Yeaterday jeff and i went to Elbow falls and we had a great time.As i walked i thought about "could i live with out jeff if any thing was to happen to him?" and the truth is i couldnt...i know how i am when he doesnt pick up his phone and when i have to say good bye and i cant i suck at it even if i have to be home i still cant say good bye even when i know ill see him tomorrow. so it leaves me thinking if the one we love died tomorrow what would life be like. what if we spent our whole lives trying to find that some one and there dead before we get to see or meet them? then what? does life stop do we have some one else out there looking for us what if were looking for some one when some one else is looking for us?? then what? you know as scary as it sounds Death, We are all realy dieing some faster then others some slower but life does go on but the road at the end maby isnt what we dreampt it to be..... to those of us in the front of the line, No man No false image can save you. To those in the back of the line party hard and fill your life with no regrets.

I thought to my self what life would be like with out jeff?
I couldnt. I love him so much and as i look back to last summer and how fun work was with him and how much he loves me, life just keeps going.Now as school it almost over i wonder, what work will be like this year and the fact that i be working along side my mother and having to act as though jeff and I hate each other. It will be great ill sneak kissess in when i can and ill act like im going to the bathroom to go to his office and see him and grab a kiss to keep me from killing my mother and sister.

I love you.

12 things to not say to a cop

1. I can't reach my license unless you hold my beer..

2. Sorry, Officer, I didn't realize my radar detector wasn't plugged in.

3.Aren't you the guy from the Village People?

4. Hey, you must've been doin' about 125 mph to keep up with me.
Good job!

5. Are You Andy or Barney?

6. I thought you had to be in relatively good physical condition to
be a police officer.

7. You're not gonna check the trunk, are you?

8. I pay your salary!

9. Gee, Officer! That's terrific. The last officer only gave me a warning, too!

10. Do you know why you pulled me over? Okay, just so one of us does.

11. I was trying to keep up with traffic. Yes, I know there are no
other cars around.. That's how far ahead of me they are.

12. When the Officer says "Gee Your eyes look red, have you been drinking?"
You probably shouldn't respond with,"Gee Officer your eyes look
glazed, have you been eating doughnuts?"

Things said daily by horsebackriders
He won't come into my hands.
There's nothing like having 17 hands between your legs.
I'm gonna get off now.
More leg less hand.
It was a great ride, but he's kinda sticky.
He needs a good 20 minute warm-up.
Relax your back, don't pinch with your knees ... go with the motion.... rock your pelvis......
When he gets excited he really foams up.
If he's not ridden 5 days a week he gets cranky.
I rode yesterday, but Suzy's riding him today.
Go ahead, ride him, you'll like it .... he'll be good for you and teach you quite a bit.
He can be ridden twice in one day.
He's being a pig ... get his head up.
He bends to the left, but he's really stiff to the right.
He really over-reacts when I sit down into him.
Smack him if he refuses.
Clean it quick before he sucks it back in.
Why does your horse get to lick it and I Dont!!!
Has anyone seen my breast collar?
She has such a nice bum!

Riding’s behind the athlete you have become,
The hours of practice,
The coaches who pushed you,
The team mates who believed in you
And the fans who cheered for you,
There’s a girl who touched the saddle…
Who held the mane in her hand
And touched the face of beauty
Fell in love with the sport
And never looked back...

1. Spell your first name backwards:
yla

2. Story behind your nexopia name?
its my name

3. What month were you born in?
April

4. Where do you live?
calgary

DESCRIBE YOUR:

5. Wallet:
bank cards, memberships, pics, alise(life saver) bubble gum rapers

8. Pillow cover right now:
green, white, zebra, cheata

9. Underwear:
g-strings all the way

10. Favorite Food:
peters drive in

11. Favorite place to hangout:
my stable

12. Favorite shirt:
grey and purple roxy hoodie with a wife beater

13. Time you usually wake up:
9:00

14. Cd in your stereo:
paris hilton, 15 years on death row, 50 cent, jeff loves me, i hate love

15. Piercings:
6 in ears 1 you shouldnt know about

WHAT ARE YOU:

