When thoughts of self destruction saunter into mind – what should one say. How do you look into the eyes of some part of you – that’s about to destroy everything you’ve worked so hard to achieve? Do you let it go, and think of a better time, or drop the lies and see the world for what it is. To realize that romance is far dead, and that stupidity has replaced it. Money outweighs family, and self absorption runs rampant inside swollen veins, crushing hearts of those who have no one real left. To hear people talk about jumping from heart to heart – without any remorse, and lying not only to everyone and themselves. But creating a world in which lies are truth, and the stars only shine when you smile.
A world connected to everyone, where privacy is no longer something humanity seems to care for. Where that first kiss is meaningless unless photographed, and tagged. That no moment has any passion or feeling unless the world knows. It must be paraded, and put on like a cheap show. We will never see true love, true friends, or the purity that the human heart once was – again. Those days have long passed, as we move into the age where no one saves themselves for someone who takes their breath away. An era where everyone knows everything, giving power to those who should not have power, and being someone truly unique, means nothing. Days bounce into each other, bleeding into one long migraine of work and loss. The moments of glory that shine through the fog surrounding our personal ethics and choices are thinning; being blown away by the winds of change.
Perfection in love, friends, and humanity itself has infected the mindset of all of us. That every person is equal, there is no true wrong or right, no one fails and no one wins. Faith in God means you believe in heaven. You don’t believe in what God stands for, what people can’t even blindly follow. Simple values and beliefs have been cast aside and forgotten. Washed away in acid rain – melting the faces of those who believe they are praying to a God who will love them no matter how badly they intentionally fuck up.
There is no purity in the human soul, nor is there any pride in the human mind. These have been cast aside by society, by choice. Looking into the eyes of those whom you care for – display only an empty room with a chair; a lone chair for you, and you alone. For you to sit in, and reflect – to wonder where the heart warming soul ran away too. Generations are growing up faster, leaving no time for maturity to develop a sense of direction and morals. Individuality is being covered over by what is popular like a bad breath mint. And these values that humanity once possessed, what made Earth so great – are not only past endangered, but being killed off intentionally.
While the sky will always throw rain down upon us – no one will ever wake. This is not a dream that we live in, and soon enough humanity as a whole, will recognize this and see what we have done to what is now considered a dream.
But for now, I give up trying to be that unique person. If you’re out there, please let me know.
It is not Blood that I fear.
The sight of it flowing like a river between all of our legs.
But rather the absence of its entirety within earth.
It is not Pain that I fear.
The knives digging deeper through our twisted soul of emotions
But rather it being hidden inside – decaying into self loathing putrid thoughts.
It is not Hate that I fear.
The slick tongues and vengeful thoughts of delusion bringing them joy
But rather lies beating against ones confused mind, like rain on the coldest nights.
It is not Death I fear.
The unknowing black mystery - that plagues the striking, ever growing human mind.
But rather breathing while the soul resting deep inside – has passed.
It is not God I fear.
The continuous Judgemental tendencies that triumph over your every move.
But rather the imaginations of our ancestors – forever passing on false hope.
It is not Armageddon I fear.
The colorless sky wrapping itself around the soulless lands that one caressed our meek footsteps.
But rather the inner eye of humanity, breeding selfish beings for all infinite time.
It is being human, that I fear.
Streams of burning light ignite the field presented in front of me
The tiny blades of grass creating a carpet of green stretched out far beyond my reach
And I stand alone
The scars of my memories burning my mind.
Lies from everyone’s corroded breath linger in the wind
Yelling in my ears, telling me to run
Escape the blank expression of the mindless sheep
Take the pieces of my shattered heart and throw them to it.
Stars now litter the sky
A lonely soul standing in a field
The scars now bleeding, screaming the mistakes they were graced by.
Stains that won’t wash away, while the poison finally sets in
Blackened veins that throb beneath my fading skin
A restless soul no longer need struggle
For it was being let go.
The soft grace of an angels voice lingered from the distance
Caressing the wind and healing the wounds
Eyes no longer staring at the stars
Instead, they stared at you
There you stand, holding all I let go
Every piece i threw to the wind
Mended, crying and holding my hand
We kissed beneath the stars.
