Sometimes life gets you thinking. People are ever-changing and nothing good or bad will ever last forever. Consciously you'll want the good to be a constant in your life. But as time goes on and the world struggles to continue, our companionships and acquaintances that we thrive and live for can disappear within moments and days. Realizing this brings deeper and more emotional thoughts into your head. What am I doing? Where am I headed? Who is really there for me and who isn’t? When the ever-longing sense of endangerment pierces your skin you see the truth of the matter. And it hurts more than any other pain you could feel. It strikes your heart deeper than any disease you could face. Numb is all you can feel and without it you feel empty. Without the grand essentials in life you have nothing. Something to do, something to love, something to hope for. You can get by with a couple. What happens when you havent been graced by any? You begin to resent. The resentment is followed by a longing sense to have all three and you create a reality for yourself where it is possible. This spreads to all who are around you and when you face the final wall that barricades you and your dreams and hopes you realize the strain to reach a true happiness. When you get in too deep you’ll never find your way back. True happiness is a practice that takes more than anything else in the world. Not until you brace yourself for the true impact of life and hold your head high on the reigns of what restricts you, will you ever find your place in the world. The knife crawls deeper and deeper into your skin and until you indulge the pain and grow from it, will it ever be a reservoir for your deepest desire. Until you grab hold of the shit that confronts every waking moment of your existence will you realize that your true potential is only attained when your happiness has also gained a true existence. When this happens, everything will make sense. The aromas in the air will excite you and the sounds of music will intrigue every moment of your life. I eagerly await this day.