16. Wearing right now:
russell shorts and wife beater

17. Wishing for:
the truth

18. Wanting:
new show breaches and a new show shirt and a pink crop

19. The last thing you ate:
chilly chease dog with bbq sauce and ketsup

20. Something you are deathly afraid of:
Sue and jeff being gone

21. Do you like candles:
nope i like wall flowers better

22. Do you like the taste of blood:
maby

23. Do you believe in love:
Yes

24. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes

25. Do you believe in God?
yea

26. What's something you wish you could understand better:
whats going on in his head and heart

RELATIONSHIPS:

28. Still have feelings for anyone in past relationships?:
jeff

29. Do you ever want to know what it feels like to be in love?
i already know

30. Would you sacrifice your favorite possession for your best friend?
never sue is my best friend.

FASHION STUFF:

31. Where is your favorite place to shop?:
lammles

32. What is your favorite thing to wear?:
jeans

33. What for you is a must have accessory?:
burtan backpack

34. How much is the most you've ever spent in a single clothing store?
$15 000

35. Who is the least fashionable person you know?:
my niece abby...she desses her self

36. Do you match your belt with your hair color?:
no who does

37. How many pairs of shoes do you own?:
over 200

38. What is the worst trend you see today?:
50's or those really tight laytex pants with like the longest baggiest shirt.

END OF THE ROAD:

40. Do you do drugs?:
not any more

41. What are you listening to right now?:
my computer makin noises

42. Who was the last person that called you?:
mom

43. Where do you want to get married?:
farmont lake louise

44. How many buddies are online right now?:
4

45. What are essentials in your life?:
jeff, my horse, my family

46. Hair right now?
sex hair

47. Mood:
relaxed

48. What is your favorite color?:
pink

49. What would you rather be doing right now?
hanging out @ my barn

50. Did you actually read the last person's answers?:
yes

1. Song that always makes you sad?
POD youth of the nation

2. Last thing you bought?
polo wraps and leg supports for my horse $110.00

3. Last person you argued with?
JO....I WIN

4. Do you put Butter before putting the peanut butter on?
eww NO

5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid?
max

6. Did you ever own at one time a Barenaked Ladies Cd?
hells ya

7. Favorite day of the week?
every day becasue it may be my last

8. Favorite Sundae topping?
bannana

9. Did you take Piano lessons?
why the hell would i.. have a piano on my computer who plays its self

10. Most frequent song played?
Grillz by nelly...play count 73 times

11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?
music award...mtv i think

12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?
hockey

13. Date someone older or younger?
older

14. One place you could travel right now?
Moscow russia

15. Do you use umbrellas?
why would i...i always win the wet t.shit contest

16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem?
sure dont...

17. Favorite Cheese?
the shit that comes in the red wax

18. The Smith's or the Cure?
smith's

19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes?
Brunetts tend to be more on the crazy side bolnds just tease

20. Best job you ever had?
COLT.

21. Did you go to your high school prom?
...who know's i might not make it that far!!

22. Perfect time to wake up?
after a good night out parting and waking up to find some one beside you, you dont rember going to bed with....thats when you know its time to wake up and leave

23. Perfect time to go to bed?
when you pass out from all the drinks or after a good work out(hint hint)

24. Do you use your queen right away in chess?
no

25. Ever been in a car accident?
yes
sorry...i hope you got that note i left on your win shield

26. Closer to mom or dad?
mom..


27. What age is this exciting life over for you?
when my sex life turnes to shit

28. What decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?
one where i could walk around naked and get around of cheers...

