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When you call us "bitches,"
we look at each other and laugh,
because we knew that
WAY before you did

BASICS

Height:169 cm - 173 cm (5'7" - 5'8")
Weight:65 Kg - 68 Kg (141 lbs - 150 lbs)
Birthday:June 18, 1989
Sexual Orientation:Bisexual/Open-Minded
Dating:Single and not looking
Living Situation:Living with parents/relatives
Location:Calgary, Alberta, Canada
Join Date:02:04am | Sep 26, '06
Profile Updated:08:32pm | Dec 20, '09
Last Active:10:37pm | Apr 29, '12

INTERESTS

Movies:Horror
Art:Journal Writing, Song Writing, Writing
Animals/Pets:Cats, Dogs
Sports:Basketball, Soccer, Swimming
Activities:Drinking
Outdoor:Camping, Hiking
Computers:Instant Messaging

THINKING.

That not all lifes problems need to be solved.
Some days are long while others are not.
The end of the week seems closer from wednesday than Tuesday because you have more days behind you than ahead.
That works with years too.
Time passes by when you least expect it and don't wait for it.
Everyone deserves to have something better.
You make your own happiness based on the attitude you have when you wake up in the morning.
Friends truely are the greatest gifts that life can offer.
How am I supposed to know?
What am I supposed to do?
Why can't I give a shit about myself?
What is wrong with me?
Why do I like being hopeless?
Why do I feel safe when I'm alone?
Who is going to stop me from losing my mind?
Where am I going?
I just feel hopeless, depressed and suicidal
Nothing makes sense anymore
Everything is about image and nothing is the way it seems or the way it should be
If it all looks good on the outside, going to school and work and hanging with friends and being sober then what does it matter how things really are on the inside
I'm not doing this for me because I really don't give a fuck but I know I don't wanna be the person who hurts everyone else
Think of the image you leave people with when you commit suicide, that's my only reason, you can't pretend everything is okay and it's all goos when you're dead by your own hand.

The beginning:
It's all just a jumble of words and phrases
The pain comes and goes in a mixture of phases
I don't try to hurt just to feel good
I only hurt because I know that I should
I should have to feel everything that I've done
I guess a razor blade is only one step from a gun
Look who I've become and the things that I've missed
All those people that I hurt again, I won't even list
They did everythingand more for me than I could have asked
Yet some how I feel I'm always coming in last
What could be worse than living like this
I guess it would be worse if death gave me it's kiss
I'll go on living, just for today
But before I end this poem I have to say
That I know what it's like to come out on top
It's really hard to win when you know you can't stop
I thought it would be okay, I have problems just run
It happens that turning on those that you love is not fun
Sometimes I wonder why I do it again and again.
The End

HMM...

Stand up for what you believe in.
Do what you want and fuck everyone else.
Be yourself.
Live each day to the fullest.
Give yourself a reason to smile.
Look towards the heavens and know that someone is watching over you.
It never has to be as bad as you think it will be.

You might regret what you do - but you'll regret what you don't do so much more.

A smile is a curve that can straighten out a lot of things.

Let them notice you, not you notice them.

It takes two people to lie, one to lie and one to listen.

When you were born you were crying and everyone around you was smiling, live your life so when you die you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

If you judge people you have no time to love them.

Don't worry about knowing people, make yourself worth knowing.

You don't fail if you fall, you fail if you don't try to get up.

Don't be afraid of fear, let fear be afraid of you.

You don't have to talk about how great you are, let your actions do the talking.

Faith is believing in things when common sense tells you not too.

You don't love someone because they are beautiful, they are beautiful because you love them.

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect, it means you are looking beyond the imperfections.

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile and finds in your presence that life is worth while. So when you're lonely remember it's true somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

Be more concerned with your character than your repuation because your character is who you ARE and your repuation is what others think of you.

What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters to what lies within us.

A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point of another they will fall for eachother, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.

Anywho I've bored you enough with my random page move on and get a life.

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07:01am | Oct 07, '09 | No Comments
I feel like I'm not here floatingin the abiss not sure which way is up and not really caring at all. I want it to be okay and know there is hope and future and things will work out but no one can ever assure me that one day it will work out. What's the point I get out of this spot just to end up right back in it. Craving and waiting hoping maybe this time I'll make it through without hurting myself or throwing myself off a bridge. I love everything that I have and I'm not ready to give it up but I'm not ready to live through it either. I'm on the verge of life and death, love and hate, right and wrong. Nothing really seems to matter much anymore but I wish it did. I'm awake at 1 am on a tuesday night hoping that when I fall asleep my dreams take me some where good so I can wake up and get through one more day. That's the hardest part of waking up in the morning is the fact that I actually have to something, I can't lay in bed and be depressed and do nothing. I think I need help, but how?