![[D]eath.[W]ish. - 19, Female, Saskatoon](http://images.nexopia.com/gallerylandscapemini/3/2715192/127.jpg "[D]eath.[W]ish. - 19, Female, Saskatoon")
I cry every fucking day.
For no reason at all..
or for every reason possible..
For no reason at all..
or for every reason possible..
You say there is nothing to worry about...
But you are showing/feeling all the same symptoms you had last time....
Please fucking god dont do this....
I need my mommy...Please dont fucking do this...
She fought and lived throu cancer last time....
Why do you have to put her thro it again...
Those tests better come back negative...
She promised me she'd be there till the day I leave this world...
Dont make a liar out of my mom...
Shes my best friend....
Holy fucking shit please...
But you are showing/feeling all the same symptoms you had last time....
Please fucking god dont do this....
I need my mommy...Please dont fucking do this...
She fought and lived throu cancer last time....
Why do you have to put her thro it again...
Those tests better come back negative...
She promised me she'd be there till the day I leave this world...
Dont make a liar out of my mom...
Shes my best friend....
Holy fucking shit please...
l loathe myself with hate, while it bleeds out of love in that very same weight.
Some-
thing of antinomy.
'l love you,' stabs into myself. Until those same words tore up my throat...
lt's almost as if, my heart, is like a blade.
Unafraid of my sad, soaked wounds.
'Cut me,' screamed the skin.
And my hand stabbed at it with that dull dagger.
lt was art, though in lack of imagination...
it was real.
And for the very first time l even thought that,
that just maybe,
you can finally feel me...
Holy fucking shit...
I thought I had control over my anxiety attacks, thought I didnt need help
But after last night... I definatly do.
It was a pretty scary feeling, as I was drifting off I felt as if I was leaving
my actual body, as if I was drifting into death =\, as depressing thoughts
filled my head.
I jolt myself fully awake, so full of panic, shaking,
I start screaming and calling for bradyn,
and start to nearly cry.
Happened twice.. Didn't get to sleep till 5-6am.
blah/fml
I thought I had control over my anxiety attacks, thought I didnt need help
But after last night... I definatly do.
It was a pretty scary feeling, as I was drifting off I felt as if I was leaving
my actual body, as if I was drifting into death =\, as depressing thoughts
filled my head.
I jolt myself fully awake, so full of panic, shaking,
I start screaming and calling for bradyn,
and start to nearly cry.
Happened twice.. Didn't get to sleep till 5-6am.
blah/fml