- me and randy are in a fight , and i got in to a fight with shane last night for no reason and i feel so bad coz i got really pissed at him and i actuaslly made him mad at me ,,,, he never gets mad at me
- havnt gone to school in 3 weeks
- talking to randys ex about how she thinks shes ugly i dont knwo why randy says shes a bitch shes really nice
-I need a smoke
- yea i got phone and cable back *FINALLY* ive been so bored and i got all the music chanels and movie chanels , yeaa
- apprently i should give randy time then talk to him , but i cant wait around forever for him to make up his mind if he wants to be with me or not, i cant sit around for three mounths pretending it dosent hurt me that he walks past me and pretending it doesnt hurt me that im not with him and in his world i dont exsit .
-Blah im so tierd
- woke up at 6 and tried to go back to sleep when i finally did i slept till 10 30 am
- cutting down smoking only have had 3 today
- gonna go meet my mommy after work hopefully i see randy on the walk there or back so we can chill
- phone is still dissconected , blah
- the guys done working on my bathroom so happy it looks great
- have two boyfriend randy and shane dont know who to choose
- i hate being woken up at 8 am by people destryoing my bathroom wall
- wondering if katrina wants to chill today !
-i love playing mario on N62 epic glitches
- never gonna give you up. stereos && butterflies . stereos
Wow i havnt posted something new in like forever!!!
anyway here it goes
my lief should be grate right now ... i have a great supportiove family and a wonderful boyfriend who ive loved scince grade 8 and im finally with him !!!
but he is acting like hes using me acting like a player and all this and its hurting me ..... i went and dumped him and threw everything out that remined me of him but he hurt me and the truth is he really does want to be with me and he has changed and i accussed him of cheating on me and doing a bunch of shit behinde my back and hes not ..... !! i feel so bad i called him and hung up on him yesterday and i didnt mean anything i said aboout him and i said alot of bad shit about him and he dfoesnt even know i want to break up with him i just feel like i messed up and i really wisdh i kept that shit i threw away !!!
These past few days have rocked my socks and Sucked Ball
K on Monday
I had school
Tuesday
i had school
Wensday
My Dad Birthday Happy Birthday Daddy
My sister had to go to the hospital Get Well Soon Brittany
Randy Asked me Out agian
and i said yes
I had to break things off with sahne after just geting back togther with him and he didnt take it well !!! i feel like a bitch
I finally made up my mind about what im gunna do about the Radny and Shane thing !!! i was up til 4 am talking to Shane and i reolized how muich i like talking to him and if we broke up i wouldnt have that anymore !!! and Randy I rolized that we are messing up our friendship and thats what we nedd to stay ... friends
life is finally ok again
i love you baby and i want you !!!! < 3 33 Shane
*high 5's* i went to school yesterday but im skipping today !
im glad i went to school i seen randy ! and he walked me home ... and we talked and he kissed me ! but b.c i wanna like randy with out feeling gulity i had to take a break from shane so we are on a break it prolly wont last long !
plus i still dont belive shane didnt do anything with that chicky that was at his house !!!
I told shane that i need to think about alot of stuff before i have a serious relation ship ... i need to make up my mind and he was like yea that would be nice !!! i hate putting him through this thats why i need to stop .... Randy is here thats a big diffrence i can have a real relation ship with him not this long distace bull shit with Shane!!! I want Shane I Love him so much but it hurts not having him here !!!
I love everrything about him .. his Laugh , His voice Hes sweet and Treats me Good !!! And he has never hurt me !!! But Randy is Here , Hes Cute , He nice and hes sweet !!! But i found out that he is doing coke and meth and i want to help him hes my friend and has been for like 5 years now and i dont wanna see him hurting his self and throught his life away doing stupid shit !!! I love randy .. with all my heart ... god this is a tuff choice i have to make and i cant keep them both holding on !!! thats mean and i have been there before !
There's only a little mroe then a mounth left til 4 20 :::::
FUKEN EHH
can't waiit ..... Katrina are you comiong to 4 20 with me ??
It was shanes b rithday on saturday so *happy birthday boo ... you mean everything to me and i love you so much*
But im still mad at him coz hes lying to me !!!! Britt and Mary were on the phone with him and they heard some chick in the back round saying "were are the towls ?" and then she said " so are you gunna come shower with me or what ?"" Brittany lies to me but mary doesnt so .... i dunno who to belive but now i know somethin's up ...
I talked to sam last night and that was fun fun ... he was all bitchy and shit saying stuff like " so you just gave yiour self away ?" and i promised him that i was gunna wait to give "it" to him but he and i sttopeed talking so i didnt think it matterd anymore !!! OMG i hate sam .....
What Would You Do If:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What Do You Think About My:
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Answer These Too..
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] How would you label me?
[33] Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
Mary Spent the night last night and and me britt mary and adam went to this park and climbed this hugde atom ball thing and took a ton of pics and she might be sleeping over agian to night i hope so last nigth was so funn
btut now coz of mary kylee now has an fear of swiper the fox from dora
"LIKE COM'ON MARY SHES TOW AND DORAS HER FAVORITE SHOW WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE HER CRY ?????" lol good times last night
me and shane got in to a big fight last night which almost ruined my whole f***ing night
I told him that i did something which shoulda pissed him off but didnt so now im starting to think that he doesnt care . Its like he has no emtion i could sit there for three hours pouring my heart out to him like ill say i can never get bord of you b.c you make me smile and give me that feeling and all that jazz and hell say i cant get bord of you b.c your aswome ... its like he doesnt feel thesame way about me that i feel about him and it hurts b.c he lives in b.c and all we have is the phone to talk and its like he isnt even making that effort to conecct with me and have some sort of relation ship with me yet ... he loves me !!! im so fucking confuzed ... i love him but sometimes i wonder if he loves me !!!
it really suks that me and Matt are not as close as we used to be i really need him in my life and i hate that we barley talk anymore ... we used to talk about everything and i really messaed everything up with him and now hes saying he doesnt care anymore but i want him to i care about him and i hate the feelign im getting from this it hurts so bad all i want to do is fix it and if i cant imm gunna cry
