Its make you wonder about the way life works when you try for so long to get something and once you have it, its not even what you wanted, or expected. You change the person you are to be where you think it will be a better place, but its hard to be fully pulled into a new life, and even harder to let go of an old one. You get lost in who the bests are, who you should be spending time with, and more importantly who you are. There are few times where you can sit back and never wish there was something else, what is it to be completely happy? Is it possible? Theres always something your looking for, or waiting for, or someone else you want to be with or someone else you want to know. And what when we are with that one person we want to be with? Do they even care? Do they even know? Are they thinking the same things as you but having troubles reading you? and if thats the case, where are you left. Is it really worth it to pretend to be happy, and not stand up to others if it would be mean being alone without it