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It says in my MSN profile that i am a complex person, and it couldn't be more right. If you think you know me, you probably don't, and if you don't think so you're probably right. But you haven't won anything. I'm just bad at HTML so my page is not the greatest...but i don't much care to be honest. I have decided that people who spend their life searching for meaning are wasting there time because there is none. There is no ultimate reason why we are alive and i think that people should just accept that and save themselves the migranes. Emos hate me because i wrote an article about them and it pissed them off. Oh well, i figure that if the emos want to get that worked up over something that they didn't even read because if they had they would have seen that i wasn't "discriminating" or whatever, that's their thing. Whatever. I just can't bring myself to care. I like appreciating the simple things in life, while still looking at them in an objective, yet cynical way. If you're lost by what i have said so far then you need to brush up on your vocab skills, or take an IQ test. Either way, it's sad.





Quotes:

"How about a nice warm glass of shut the fuck up?"

"You know that place between sleep and awake, where you remember your dreams? That's where i'll always love you, that's where i'll be waiting."-A quote from Hook baby!

"Knowledge is power, but ignorance is bliss..."

"Oscurita Pacifica"

"Liberta amara"

"Aurum est potestas"

"Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, and trusting they won't"

"Dulce est decorum est pro patria mori"

"Second place is just first place for losers"

"Those who fight fair don't deserve to win"







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This song is for Carmen because she doesn't like to put it up on her page ^_^




Concrete Angel


She walks to school with the lunch she packed,
nobody knows what she's holding back.
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday,
she hides the bruises with linen and lace.

Chorus: Through the wind, and the rain
she stands hard as a stone.
In a world that she can't rise above.
But her dreams give her wings
and she flies to a place
where she's loved.
Concrete angel.

Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
the neighbours hear but they turn out the light.
A fragile soul caught in the hangs of fate.
When morning comes it'll be too late.

Chorus

A statue stands in a shaded place,
an angel girl with an upturned face.
A name is written on a polished rock.
A broken heart that the world forgot.

Chorus






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Jamiekins~ the greatest of great. She has been my friend through thick and thin. We have had our troubles, but in the end it's you and me girly...

Katrina~ Aphrodite. No word of a lie, this girl's got a little somethin' somethin' that makes the boys go crazy. I hate it, but i love her. She has been my friend my entire life. And i mean my ENTIRE life...once you know someone has seen you in a diaper that's it, friends forever.

Josh~ the one who understands the twisted inner workings of my mind. He understands me better than anyone because deep down he is just like me. No one can really understand what Josh means to me, in fact, i don't even think he does. Nevertheless, as long as he is happy, i am happy. Josh deserves a big section, even though it is unlikely that he will take the time to read this update. He has seen me through so much, and it is impossible for me to ever repay him. His friendship is priceless to me and i wouldn't trade him for the world.

Kirstyn~ my far away friend. It's been so long since i have seen her, but we have been through too much to not mention her. I know one day our paths will cross again because, after all, third time's a charm.

Billy~ my boyfriend and the greatest guy in the world. There is a large picture of him later on in the profile. He is my life's comic relief, as well as fantastic support, and a hopeless romantic just like me. On and on i could go about Billy, but i think everyone should meet him for themselves and they'll know just what i mean. I saved him for last because this way when people scroll down to see his picture they will be done reading all of the other notes above this one. I love you honey. [/i]

*~NOTE~* There are so many people who have made such a difference, and i can't possibly include everyone.



There is something i have learned recently. I should have learned it a long time ago, but I didn't. Don't trust anyone. I know it sounds harsh, but nothing could be more true. Just when you think someone is your friend and wouldn't do anything to hurt you, past experience has shown that they will spread lies about you and destroy your life. Its one thing to be confronted about a mistake you have made, a lie you have told, or a person you have hurt, but it's another thing altogether when lies are circulating about you and there is no way to clear your name. The bottom line: if it has nothing to do with you, and you aren't sure of the facts, stay out of it and mind your own business![/b][/color] Heresay is hurtful and often completely inaccurate. In this case, it certainly was both. Live your own life and let others live theirs![/size][/color]




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Free Falling...

I've got the style
but not the grace.
I've got the looks
but not the face.
I've got the time
but not the place.
But hell, I'm big back home.
-Jenine Gebhart

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Cogito Ergo Sum

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~People who think they're better than everyone else~
~People who never let things go and they just hold onto their stupid grudges forever~
~People who vote low (if you don't like someone's pictures, don't vote...)~
~steryotypes~
~Two-faced people~
~mushrooms~
~duct tape (it's evil)~
~turnips~
~cabbage~
~karma~
~being confused~
~liars~
~being manipulated~
~poseurs (ha! spelled it right Heidi!)~
~people who feel the need to use put downs because they can't think of anything else to say or they just can't keep their feelings to themselves~
~rumors~
~hypocrites~
~reality T.V~
~dating shows~
~How anyone can have a talk show nowadays~
~Chat speak~









~why people feel that being a slut can cover up for their lack of personality~
~when people say or do one thing and think another~
~ regret~
~not knowing how another person feels about you~
~mixed messages~
~when people don't answer the phone but I know they're home"
~when people blame their problems on their ethnic backgrounds~
~how some people with ethnic backgrounds think that they should have everything for free, then scream for equality~'
~people who wear the same clothes every day for extended periods of time~
~when people add themselves as friends on Nexopia~
~people who have 12 pictures on Nexopia, but none are of their face, all of them are of their stomach. Don't get me wrong, some pictures are good, but do you really need 6 pictures of your stomach?~
~clingy guys~
~when people can't take hints~
~people who think that just because you like the same things they do that you're copying them~
~when assholes get things they don't deserve because they have connections and people who actually work for things get passed over~
~that time travel hasn't been perfected yet~
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The thing that i hate most of all is when you make a bad decision, or a series of them, because a lot of the time those bad choices never go away. The consequences haunt you for the rest of your life. Sometimes people get hurt in the meantime. Someone i love was hurt by some decisions i made, and i know now what it feels like to be miserable.They will never understand the pain i am in each and every day knowing how i hurt them. I know i don't know how they feel either, but all i know is two people in pain can get in the way of those two people being in love. Basically, a word to the wise, be careful when you make a rash decision. Think long and hard about who it will hurt and what you're willing to lose. I know i didn't, and it almost cost me a love that i can't possibly replace.