this is about an ordinary girl with ordinary problems




You can call me A.J.

brought into this world on October 16, 1989

graduate of class '07

youngest of three

Tristan is my baby boy

im scared and you will never realize just how scared i am

ONE tattoo

Closure

[You were my caretaker; my best friend.
When things started to get rough
I looked to you for comfort.
You were there through thick and thin
and in your darkest hour I tried to be strong.

Your time has come to an end
I've got to try to be tough
As your body rests under the dirt
your soul has been released; as well as your sin.
Although in heart you've done nothing wrong.

You will be missed dearly
never will you be forgotten
you were one of a kind
there can be no other
for you were the best dog known.




so go ahead and call me;
depressed
emo
fag
goth
punk
slut
whore
ugly
stupid
bitch
stuck up
skank

i know im not, you're just jealous of me


bet you can't do this, because only 1 in every 30 people can.

I dare you to tell the person who posted this bulletin the absolute truth of how you feel about them.
I mean everything that you think about them. Just do it. Send it in a private message and then if you
have the guts, repost this question to see what people think of you.

Repost if you feel you can handle the truth.

I DARE YOU TO DO THIS.

Brandy------i love you so much!! im concerned about your safety..lol...even though we're cousins we're still best friends forever

X.O. Brittney---- i love you love fairy.....come and see me soon!

Meagan Koebel-----i dont know what id do without you...we need to hang sometime

Erin---Honey Dumplin Stripper partner, wife, sister, uncle, cousin, and all the other incest shit between us fuck we've been through hell and back but you are my best friend for life and im always here for you

Kirsten------We have such beauitful boys and I'm proud of you going through with it

Billie----billie you rock my socks!! you're a great husband!!!! love you

Alex---man you are one of my best friends...i know you're always here for me and same for you...lol...great times just driving around...the many talks we've had and playing RAYMAN

brandon Scott----- we've had some pretty fun times...i wont forget that night at the park *slaps face*...lol and we rolled UPHILL who the fuck does that? and we got stuck in that tire swing...i swear my legs almost fell off

brooke----i still dont know how we fit 3 people on my bed and STAYED on it! thats fucked up...you are so fun to party with! and cottage cheese is nasty!

luara----you make me have an orgasm

dorian------you are like a brother to me...best friend....im gonna miss u when u start university

Ashley----I love you hunnie!

Jamie!------you're such a cutie! "We Will Rock You!" *jamie and aj start rockin out to queen outside of the school with windows down and system blaring* you are a fun girl to party with...thanks for taking care of me....although you went to sev without me, and you're my drinking buddy and im always gonna be there for you so you dont get too out of control

Ryan-----we've come a long way from when you smacked my ass the VERY FIRST day we met....which by the way freaks me out still! and you're my personal journal!

John----you're a fun punching bag...always gonna be here to kick your ass if you ever get outta line, and i know youd do the same for me

Kasi----man i love gettin drunk with you gurl!! fun times........i LOVE who you are....dont ever change and dont ever let anyone change you

Gina----you are a-fucking-mazing girl!! you make me laugh...sometimes i just cant believe the shit you do but i still love you the same

Lansing---when are you gonna take me up on that rain check....my memory isn't that bad!! lol im here for you if you ever need me......learn to eat before we party...dont want that shit to happen again you hear me???

Scott.----miss you hope you're having fun in grand prairie

Bradie----man good times at kfc tapin you up....havin a snowball fight inside and a food fight....you tryin to slide over the counter..lol.sarahs beached whale pose......we r gonna RULE kfc one day...id have gone crazy if you left me....love you girlie

Chris----holy shit we've had some fucked up parties....like goin to the fucking graveyard!!

Markel------i cant believe you wore my fricken bra for 4 hours!!! you're silly and remember im always here for you

Adam-----thank you for being there for me when we put bailey down....you really surprised me, actually, jus thanks for being there for me period.

Eric----Someimes you disappoint me but I still love you...you gave me one of the best gifts in this world even if I dont act like it alot. I love you and Tristan

Sara------ japo.... you're a crazy crazy girl, never stop.


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music...like:
Eminem[/u]
Sum 41
50 cent
Blink 182
My Chemical Romance
Kiss
ACDC
Green Day
Insane Clown Posse
Black Eyed Peas
Pussy Cat Dolls
Big 'n Rich
Godsmack
The Used
Trooper
Tom Petty
Dope
System of a Down
Sweet
R. Kelly
Nickelback
Murderdolls
Kid Rock
The Killers
Jet
Gwen Stefani
Finger Eleven
Evanescence
Dr. Hook
D-12
Bryan Adams
Bowling For Soup
Audioslave
Train
Marilyn Manson
DMX
Live
The Offspring
Motley Crue
Seether
The All-American Rejects
Hinder
Barenaked Ladies
Panic! At the Disco
Blue October
BTO
The Guess Who
October Fall
Rascal Flatts
AFI
Lady Sovereign
Plus 44
Stone Sour
Fergie
Rihanna
Justin Timberlake
Simple Plan
Sir Mix Alot
Theory Of A Deadman
Three Doors Down
The Trews
Billy Talent
James Blunt
Uncle Kracker
Akon
Wolfmother
Aerosmith
Buckcherry
Chamillionaire
Christina Aguilera
Drop Kick Murphy's
Five For Fighting
Foo Fighters
Foreigner
Savage Garden
Guns 'n Roses
HelloGoodbye
Hoobastank
INSX
Jack Off Jill
Life House
Korn
Corporate Avengers
Fallout boy
Lady Bouncer
Ludacris
Savage Garden
Shaggy
Avril Lavigne
Simple Plan
BYZ
Nonpoint




The poem Brandy and I wrote about Jamie

Jamie is like a midget; very short
Once I walked in on her building a fort
Although she may seem to be very dumb
She does have a very nice looking bum
I've never met someone that is so weird
She looks like Santa clause with her long beard
She has really weird taste; she dresses funky
She reminds me of a drunken monkey
Her room is very messy; she is lazy
All the things she says and does is crazy
She's very mean to her little sister
When she's mad she's like a twister
At lunch she always asks for A.J.'s money
But I still love her she is too funny!

