Fuck sakes!

I'm fuckin' tired of the ones who ignores me, so I'm taking out the trash. Tired of fucks who uses me for help and all of a sudden takes me out of their lives like I'm a bloody therapist.

For those who message me everyday? I thank you and love you for that, which you'll stay put.

I've done everything in my life, but still need to quickly start on my dreams. Also need a good paying job, but hoping the General Manager in my band office would get me a job there.

Unfortunately that's not what I'm upset. I thought I had everything, but there's one thing that I want is that I want to be in love with a special guy or girl.

There's this one guy that I like so much and just can't stop thinking of him, but sad he lives far away from me. I want him in my life, but I guess he's not interested in me and just doesn't talk much anymore. He's so dreamy and that I know that he's the one, but just wished he would come around and tell me that he appreciates me and wants to be with me. I'll be a happy man, but I know you're reading this.....I miss talking to you and that I do care about you. I will ALWAYS be there for you. Give me a chance......please?

Last weekend, I was upset and lonely and just tired of seeing young teenagers holding hands, cuddling, and kissing each other. It was a community event, which included a community dance. I was there sitting with Mom and just seen my Lil' Cousin showing his affecting to his sweetheart. It upset me and gotten me jealous, because they're lucky to have each other. I' haven't been in a relationship before and just hope this man of my dreams would come around and tell me how he feels. I'm just so tired of being all alone.

It's been year or years since I've known you on here.

Now starting to fall for you of your kindness, respect, and your sexiness. Last year I became friends with someone on here who's your best friend. Now for only a few months getting to know him he hated my sexuality. You still kept me as your friend and didn't care if I am bi.

Later you've been greeting depressed and didn't wanted you to be upset. I wanted you to be happy, so I was the only there by your side online.

I hope that I win big that I come and get you out of that place you're in and make your life with happiness. You mean a lot and that I'll do anything to keep making you happy in my life. I care for you and will always be there for you.

I'm always there for you Sexy

P.S. Your hot pics are my background wallpaper on my iPhone.

I cannot believe you're gone
You're the greatest relative I have ever had, I will miss your hilarious jokes you have always made and traditional drumming/singing will not be the same without you.

You're family doesn't deserve to lose you and just breaks my heart to see your sister/my Aunty be so heart borken to yet again lose a sibling. She lost you, half of your older twin brother Fred, cousin Sheldon, and my Sister/cousin Andrea. You're now back home with the rest of your family, but we will miss you dearly Carl.

Burns Lake, Babine Forest Products, drum practice, and special events like Aboriginal Days will not be the same without you.

I love you cuz and I will always remember your smile. There's no goodbyes, but saying farewell. I will dedicate a song and traditional dance to you in your honour. Rest In Peace Cuz

I am completely devastated that my hometown of Burns Lake had an unexpecting explosion at the place where my parents who worked there for nearly three decades. Mom was the first one to work there before Dad, she just recently celebrated 34 years three weeks ago. Dad only worked there for 30 years and had no education and experience on working in a shack, which was the biggest machine and my Dad went for it. He has been in that shack all of his life working in there. He trained numerous of educated people, but they just gotten too scared to operated it. I also had a lot of friends, friend's parents, Uncle's, cousins', and fellow band members.

My town is very torn apart of this tragedy, which structed everyone with worriedness and getting upset of hearing the news of loved ones working that night. A few of my friends are injured and a few of my relatives also. Now we have two people is missing and one of them is a relative of mine and the other is a relative to my Uncle's in laws too.

We still have no word on if they're ok, but it's now one o'clock in the morning and no relative. My Aunt and Uncle including my Uncle's father and Mother-in-law don't deserve this. They've lost so many of their loved ones and so does everyone who works there..........they don't deserve this!

Please find in your heart to pray for my beutiful hometown of Burns Lake your prayers to everyone for a speedy recovery and pray that they find my cousin and the other guy. It would mean so much to me once they find him.

Thank you for having the time to read this. Your prayers are important to us so much. Again thank you so much

I'm tired of finding Mr. Right or Miss Right. I want love and also want someone who I can wrapped around my arms.

Just thought I actually did found someone to love recently, but found out that he was drinking that night. I was so upset that I actually planned to have a dinner and a movie with him. He is so dreamy and knew that he would be the one! Unfortunately, it wasn't meant to be.

