I won't make a difference in this world.
Just so you know, you won't either.

I tell it like it is, so don't expect me to lie for you unless I care and you need it. Just so you know, I won't fuck you. I doubt you could be anymore than a fun person to screw up on nex. Unless me, or one of my close friends, know you in person I never will. I used to be differant, but people change. I got over it, so will you. Please don't expect kindness, I'm not hard to get along with, but I have days. I don't know what to call the music I like. I guess I can't really classify any music... I love my mom, she is my world, although we don't seem to sit and chat anymore. I don't smoke, anything. If you pressure me I won't talk to you. I drink seldomly, but it is with parental supervision. Mine. Don't make a big deal out of my nex name, I'd actually rather you not mention it at all. Honestly it was all I could think of. I'm not changing, for you or anyone else. Currently I am employed, don't ask where. I go to highschool too, I don't skip class. I like color, and random conversations. Over half the population should die. Seriously. I have weird thoughts, some would call me sadistic, others would just say I'm crazy. Really I think I'm rather normal, I just admit everything that you won't. Like I'd eat a person. I don't like babies, or small children. I want them to die off a bridge, not all of them, but alot. My history would not be something you would call normal, ever. I'm also a mix of races. The fastest sperm and most blessed egg, that was me. I have decent genetics. I'm not an idiot, but I don't understand everything. Some people I hate, some I love. Mostly hate.. I will judge you based on appearance, but once I know you, it doesn't matter. If I started talking to you first then don't doubt your looks please. I don't believe in god, or marriage. I don't mind if you do, but I am entitled to my opinion. I have these little habits that I can't stop myself from doing. Some people like to call it OCD, I prefer Perfectionist. I mass download music. Any music if I like any one song from the band. If I like someone, as a friend or more, and they put a video they like I will most likely download the song and all of the others. If I try and fail, I get angry with myself easily. I am both afraid of commitment and rejection. I thought I fell in love once, I didn't. I did decide though that there is no such thing as teenage love. Don't tell. Don't become 'depressed' for no legitimate reason, I am not a legitimate reason, being dumped also not. I love my cousins, they are my only true family, besides my parents and grandparents of course. I have friends, meaning I'm not a loner. I can get along with people. Half the time I choose not too. You have to have a certian quality about you, or I won't want to talk to you, let alone be your friend. Not many people like to follow the crowd, so I wouldn't say I'm different, not many people are normal, so I wouldn't say I'm weird. I don't like ugly numbers, I don't know what makes me think their ugly, but some of the numbers just are, for example; one, seven, nine, thirteen and forty four. When I think about being in love, I'll admit I sometimes think of 'romance', but I usually think of my friends. I would prefer to say I am in love with my friends, not a cute boy. I'm not scared to die, and I do believe in the paranormal, I believe I will become a haunting spirit after death. Maybe I'll come and haunt you?? I do not like not understanding stuff, and when you say something I don't understand I will ask you to explain, or I will zone out. If you break-up with me just to go out with another girl two days later it makes me feel inadequate and useless, please don't do it. I have way too many stories to tell, so unless you want to listen, don't start me, because everything reminds me of everything else. I laugh out of random multiple times during the day, and because of that most of my family thinks I do drugs. Or that I should start. I have a favorite number, and it's eighteen, not because I'll be legal when I turn it, but because it's pretty, and turn the eight and it's a hundred. If you ask me a question, and ask me to be honest with you I will, it'll just take a minute for me to get the right words out. I was suicidal from grade one up to grade seven, I don't know why, but I didn't know how to love myself, or accept love. I think that if you told ten people who were about to commit suicide that there is no music after death, at least eight people would think twice. I like most colors, but I prefer cool tones. That's probably why my top favorites are green, purple and blue. I have a tendency to want my pain to be equal on my body, or I feel awkward for quite awhile. If something isn't perfectly even, or perfectly uneven, it will annoy me for hours, sometimes months. People try to break me constantly, I think the world may be plotting to watch me fall. I know this, so I can hold steady strong. It really does break my heart when people don't follow through with plans though. Just so you know, I may punch you in the balls/cunt if you don't walk at a human pace. I hate how people don't know how to walk when they've been doing it all their life.