Last night I dreamed that one of the most important person in the world to me died and I have never woke up from a dream crying so hard. I dreamed I was at his funeral standing on a stage trying to explain what an amazing and important person he had been to me in life but all I could do was cry. All I could think of was that I hadn't talked to him recently before he died because we were in a fight. I couldn't stand that he had left this earth without us being on good terms. At the time it literally felt like my heart was being ripped out my chest and I didn't think I could ever go back and have a normal life. This dream felt way to real and when I woke up I was so relieved to know it was all just in my head. Instantly upon waking I wanted to phone my friend and try to talk things out but for some reason i'm still to stubborn to fix things. Why is that?