My stress is getting worst, first I lost my Uncle three days ago, falling in love.....not gonna happen now, no one is taking me to PG to get my suit vest adjust to be comfortable, funeral on Saturday, no potlatch/feast after it due to low budget of family, and doing all the fuckin' chores in the house all by myself.

Just so tired of everything and I wish they fall into place.

Today, I am so tired and went to bed late, because my mother's fuckin' job had changed her shifts on weekdays from 10:30 pm - 7:30 am to 3:30 am - 12:30 pm.
Anyway, I was gonna sleep in and relax, but I didn't get enough sleep, because I recieved an unexpecting call from Mom at work that Uncle Norm had passed away earlier this morning. I became very shocked and sad that he left us so unexpectedly. I was gonna plan to see him today and get a hair cut, but now I can't because of hearing the news he passed on. He was battling cancer for a long time and now he's gone. I will cherish the great memories I had with him. Also will run for band chief in the near future for him since he wnated me to go for it. I miss him so much, but I know someday that I'll see him again. Rest in Peace Uncle Norm. I love you.

I always wonder myself if I ever will be loved and cuddle the one who I will ever love.

First bf was so sweet that called each other and constantly text. We always said "I love yous," but I surely miss that so much

I wanna cuddle someone so bad and say "I love you"

I'm so lonely

Zack,

Ever since getting dumped from a great guy, who lived in the same province as I am. I was so depressed that I was used and gotten my heart smashed to pieces. You were the only one that cheered me up from hurting myself. Your addicting cute smile has put a smile on my face and also your cute jokes have done the trick. I knew you were the one that I'll love and care so much.

The jokes started to be more serious and we both made it official that we would be in a relationship. You told me you were in a relationship with a girl who you don't love anymore, which you left her for me. I remember you told me you loved me and that you had to go to your best friends party. Over excited you were that you told your friends about me and showed my picture around that you had a handsome boyfriend, which made my day.

We messaged each other constantly and I intend to check every break I had at work. Told each other our "I love yous" and "I miss yous" just made my day. I was the luckiest guy to have you in my life. I was thrilled your family accepted as your loving boyfriend.

Then you gave me the news you had leave Canada and move back to your original country and you had to leave me. I was so upset that I didn't enjoyed myself at my cousin's wedding. I was heart broken for a week and begged you to respect my wishes to wait for you and you agreed.

We still wrote to each other and still flirted, but then notice your attitude were changing. Then I made a twitter account and found you on there made me happy. Unfortunately I found out that you were still talking to Rachel your "ex" to be with me instead. I was so worried that I didn't wanted to lose you and did some test on you and you said you still wanna be with me.

Now I see this girl on here you're going behind my back by telling you that you're her silly boyfriend and had the nerve to post it on your page. How could you do this to me? Why stabbed me in the back and smashed my glued up heart into pieces? I thought you loved me? You're one fuckin asshole to break and played with my heart. I hope someday that someone does the same on how you treat me you asshole :'(

This is a really big emotional day for me.

I have worked for a half a day and my boss and his wife came into town yesterday and my boss wife wanted to speak with me.

We went to the back and we sat down and talked for 20 minutes, so they notice that I'm not happy and they're really sad for me that I'm stressed out and not happy.

This job was offered to me and I had no exprience in dental work, but they offered this job due to my friendly service at Overwaitea Foods. Now this job has been so stressful for me since week two with them and now they wanted to be happy again and look for a job that I will be happy with.

As a 27 year old, I did cried to her, because she and her husband were so good to me and it just hurts to that the job and stressed out co-workers got to me. I was so emotional that she gave me kind words and happy they didn't fired me, but let me go in a good way. I would like to thank them for giving me some experience at the dental clinic.

I will miss everyone there that I worked with, but no gotta find my happiness. God Bless you to my boss and his wife :'( I love them so much.

*Wish me luck to find a job that I will love.*

I just received a call on my personal cell phone that my hometown dental clinic is offering me a job! The new owners from Vancouver just called me and said that there's a position opened and they're really impressed with my resume! WOOO!!!

He told me I can think about it for a couple days, but I have already decided to go for it, so I'm gonna call him from his Vancouver cell phone and accept the offer.

The job is front desk and it's a full time paying job! the wage is $14 an hour and work my way up.

I'm so excited I wonder when will I start