Life is a great place where there is flowers and smiles.....and now theres guns and fists lifes aplace where i just dont wanna be, i lose person after person adn im seriously done i keep losiug friend after friend and i cant fucking handle it anymiore it fucking hurts it breaks my heartt when i finally ebleive lifes getting better and myu friends are finally gonna stay and then they go off and just stop being my friend i am seriously sick of crying and tears i cant deal with all of this bullshit and pain on top of my already tragic life......im fucking sick and done with it whuy is it that im just so blind to whats going to hurt me and whats not....its starting to piss me odff howmany times i fucking cry all the times my heart aches from all the shit i just lkeep managing to lose from the stupid mistakes i make everyday i guess im always gonna be the onje to open my mouth and lose something else but truth is i dont know if i can handle losing you................................you were my best friend the only one who could calm me down or make me laugh and well i guess i wasnt a good enough friend to you or whatever happened i appoligize know for being the bitch that i wasa