29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?
um...if you knew me you would know i cant anser this question

30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school?
better than high school i have a shirt from Middle school

31. Were you in track and field?
haha no i was there in the field but i wanst running

32. Were you ever in a school talent show?
does making fart noices count?? then yes

33. Have you ever written in a library book?
yep

34. Allergic to?
cloriean and stirafoam and dust

35. Favorite fruit?
hmm i love all fruit haha.

36. Have you watched sex and the city?
yea i am sex and the city

37. Baseball hat or toque?
cap

38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap?
sham-poo

39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?
wet..

40. Pen or pencil?
pencil...is the key to great art

41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?
hells ya
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?
no

43. Have you thrown up in a car?
Shure have...sorry Eathan

44. Have you thrown up at work?
almost...

45. Do you scream on roller coasters?
hahah cant...im laphing to hard

46. Who was your first prom date?
well that a funny storie i never made it in the first place

47. Who was your first roommate?
the damn kid beside me who wouldnt stop crying for a pair of boobs!!

48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?
RUM AND WINE AND SOUR PUSS....GO BIG OR GO HOME

49. What was your first job?
block by block inc.



50. What was your first car?
this small yellow toyota truck when i was 6...god it was a great truck

51. When did you go to your first funeral?
my unks...RIP...

52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
when i was going into grade 1

53. Who was your first grade teacher?
mrs.lam

54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
Cancun Mexico

55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time,
to go to 7-11 for a slurpie...then i learned i could just walk out


56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?
Mellanie and yes

57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house?
calgary my sisters

58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
my sister becki

59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
my sister bobbie-jo


60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
put my lost clothing on

61. What was the first concert you attended?
Back street boys and sysco

62. First tattoo or piercing?
i was 5 i got my first set of holes

63. First celebrity crush?
Elvis presley

ok i dont know how many people will read this or if i am just doing this for nuthing but w/e thats the way i roll

For the last 3 and .5 weeks i have worked for a company called COLT.eng the bet damn job i have ever had..I had some funny moments shure who doesnt. my first day there i wore a pair of pants that were um i sware my mothers and not mine. I got put in to a man by the name of MIKE...with a full time server under my feet and a tower laying on its side...i sat there and enterd # thats all i did the best part of my day was eatting my lunch ya i sat in a cubeacal for 10 hours...before that i was going to my stables every day plaing with my horse and hanging with my friend...and then to sit in a cubacal..no thanks..and i was swetting my brains out ok so the second day knowing i have a very fuckn hot cubacl i wore an angora swetter with TNA pants HELLO CAN you SAY MORON!! ok so that went by for about 2 weeks a week and ahalf left and mike came back from house boating...THANK GOD i got moved to a corner office with 4 windows and a duel monitors and a very nice own office i do say so...i had a BLAST...I got to know awsome people and find out shit about every one....my Boss a.k.a MY PIMP a.k.a Jeff was the coolest person i got to know I had a last with him. and i got to know a guy named Jo crazy ass MF...I am going to miss our partys in my office and the troubl i caused....i heard some man at my work talking about my and he said i was like paris hilton comming into a office building full of horny men and i would walk around and take the ones i wanted...I also heard my mom and her friend talking and he was all like alice your daughter has all the office man stired up..and my mother was like ya she is like a lion playing with his food..LOL Ture but....to a point....i made crazy ass money in a short amount of time..my sister asked me if i was dealing drugs or selling sex thats how good of money i made..oh and i meet a guy named Ryan...DAMN is all i have to say...now school is going to start in 2 days and the summer blues are comming but thats ok....am i scared about school hells ya i am a slacker and school and i dont mix....but the friends i have there do...so cheers to the summer we had and the school year ahead


ALy

if you have more than 45 you're spoiled rotten.

