed that we would hang out the next night. without the drama and anyone else that could get in our way. when you picked me up that night i have never seen someone smile that big. well i guess nobody but me. i never understood until that very moment that i had completely misread you. i thought you were this big player that said everything just so his heart wouldn't break but i guess it was the complete opposite. you had been through one heart break that actually screwed you up. as i got to know you i realized everything that i heard from every person that thought that they knew you was wrong. They only knew the person you made yourself to be on the outside. As you opened up to me i just kept falling for you so much because i realized that i finally found what i have been looking for in one guy. see i never thought that this was actually humanly possible. so as you walked out that door to find whatever it is you needed to find i think that you forgot something. i was here for you all along and you just chose to be by yourself and i really don't get that. and it hurts me not knowing that you are okay because that's all i really care about. It used to be about wanting to be with you but now i guess it's just different. so the next time you get a text from me i'm hoping you read it. i don't care if you text me back. and i don't care if you just get completely pissed off. i just care about you and your best interest. just take care of yourself and try not too think about everything too much. i know what it's like to not be able to do anything for the two people in your life that are biologically programed to care about you more.
i miss you, the way your eyes used to shine
and how you could give me a hug and everything felt better
but as it came to a time where you needed me the most, you walked
i never really understood how exactly you could do that
until i figured out it's exactly what i would have done
well it's actually exactly what i'm doing
i will not let any other guy in because well.. i can't get you out of my head
even though you probably don't even notice this
because i don't have the guts to tell you how much this hurts
instead i just settle as a friend over and over
so i just wait by the phone hoping maybe you might understand
some people think that this is probably pathetic
but think about it for a second,
somebody you really care about is going through so much
that you don't want to add more too it
so you just wait until they need a shoulder
so what would you do?
what you bug the absolute shit out of them?
or would you just leave it?
i can't tell you anything anymore
cuz i know that you have chance of being happy
and i can't wreck that
i cn't be the selfish girl
so i'm sorry but no more
you don't get it do you?
i don't want some lecture
about how i'm messing up my life
cuz really bud, you don't have any clue
you whine about how your parents are hard on you
you don't even know
do you know what it's like never being good enough?
or being told to change cuz you care too much about people?
getting kicked out on your ass?
i didn't think so
you get the car and money and your alowed to do whatever
you have such a great life
why can't you see that?
yea sure i'm not always in a good mood
and oh yea it's one thing to say you listen
but do you actually really hear?
if you really wanna know i liked you cuz you cared
you were this great guy that came out of nowhere
and i heard that you were a bad guy,
but did i listen?
oh hell no
cuz i saw something in you that caught my eye
but i guess it's the same thing that made me walk away
you care about yourself only
you say you don't
but it's all a big lie
i'm finally done buddy
wow boii you are drivin me crazy!
everythin from the ups and downs
to the complete turn arounds
i want you bad baby boii
you know i do!
why you gonna play games?
i don't wait
i don't plead
i don't try
i just leave
second chance in gone
so is our bond
i want the guy that proved to me he was worth it
i want the guy that cared so much for me
i want the guy that looked into my eyes
and asked me if he could kiss me like he had wanted
what happened to the guy that made me safe
i want that guy back
i want the guy i really liked
but he's not comin back is he?
That you really gotta stop saying shit about me. and saying that i'm not being a good
friend to you at all cuz if you actually think that you must be completely blind. The only
reason why i am still here is because you needed me and it woud kill me if i had to leave.
But why does that mean absolutely nothing to you now? you walk around thinking that i
don't want to talk to you. But really hun don't kid yourself. Out of all the people in the world
you mean thee absolute most to me and nothing will ever change that. I don't know what
has come between us but i really don't like this. Last night was not my fault and you sit
there and blame me for ever word that was said and every tear that you shed. But you
don't get it do you? i would never ever try to hurt you like that. it happened and it's done.
seriously you gotta start letting stuff go. you can't keep it all bottled up and stuff. You have
the nerve to tell me that i am causing you all this stress? and the most stupid part of this
whole thing is that you get people to talk to me for you and bitch me out and say all this
shit. It would be nice if you actually said it to my face. i would respect you a hell of alot
more if you did.
let me know asap
you know it would be great if guys actually meant what they do or say
seriously i don't give a shit if they are just "playing the field"
but like ugh... theres this thing called if you like someone you tell them
and you know it's not a bad thing if you actually mean what you say
you know shit just might actually work out for once
and the other thing that pisses me off is the fact that
yes, i'm a very out going happy fun person
but what you gotta realize is i go through shit just like everybody else
and no, i do not smile 24/7 so i'm sorry it's just what happens
what do you expect me to do get plastic surgery so i never ever frown
like think for two seconds please
that's all you really gotta do
and oh another thing i love is how you always pick at every little flaw in me
and telll me that it pisses you off, well news flash buddy
not every girl is perfect like really.
and i hate it when people have clones of eachother.
i'm not that kinda girl, i'm my own preson
so really it would be nice if you would recognize me for who i am
not for who i'm never going to be
so i'm done, i give up
i don't wanna keep busting my brain if you don't appreciate it
so dude i only have one more chance
don't screw up again...