i am disgraced with this profile, im am disgraced with myself, i am disgraced with teenagers nowadays.... i used to think it was kewl, i used to think i was mature but i wasnt kewl, i wasnt mature... is this page a summary of waffle, the kid i was, summed up by drugs, and agression, and a misperseption of value... i am not that kid, waffle is dead, i am not he... i cant change the past, i know this... but i kinda wish i kicked my own ass
all this anger, all this agression, all the drugs and inebriation... is that all i ever stood for... now i stand for peace, i stand for love. i dont do drugs (still toke up tho), i dont abuse others, i dont think im better than anyone... that was waffle, i am not waffle... i am marcus, im no wanna be juggalo... im a hippy, im a greasy chain tokin, bong smokin, peace preaching hippy... and i prefer this over any other life i lived
i have gone 5 weeks with out a drink and like a week or so drug free... but i still feel like the same old jerk, i same lying caniving asshole
how do i fix my old waays, how do i make my life better??? please help me some body help me make this better
ive done alot of thnking lately, i thought abour old freinds, i thought about new freinds and i thought about how much life has changed. but life hasnt changed, i still have great freinds, i still party and im still me. but who am i. i mean for the last 2 years i have been running around as waffle, and that used to mean something, like something huge, but now that meaning is gone. but i am not marcus amerl, no, i am not part of that family, i am not part of that world. but then whats left, i mean whats actually left. waffle always stood for freedom and marcus was always a prison for me, so what do i have, who am i, where should i summon the strenght to find out. there is nothing sadder than somebody with no identity, and i have lost my identity.
i feel like im falling in revers
always going down, never up
i feel like the worlds on my shoulders
cold wind in my face
falling down
NEVER UP
ILL NEVER GET BACK UP.....
WHYYYYYY
is it 1 step forward
and 2 steps BACK(sing scream)
NOOOOOOOOW
ill try to get back up
not fall back
DOOOOOOOWN
i feel like im walking backwards
never maing ground
it feels like millions of daggers
in my spine
cold pain
HELP ME
HELP
MEEEEEE
WHYYYYYY
is it 1 step forward
and 2 steps BACK(sing scream)
NOOOOOOOOW
ill try to get back up
not fall back
DOOOOOOOWN
i cant get up
I WONT FALL DOWN
RESILIANCE
will save us all
save us alll
WHYYYYYY
is it 1 step forward
and 2 steps BACK(sing scream)
NOOOOOOOOW
ill try to get back up
not fall back
DOOOOOOOWN
your eyes
so blue
like the seas
the deepest seas
your hair so smooth
like the softest silk
from the softest places
your voice
so sweet
FOR A LIAR
(chorus)
I KNOW
i have a million words
to say to you
I HOPE
these million words
can change the lies
I WISHED
the truth could end the lies
i guess we're running out of
excuses
your kiss
so sweet
like the freshest
berry of the bunch
your love
so right
like the end
of the coldest night
your voice
so sweet
FOR A LIAR
(chorus)
I KNOW
i have a million words
to say to you
I HOPE
these million words
can change the lies
I WISHED
the truth could end the lies
i guess we're running out of
excuses
i cant run anyMORE
cant scream and LOUDER
i cant recreate the love
you tore apart with hate
i cant run anyMORE
cant scream and LOUDER
i cant take away the tears
cause i
oh i
im running out
of excuses
dont call me marcus....he's dead
dont call me waffle.... hes gone, he ran away from here
i am just another face, in just another crowd, in just another town.