I LOVE RON WHITE, LARRY THE CABLE GUY, BILL ENGVAL AND JEFF FOXWORTHY!

Know whats a dirty word but really isnt? JUICEBOX[/right]

rip away my flesh only until you can tell im dying, then let me die painfully as i deserve for my sins

and I'll continue saying sorry for the rest of my life

He deserves so much better than me, and I know who exactly he'd be happy with[/color]

It won't matter if you wrench out my heart, I'm already dead

Past Insanity

Leave me here to bleed to death

Fuck Love

Caught up in my own little world

sufficate me until I breathe my last breath


If you're gonna kill me shoot me in the heart and break it once and for all

Strip me of all my dignity, tear away my strength, rid me of my faults, let me hang in my death

falling...im falling again

Watching him sleep, Silently I weep

slice open my viens; let the blood pour out

He watches her constantly. he flirts with her when I'm around

Instead of making scars I'll write my sorrows along my body

..::..Thirdwheel..::..

He only wanted me for a good fuck

I'm paranoid

She is perfect, perfect for you

Why should I bother talking when all you do is shoot down what I have to say?

History tends to repeat itself, in my case I keep getting hurt in the same ways, but by different guys

Before, I was standing on the edge...waiting till it got better...but now...Im falling

Go ahead and fucking leave me, you'll be happier without me

The secret I'll take to my grave is killing me

Behind every dark cloud is an even darker child

A dark mind is terrible to waste

Everything I do I do it wrong

and you're the cause of a few more scars to hide

Maybe I shouldn't be breathing at all

It's sad to know my flesh and blood, my caretaker for years can't tell my hapiness from sadness

I can still remember the moment I fell in love with you.

Let the tears flow down and collide with my blood

Holding onto nothing that's there

he's basking in glory at the thought of her being single

and i dont wanna taste these tears anymore

i don't need this shit from you anymore

im looking back on my actions and i ask myself what the fuck have i done to fuck my life up?

ruin my will of independence

The taste of salty tears sting my blooded tongue

hands linked together, nothing even existing

im slowly sinking into the shadows

will you kill me in my sleep if i hurt you?

you were wrong, things havent gotten better, they've gotten worse, and it will continue on getting worse, im losing you fast

i wrap the sleeves around me pretend their your arms and i cry pretending your shoulders are there

by the time you decide to save me, I'll be dead

broken promises can leave a girl broken hearted

It never really was true was it?

you can't make the sleepless nights end, you can't make the heartache go away, so leave me here to rot and die and don't say your last goodbye

i think it's funny how when we are teenagers all that ever matters to us is if we have a girlfriend or boyfriend and we get our hearts broken and we break hearts and when we grow up and become adults, having a boyfriend or a girlfriend is the least thing to worry about. Or should be anyways.

I'm just a shadow in the background awaiting my call to step forward
I'm just a presence people can sense but cannot see

When you looked at me i saw the hatred in your eyes

the taste of blood wont go away...my mouth is full of liquid

im left there with tears in my eyes staring at you as you walk away

push that knife harder into my heart

you made my heart black

like a pencil you snapped my heart in half and left the pieces unbroken

I don't wanna be your "first everything" I wanna be your last everything. Last person to kiss goodnight, last to say I Love You to.

and now is the best time to stick together for we have many tough months ahead of us

I hate hearing her cry like that, it reminds me of the pain hes caused how much he deserves to die

my heart is a stone. i can feel it hardening. my heart is a stone. it wont be broken again

I'll load this gun with a bullet, put it to my head, and say goodbye

I wonder what they would say if they knew I was doing that again?

and when im sick i wear your sweater cuz it reminds me of the day i was terribly ill and you didnt leave my side...thats how i knew you cared...that you loved me

i have never felt this alone...even after you left me

I'm not meant to be happy, am I?

You're an arms length away...but I can't reach you

That's the kind of love i want to experience

i wanna fall asleep...and never wake up

love doesn't exist; it's another thing created by men to feel safe

sometimes, a girl just has to cry

I'm not gonna give into your satisfaction

love leaves you bleeding on the floor

got butterflies in my stomach every time i think of you and i get that smile you like so much

my old addiction has found me again.my arm has gone numb

and every time i walk by the blade...i have to resist the temptation

i pass by it...this time i cant avoid temptation

im weak...i failed you

and even though i have you, i feel more alone now than i ever have in my life

i didn't want any of this; it doesn't feel real anymore

none of my friends understand what im going through

i wish everyone would just grow up and stop hurting the family

you're blind to my pain and suffering

can't you tell im just going through the motions???

some people never change

Leave me. Forget me. Erase me.