[ x] A cell phone
[x] a hair straightener
[ ] your own computer
[ ] your own car
[x ] chanel/dior sunglasses/glasses/gucci
[x ] designer purse
[ ] A boyfriend/girlfriend
[x ] a curling iron
[ ] every fall out boy cd
[x ] something from american eagle
[ ] something from hollister
[x]something from hot topic
[x] a pet
[x ] something from abercrombie
[x] some type of trophy/award
[x]Full/Queen size bed
[ ] King size bed
[x] a mini ipod (or nano) or video
[x] something from a professional team
[x] ever had more than $100 at one time
[ ] Monster,Full Throttle,Amp,Etc. In Your Fridge
[] something related to Green Day
[ ] xanga
[] myspace
[x] make-up
[] a desk in your room
[ x] a hill in your backyard
[x ]DVD in your bedroom
[x ] a pair of skis/snowboard
[x] alarm clock
[] pair of ice skates
[ ] rollerblades
[ ] treadmill
[] your own phone line (not including cell phone)
[ ] AIM
[x ] Yahoo!
[x] MSN
[ ] ICQ
[x ] perfume/cologne
[x ] bath lotion
[x] necklaces & bracelets
[x ] a journal/diary
[x] yogurt in your fridge
[x] x's in your screename
[ ] a birthday in september
[ ] a famous relative
[ x] a relative that lives in a different state or country
[x] a disowned relative
[ ] an electric scooter
[x] your own bathroom
[ ] your own band
[x] any band shirts
[x ] gamecube
[] a guitar
[ ] a hammock
[x] a basketball hoop
[ ] a soccer net
[x] a bike
[ ] a mini van
[x ] a relative that lives in Florida
[ ] a vc andrews book
[x] a friend who does alcohol/drugs/smokes
[x] a locker at school
[ ] a baby
[ ] a pet chimpanzee
[ x] sparkly blue nail polish
[x ] a "vote for pedro" tshirt/hoody
[x ] the movie "the 40 year old virgin"
[x ] a promise ring
[ x] a pool table
[ x] swimming pool
[x] Trampoline
[ ] livejournal
[ x] flip flops
[ x] steve madden shoes
[ ] the sims 1
[x ] a ping pong table
[ ] air hockey table
[x] a basement
[x] converses
[x] construction paper
[x] markers, crayons, etc.
[x ] coloring books
[ ] a nice singing voice
[x] XBOX
[x ] PS2
[x ] PSP
[x ]PS
[ ] rose red movie
[x ] wife beaters
[x] VCR/DVD
[x] a mom or a dad
[x ] an older brother(s)
[x ] an older sister
[] a younger brother
[x ] a younger sister
[x ] a sled
[x] a lake/pond/river/ocean near my house
[x] friends

Total=67 or some thing

do not let your life slip through
your fingers by living in the past
nor for the future
by living your life one day @ a
time, you live all the days of your
life

Do not give up when you still
have some thing to give. Nothing
is realy over until the moment
you stop trying.
It's fragile thread that binds us
to each other.....

Do not dismiss
your dreams

to be without
dreams is to be
without hope;
to be without
hope is to be
without purpose.

Do not run through life so fast that you
forget not only where you have been,
but also where you are going.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
each sstep of the way.

do not be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we
learn how to be brave.

Do not shut love out of
your life by saying it is
impossible to find. The
quickest way to recive
love is to give love; the
fastest way to lose love is
to hold it too tightly.

he's teaching her arithmatic
he said it was his mission
he kissed her once he kissed her twice
and said now thats addition
and as he added smack by smack
in silent satisfaction
she sweetly gave the kisses back
and said now that subtraction
the he kissed her and she kissed him
without an explanation
then both together smiled and said
thats multiplication
then dad appeared upon the scene
and made a quick decision
he kicked that kid three blocks away
and said the long division

100 Yes's or No's
You can ONLY say Yes or No.

You are NOT allowed to explain ANYTHING!

