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guitar
laughter
sweet tunes (A7X!!!)
friends
gettin paid
NOS
my car lol
WEED!!!!!!
jack daniel's
gettin wasted
gettin high
honesty

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surprises
words
smoking (i guess that makes me hypocritical)
haters of the lord our god, Metal
people who generally hate
myself when im full of hatred
spazzy people
angry people
jealous people (get over it!)
loss (but we'll live through that)
alcohol or weed abusers (settle down... we'll get more later lol)









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thnx to terri whoever you are rofl this is the greatest pic i've seen in some time




show up to get wasted..... leave a very happy sombitch
being kicked in the face never made me feel so alive.... alive enough to fuck you up





lol for insanity!!!!!!!!!!!! [/color][/size]

As I Lay Dying, Avenged Sevenfold, Trivium, Slipknot, Iron Maiden, Killswitch Engage, Disturbed, Dope, Cradle Of Filth, Chimaira, Children of Bodom, KoRn, Thrice, Arch Enemy, DevilDriver, HIM, In Flames, Sepultura, Soulfly, Demon Hunter, Marilyn Manson, Adema, Fear Factory, Pantera, Seether, Saosin, and pretty much any form of METAL, and HARD ROCK!!!!!!!

my fav songs............
children of bodom - needled 24/7
avenged sevenfold - unbound (the wild ride)
trivium - a gunshot to the head of trepidation
demon hunter - heartstrings come undone
in flames - come clarity
killswitch engage - my curse
cradle of filth - nymphetamine
soulfly - prophecy
dope - bitch

music is the worlds balance for everyones persona


Close your eyes or look away
fate exposed won't let me stay
hope wil fall tonight with broken wings
descending entity in me
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lost in the fear

forever in a lie... lost in hell... where do we go from here
shamed by the truth... hurt from the world...
failing attempts to escape

wasted again this life which remains
as a fragment of hope that will die
all that's left here now is pain and affliction
but with so much to lose we'll try

all for a glimpse of heaven we wait
in hell's labyrinth of souls
frayed ends of life slip away
the end draws so near
telling the fates of all we have done
life draws in hate and we burn

wasted again this life which remains
as a fragment of hope that will die
all that's left here now is pain and affliction
but with so much to lose we'll try

help us out of this mess we've made
we scream to god to take it all away
but no one will hear our cries go unheard
we'll end this life in torment and rage
go now into the world they say
time to lose all that we fought for
throw out your fears our end is too near
and give up your mind and your soul

wasted again this life which remains
as a fragment of hope that will die
all that's left here now is pain and affliction
but with so much to lose we'll try

the only place that feels like home

an empty hole is what you left
and i wish i never left you
but life has taken me so far away
i can't seem to find the words to say

and i try so hard to let you know
that i have moved on but miss you so much

these memories haunt my thoughts
can't get you out of my mind
your the only one who holds my heart
don't take it too hard when i fall for you

and i try so hard to let you know
that i have moved on but miss you so much
hell seems the only thing in sight
nowhere to go so i'll walk away
from you and everything

these words are hard to say
but i can't speak to you
i won't return for you
if i do then help me through this
i trust you to know
that i have to be this way
it's just who i am and what i've become
you'll learn in time and realize why

i try so hard to let you know
i cannot do this alone
forget i ever loved
i just hope you'll come to know

and i try so hard to let you know
that i have moved on but miss you so much
hell seems the only thing in sight
nowhere to go so i'll walk away
from you and everything



there is nothing for me to lose but hope SVS

sometimes its not easy... say goodbye
will i ever be free just tell me why
its not all your fault but you knew that
i wasted my time and i don't want it back
if its over then it ends right where i started
back in this gloom back into darkness

so i walk away to leave you and these memories behind
don't look my way cuz its everything you hate
if i could fix myself to make it right with you i would
until then don't hold your breath i'll find a way
without this on my mind

don't trust me... not that you did
i was wayward with illusion
now i crawl away from this wreckage
that i so blindly called my life

don't forget that i was only trying to be
someone that you could hold close
the nightmares that have haunted me
are vengeful and are ripping me away

so i walk away to leave you and these memories behind
don't look my way cuz its everything you hate
if i could fix myself to make it right with you i would
until then don't hold your breath i'll find a way
without this on my mind






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Hacked Russly!!!
We're Ballin'
Watching Juno with you was fun.
We Really Do Have To Make Saturday Movie Day!
Your one of my best friends and idk what id do without you.
I love your random texts at 3 in the morning They're pretty shweet deals.
Anyways i think your getting bored watching me type.
ilu tons♥Bullet-x-Theory

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