that poem you wrote me? 4 months ago.
i put it on repeat. sorry.

fuck off

im fucking ballsy, i cant believe im doing this.

im glad i crossed your mind. i was thinking about you today.
it hurts.

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You think that it is over, When did it ever begin? Don't pretend like he was ever interested. He may have had you fooled by the way he looked into your eyes
But no he really looked right through, Through it all.
He could swear he never meant it, act like you're overreacting. But he's the tool
who shouldn't have been acting, how are they the one's attracting us?
Here's to the heartbreakers, who are so good at hiding all the evidence of them pretending. All along who were we kidding? I could find a man and not a boy.
Yeah you'll see what you're missing. Yes I'm fine now, thanks for asking..
Here's to the fakers, Here's to the heartbreakers!
You try to play his games but then you're the one who's being confusing,
He'll keep using that old line. You could just tell me you don't have the time.
But no, you wanna leave me hanging what's the point in all of my waiting?
I'm the one who's noticing you, Guess that makes me obsessed with you.
I turn your flaws into beauty, and you're seeing this as a bad thing. Are you kidding me?
Yeah well, you're the one who'll be missing me. So, Here's to the heartbreakers
Who are so good at keeping us around while still, keeping our confidence down.
Do you feel as if you own me? I could find a man and not a boy.
Yeah you'll see what you're missing. Yes I'm fine now, thanks for asking.
Here's to the takers, Here's to the heartbreakers!
This is the story of a girl who builds her own thoughts. She has the faith that he'll be more, Than what she only thinks she wants. She's seen the bitter truth, but when someone is looking right at you. It's hard to see through the lying eyes,
When you're mesmerized, yeah I'm mesmerized
Well you'll never own me. You'll never even have me.
Yeah, cause I could find a man and not a boy.
Yes you'll soon see what you're missing.
Did you get what you came for?
Yeah, you're a heartbreaker.
Let me give you a little more.
You know who you are, this one's for you

Keep your back against the wall,
is this is a face that looks like it's sorry for you?
No. I wouldn't care which side of the grass you were on,
as long as you're out of my way.
I will not be still, I will not be silent
These images of you become violent
and I'm searching for a reason not to


Let myself go on you.
Believe me it's not the first time I've wanted to.
I've just been waiting for the right chance,
to hold you still, not hold your hand
but hold you to the flames and watch you dance.


So now we're in business
and I can't stop my heart from racing.
These last few steps before the door,
oh I can almost taste it,
the taste of sweet revenge.
Come closer my friend, so i can


Now I can let myself go on you.
Believe me it's not the first time I've wanted to.
I've just been waiting for the right chance,
to hold you still, not hold your hand
but hold you to the flames and watch you dance.


Quietly between you and I,
I'm suffocating here tonight.


Let it go on you.
Believe me it's not the first time I've wanted to.
I've just been waiting for the right chance,
to hold you still, not hold your hand
but hold you to the flames and watch you dance

yes, this is out in the open and directed to you. i saw you creeping my blog and page so i know that your going to read this. i have a couple things that have really been bothering me so here i go. its not that your a bad friend, its not that i have anything against you, but you are a fucking liar. and im sick of listening to your shit. if your going to lie, do it right. first thing.

• you were too tired to go out? pulled the whole, blahblahblah. im tired, i worked all day. well you ditched me to go get drunk. nice. for someone you consider yourself to be, and i quote.
  seeing
  thats just fucking awesome.
• you lied quite badly about iain. im terribly sorry but you do not know a thing about him. have you ever really even talked to him? no. so stop saying shit that isnt even right, because he happens to be a good friend, and a good guy. unlike you.
  
• not seeing karley? bullshit. not saying that i didnt go to a party with all my exs? bullshit. listen, theres no way karley would come up with something like that on her own because she likes ben. you were jealous of ben from the start. and not seeing her connor, really? i saw the picture of you two on facebook, and your lovely comments on it. and the shit you wrote on her wall, remember. you dont write shit like that on someones wall if your just friends? shove that up your ass. you are a hypocrite. now tell me the scratches on your back are from a hug. and, your facts on cody and karley? wrong. and ben and karley? wrong.
  
• also, saying i said i hate you, nope. sorry bud, you even said. first time we hung out after that fight, that i never said that. i could quote you. you said,
  Karely said she hated me, you never even did that.
  so dont try and tel me i said that. i know waht i fucking said im not stupid.
  i cant really call you out on anymore lies, becuase i forgot my current thought aha. but listen, you didnt like something, i changed it. you apparently always get cheated on, but you still act like a piece of shit when someone tries to show you they care. and this isnt a like but.
  
• DO NOT talk shit about my fucking friends, do you know them? no. you have assumptions about them. but that doesnt mean shit. your a fucking asshole. and your insecure. friends are friends. does not matter the sex. Cody didnt do shit to you, and i know the stuff you said about him was a complete and total lie, iain didnt do shit to you, kyle, alex, ben.. ben especially. he happens to be one of the best people i know. and kevin also, you really have the nerve to talk shit about him? not cool. i do not talk shit about your friends, im like 3 years younger then you. and im still more mature,
  
  so you know what?
  fuck you.

Yeah, you're telling me that I am where it's at
But I ain't having none of that.
Because I told you, you'd live to regret it,
and now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's your turn for that,
'cause in your empty heart I have left a mark,
The best you never had.

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I..
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you[/u]
I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you[/u]
I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

person no. 1:it's crazy how i feel more of a connection with you then me and him did. i mean i met you through him and you and me can carry a conversation on for hours without me being like holy shit shut up. you get me, and i want a crazy friend ship to come out of this.
person no. 2:you over react, but i will get used to it. i still care about you alot. more then ya probably think! just remember that okie.
person no. 3:im proud of you for actually doing something about your mood swings, i just want you to know that.

i over reacted. and i apologize.
and it wont happen again.
you are my friend and if you ever want to talk
im here. and once again i am sorry.