I've got 2 personalities, an i keep tryin'a be both of em'
Ones open minded, the other thinks he knows more than the most of em
When im J-reds, all in all, people say get my life together
Problems all i ever wanted, was for the veins in my wrist to be severed
Since i was young, i've had emotional problems,
im closed up cuz all of these, People keep crackin jokes that always seam to bring up my hauntings
People joke in track often, before i turned 13, fiends
hurt me, so literally, i kept tryin'a hang myself in the closet
If my mom woulda put me in scouts, I probably coulda tied the noose to choke
And if i wasn't broke, i coulda probably bought me up some proper rope
But cheap rope, broke, so folks, i've got envelope, with several suicial notes
I wrote to a few hoe's that i hope'll overdose
all these people callin' me emo that just hopin i die,
I dont think i can, i've been tryin' ever since i remember being alive
Well i geuss my dad grand contribution to my, life
Was when the blue jays won the world series, he threw me so high my head hit the ceiling
Im not doctor but maybe my noggin' was internally bleeding
Curddling pockets, of blood and oxygen, maybe made my mind misleading
Maybe it was when i smashed my head on the pavement, like 2, just makin'
my first steps and had to get my head stitched up with staples
and thats a metaphore, for my whole fuckin life by the way
I learned how to duck, hate and say fuck, before i could bathe
Ab my momma moved around the country, chasin' pieces of shit
believe it at this, Meeting knew peoples sucks, but not as bad watchin your momma get treated like shit
I used to get beat up for defending girls, but i got the poon,
when i was 12, maxs sister sucked me off in my momma's room, ( i fucked her too)
Yah i know what your thinkin, im disgustin an shit,
I am, thats not the point, it was payback from herein' her hip huggin a dick
I dont know how i never got expelled from a school,
Maybe i did, and they didn't tell me, and that why we had to move
But scrap that, like a shitty verse and throw it away
This moments told me i can't relate to anyone on this fuckin earth let alone my own age
I think were all schitzophrenics, and some just let it get the best of em,
Sometimes i think im just as crazy as the fuckin res of em
I think were all schitzophrenics, and some just let it get the best of em,
Sometimes i think im just as crazy as the fuckin res of em
So every fuckin friend, thats tried to dick my bitch,
Fuck the rhyme i wrote, your just a worthless piece of shit
And yah blabba blabba to the one faggot that actually did
Id dig you a grave, but that would mean youd actually win./
Its fuckin' with my brain, like a migrain, my fate,
equates to a relation of pain, this broken vase contained
A rose with grace, while i tried to hold my place,
THe open space, filled my dome with rage, a bitter taste
of defeat, so i pick the piece between my teeth
cause a kid'll never breathe'll be the reason that i never sleep
And i don't blame her,not a bit, it was the right decision'
But that doesn't make it, any easier to live with
And in, my experience, most girls are fake as shit
So can i, give you my heart, and you can just keep breaking it
Because, something that i've learned, this hearts beyond repair
apart from prayer, im wishing for a solar flare,
So we bolt, a rail, into the roof, as we drill, the final screw
8 feet of rope, an additional four, tying, 12 knots of noose
And as we hang as see the truth,suicide for 2,
Joined in life, and locked in eyes, suicide for 2.
Like A Fiend
Ketamine
Water Blades
All the Way
Squeeze Heavily
6 Cracks
Welcome to the Game Son
Tender Love & Care
Monkey On My Back
So for serious, dont waste your time.
Its 9 05 am.
and the world is already proved this gonna be a rocky day,.
I do believe my cover is blown. ahahahaha
For every fuckin lie, that you faggots propogate
For the heavy eyes, your bring to intoxicate
Hide in your disguise, illude the guards to penetrate
Dissociate your mind, take your ketamine medicate
And facilitate livin' life, like a real cheapskate
tranquillizers turnin' your brain into deadweight
Learn to manipulate, to enduce your favorite mindstate
Fixated a special K, ya'll begin to salivate
as an acceptance of fate, as your pupils begin to dilate
while your pocket deflates, frustrated so you hate
the ininimate, that you pack up by the crate
now your a mental patient, im just here to congratulate
your loss of ability to locate your brain station
You accept fake medication, to relieve this irritation
Fall out of this world, yall becoming complacent
And the only creation is your nostril inflamation
In prioritization, ketamine takes first position
first placement, coppin'another bump is mearly a mission
Jonesin' for a fix, but your broke so keep wishin'
Dreams of ketamine, seap into your daily vision.
For every fuckin lie, that you faggots propogate
For the heavy eyes, your bring to intoxicate
Hide in your disguise, illude the guards to penetrate
Dissociate your mind, take your ketamine medicate
Just take the ketamine medicate, ketamine medicate
K-K-K Ketamine medicate, whats up powder brain?
Its almost demeaning to see how hard you be fiending'
Turning into a machine, to devour ketamine
You cannot be cleaned, or weened from thise demon
This screaning conviened, how much did you recieve?
how much did you retain of this profance disdaine
You already look more hagard then dave mustaine
and to portray dissaray, and then continue to complain
You say obstaine from k? these fags so no way
I havn't even hit a k hole in a whole 7 days
Been on a contingency binge,i havnt even blazed
I aint even need a syringe, just snort to hit phazed
You only need a pinch, an inch of this K.
Having trouble speaking? a little to much tweaking?
Bitch, you be peaking, so forget thoughts of sleeping
Your seperated from the part of your body that does thinking
When you return, you realize that its shrinking
For every fuckin lie, that you faggots propogate
For the heavy eyes, your bring to intoxicate
Hide in your disguise, illude the guards to penetrate
Dissociate your mind, take your ketamine medicate
Just take the ketamine medicate, ketamine medicate
K-K-K Ketamine medicate, whats up powder brain?
Needless to say, i wont give in to these subtle actions.
Its not that its not hard, its that i have to,
And since i started, things started getting better.
so im sorry but this isnt gonna change,
no matter how big of a mask you put on the situation
i see right through you.
