Dude, i totally understand.
You may have a depression problem, but when ya feel low, go out.
One thing i have learned is it's only ever about yourself..so when you feel like a toy
throw them away like yesterdays rubbish.
It'll prove to be very beneficial for you.

but for me its kinda hard to go out when i have no where to go and no friends to fall back on, right now im completely alone

but you arent alone. you still have me and chris to talk to. just because im not your girlfriend anymore doesnt mean im not going to be here for you. i only removed you because i thoughts that was what you would want. im not gunna leave you. youre depression is a serious problem and its not going to stop until you do something about it. you need to stop blaming everyone else. i know that sounds harsh but its true. me and chris both suffer from depression and we fight it. we dont give in. we have eachother. you can be in this sad little group with us. just because we have our differences doesnt mean we wont always be there for eachother because even tho im not your girlfriend and chris is in richmond with me people who are your true friends people that really love you would always be there for you no matter what. through thick and thin. there is nothing true friends wouldnt do for eachother. i will be your true friend. im sure chris wouldnt mind. we wil always be here for you. because thats just how we are. you will be ok trust me. trust me you dont need a fucked up girlfriend to show you what true love is...you need two fucked up bestfriends. <3

well thats exactly how i was feeling. its hard. like i love you dont get me wrong. just right now i just need someone i can actually be with. maybe one day we can work this out. if not you are still gunna be like one of my bestfriends ever.

Good Point Amanda, Nothing like Two Fucked Up BFF's to get you through the moments of pain
Thats what i learned.. even if it seems like people are a million galaxies away like those creatures you see in the apocalyptic movies, they'll always have a place in your heart, fucked up or not. Wow.. that relation wow'd me
And sometimes, you have to grab acceptance of the opposite sex by the balls..and say HEY! Would you be my friend? Cause fuck, they may not listen, but they'll come around. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally, you'll always have Amanda and I to lean on through these kinds of things. Even tho were a a world away.. yes i did just copyright the saying that was on your page eric <3

im sorry i just cant do this..i feel as if you are rubbing it in my face about luke..it hurts me cause i could be all those things for you...but i cant cause if my distance away from you...i know you may think im bluffing but death is constantly on my mind and if i dont find a reason to live by the end of the week it will be the end of my life..this is no longer a bluff i cannot deal with the pain anymore