i love my friends
music is my life
so is god
pot is awesome
booze is cool
i looove my 2 snowboards
love my sex
love my drums



my friends who i love more then life its self are jess M, steve, chelsey, jaimie, Jr, marty, tipper, april, duncan, kelly, && courtney, rosie mel && KELSEY KAOTIC!


she smiles with all she has left
yet her tears are left undried,
though she has so much to say
she bottles it up inside.
If u look past her broken eyes
to a shadow no one sees,
a desguise so u won't recognize.
(That gurl is really me)



Hates: posers, hoes, preps,jocks,etc


we're only human ,seperated by our thoughts, hang onto them or ull find u get caught in monkey see && monkey do,every lil thing we do is contageous.

If you love me you should know
Im going to end up all alone
If you love me
Let me be
Suffering in my misery
I have lied
And even though I tried
I can’t seem to make up my mind
Would you even love me if I died?
So I take this blade
Plunge it threw my heart
And hope for better days
Thinking of or friendship we made
Its always me
We were never meant to be
Tears fall to the ground
Screams of pain and sadness all around
As I lie on the cold floor
Soon to be no more
I see you standing there
Shaking so alone and scared
I whispered how I felt
How he made my heart melt
And all I ever knew
That my fantasys would never be true
I was running on a clock
My heart began to stop
“All these tears that I cry
Without your love im going to die”
He came to me with a kiss
I finally found my heavenly bliss




A soon to be bride
Looking for fun
Before being bond and tied
From marriage she could not run
She drove late at night
Saw a bar and went inside
He grasped her in his site
and just sat there and spied
He hid in the back
Just watching her drink
Trying to keep on track
She was on the brink
She was going to fail
The most hardest test
Just to unveil
This he suppressed
She was drunk
And danced like a whore
How far would she sink?
Before his heart tore
In one little kiss
His heart broke in two
Why was she doing this?
But he truly knew
Then something happened
Things would never be the same
His grip on her loosened
He was to blame
She went with a guy
Stripped off her clothes
He wanted to die
“shes just one of those hoes”
From the shadows he went
A silent tear slide down his cheek
The message was sent
He did not speak
Walking to they’re apartment
From her wild night out
Everything silent
She was worn-out
Then she heard a noise
This made her scared
She called her play toy
He said “I’ll be right there”
She was shaking
But her groom came in site
she ran to him aching
she hugged him tight
then a sharp pain
hers eyes closed slowly
his expression the same
he looked at her solely
he held a knife
going right threw her
to end her life
she just whimpered
her body went limp
she fell into his arms
he felt like a wimp
causing such harms
the police found them both dead
they gave they’re hearts
in blood letters it read
“Till death do us part



When the world was half asleep
I was still awake
Suffering from a heart break
Just trying to get by
Stop these tears that I cry
I wish I could just lay down and die
As I sit alone in the rain
I just can’t seem to stop the pain
Please unleash me from these chains
As I curl up on the ground
My pain and sadness all around
My sad song is the only sound
In the darkness you were my light
You helped me live through these terrible nights
Now for you I weld this knife
That will end this horrible miserable life
“angel of death please oh please
Just put me out of my misery”
As I slit my wrists and hope to die
I think about how you didn’t even say goodbye
I know we can’t escape from our destinies
But without you mine was never meant to be
“the day you walked through my door
My pain and suffering was no more
And now that we are apart
Im dead of a broken heart.




If the rain was my tears
The Skies would b Gray
If minutes were years
: I’d only have a few days
If my pain was a Game
I already lost
If love had a price
I already paid the cost
If feet were miles
I’d walk each and every Step
If truths were lies
U broke every promise we kept
If love mean holding every thing In
I’ll try 2 Get by
If love means faking a Smile
: I’ll Say that im fine
If love was my life
Then inside I would die
B/c the truth is I cry
Every time we Say Goodbye



i look all around me and what do I see?
Nothing but darkness surrounding me
Everywhere I run I can’t seem to escape,
All of my darkness and all of my hate
I cry out for help not wanting to regret,
Something so awful
which maybe my next step
But do they hear me
I often wonder,
Yet there’s no answer,
none that I long for
I feel the knife in my hand,
what will I do next?
No point in asking,
who knows what to expect
I hear someone running towards me,
what will they do?
I hear them yell out
“Don’t think about it you!”
I shake my head
thinking that the voice is fake,
So I drive the knife through me
…now…
its too late…