now marcus
marcus was much more
he ran the town, he knew every face
marcus was kind and virtuous
he only knew love and freindship
waffle
waffle meant even more
waffle took the town ad crushed it
he saw every face burn
he was strong, powerful
he knew only respect and rebellion
me
im nothing
im mean nothing
im just another face, in just another crowd, in just another town
since marcus died and waffle ran away i mean nothing
i am nothing
so dont give me a stupid fucking name
no stupid fucking grave
i dont want a stupid fucking life
i dont need your stupid fucking face
waffle he left with the respect so just
fuck off
and marcus took the joy
so leave me be
let me be free
thats what they mean, thats all i mean....i just want to be alone
To die alone. Encased in a tomb of solitude. One man forever and always. This is my biggest fear, this will always be my biggest fear. From this fear i have rationally planned my whole life. Ive planned that i will make a tight nit group of friends. Get one woman to love til the day i die, never smoke or do drugs. I would be society’s favourite child. I am the neglected child of society, running along the street at age 5 screaming “daddy daddy look what i can do.” But society would never look. Not even a casual glance. I feed off of this neglect and loathing. I feed off of the anger instilled in my stone cold heart since a young age.
ive spent everyday of my life, every fuckin hour trying to make everyone else feel better... well great, everyones happy, everyone..cept me
meh
well FUCK IT....IM FUCKIN DONE... IM NOT GONNA COMMIT MY LIFE TO EVERYONE ELSE AND REALISE, IM GETTING NOTHING....if u have an issue from here on, i dont care, im not gonna help, im not gonna pretend to be happy... im not gonna live my life for anyone but me
new song i wroted...dedz to bry
if i cud use all the words ino
to fix all the things ive done
it still leaves so much to say
so many unsaid words
so much
i still need to
admit
so please
my freind
will you listen to me
(chorus)
a thousand pins jammed in my heart
like the robax doll
i feel his pain
a red hot dagger
into your back
im so sorry
im so
SORRY
i give you all my love
but ino
you shouldnt forgive
all the thngs ive done
with all this hurt
the words ill say
will nvr mean enuf
to you
(chorus)
(guitar break down)
I GIVE YOU PERMISSION
TO TAKE MY HEART
AND BREAK IT
PLEASE TAKE IT
AND BURY IT IN THE GROUND OH
I WANT YOU TO SAY TO ME
ALL THE WORDS OF PAIN
SHATTER ME
AND BREAK ME
DO IT NOW
I WANNA HERE YOU SAY
YOU WANNA SEE ME CRASH AND BURN
ILL CRASH TO THE GROUND
IF IT MAKES THINGS BETTER
BREAK ME
BRUN ME
THROW ME TO THE GROUND
BREAK ME
BRUN ME
THROW ME TO THE GROUND
BREAK ME
BRUN ME
THROW ME TO THE GROUND
I GIVE YOU MY HEART
TO DO WITH IT AS YOU WILL
(CHORUS)
thoe you walk through the black valley of death you will prevail, though it seems dark and black we all no you wwill prevail
close your eyes
and be at peace
know that world
you loved
loved you as well
know that your freinds
will keep you alive
in our hearts you surviv
you survive
though you walk
through the valley of the black
shadow of death
you will prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
though it seems so dark
and grim
i know youll prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
float above
the world that you know
and go to the light
let go
and be at peace
my freind
its ok
to fly away
AND CAUSE OF THE LOVE WE FEEL
WE KNOW YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE
OUR HEARTS
HOLD YOU CLOSE
though you walk
through the valley of the black
shadow of death
you will prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
though it seems so dark
and grim
i know youll prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
AND KNOW
WE WONT LET GO
AND KNOW
WE WONT FORGET
AND KNOW
WE HOLD YOU CLOSE
AND KNOW
WE WONT LET GO
AND KNOW
WE WONT FORGET
AND KNOW
WE HOLD YOU CLOSE
we hold you close
though you walk
through valley the of the black
shadow of death
you will prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
though it seems so dark
and grim
i know youll prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
though you walk
through the valley of the black
shadow of death
you will prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
though it seems so dark
and grim
i know youll prevail
YOU WILL PREVAIL
my freind
my wonderful freind
the joyous man
we grew to love
i hope you knew
that we all loved you
may you live for ever in out hearts
dear freind
never leave us
stay close forever
and never leave
promise youll never leave
RIP MIKE