1. Taken a picture naked? YES
2. Painted your room? NO
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? Yes.
4. Drove a car? Yes.
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes.
6. Have a crush?Yes.
7. Been dumped? Yes.
8. Stole money from a friend? YES.
9. Gotten in the car with people you didnt know? YES.
10. Been in a fist fight? YES.
11. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes.
12. Had feelings for someone of the same sex? No.
13. Been arrested? YES.
14. Made out with a stranger? Yes.
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes.
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes.
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? YES.
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes.
19. Slept (not had sex) in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes.
20. Seen someone die? YES.
21. Been on a plane? YES.
22. Kissed a picture? YES.
23. Slept in until 3? YES.
24. Miss someone right now? YES.
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes.
26. Made a snow angel? Yes.
27. Played dress up? Yes.
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes.
29. Been lonely? Yes.
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes.
31. Been to a club? YES.
32. Felt an earthquake? No.
33. Touched a snake? Yes.
34. Ran a red light? Yes.
35. Been suspended from school? YES.
36. Had detention? Yes.
37. Been in a car accident that you didn't cause? YES.
38. Hated the way you look? Yes.
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes.
39. Been the person doing the crime? YES.
40. Pole danced? Yes.
41. Been lost? Yes.
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES.
43. Felt so sick you thought you might die? Yes.
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes.
46. Sang karaoke? Yes.
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes.
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes.
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes.
50. Kissed in the rain? YES.
51. Sang in the shower? Yes.
52. Had sex in a park? YES.
53. Had a dream where you were married? Yes.
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes.
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Yes.
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No.
57. Been a cheerleader? No.
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes.
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yes.
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? YES.
61. Played chicken? Yes.
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes.
64. Broken a bone? NO.
65. Been easily amused? Yes.
66. Laughed so hard you cried? Yes.
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes.
68. Cheated on a test? YES.
69: Forgotten someones name? Yes.
70. Slept naked? YES.
71. Gone skinny dipping? Yes.
73. Blacked out from drinking? Yes.
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes.
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes.
76. Made love to anything not human? No.
77. Failed a class? Yes.
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? YES.
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO.
80. Been cheated on? Yes.
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES.
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes.
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes.
84. Felt like running away? Yes.
85. Ran away? No.
86. Done drugs? YES.
87. Had detention and not attend it? YES.
89. Made a parent cry? Yes.
90. Cried about someone? Yes.
91. Had sex with more than one person in a 24 hour period? YES.
92. Dated someone you didn't even like? Yes.
93. Had/have a dog? Yes.
95. Own an instrument? No.
96. Been in A band? NO.
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? YES.
98. Broken a CD? YES.
99. Shot a gun? YES.
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? YES.

ARE YOU GREEN?

WELL GET SOME ON CUZ

ITS ST.PATRICKS DAY!!

OH PINCH !! DANM IT!!

well today was A FREAKEN MESS!! So this mornning i sleep in GREAT till like 7:30am opps and i get on my bus @ 8:05 and im a girl we need time to get ready!! any who i get to school to find out i had an early Am Swim practice opps and the bell rings well my friend Jill got a new coat for her sweet 18th. I hate Gym which is 1st period and we have to run for 7:00min any ways we start to run my other friend jill and I cut the run short and leave so we dont have to run well i see Jills coat laying there getting wet from the showers that were left on from the swim team so i grab it...jill and i run to my locker and i put it there cuz we were going to eat lunch together.Well i thought nuthing more untill math 2nd period then @ like 11:05 Mr.Higgens walks in our school cop well he says some crap to my math teacher and then i hear ya thats her and then i saw a picture well oh boy he looks @ me and says grab your stuff.I thought oh crap I must of say some thing i souldnt have.....then the hole pot thing come to my mind oh shit!! I WAS COUGHT!! DAMN IT!! then he says "consider your self under aresst for theft..What the hell? I dont STEEL!! well we walk thro the school and every one i know is there seeing me with the cop :-( well i got to the office and sit and then i get told my rights hahah what a joke!! then i check that i wnated a legal gardean pressent or lawer so i call my sis @ that point i knew it was about jills jacket cuz i saw the pic again..was not supposed to opps well then Nik Midbo flyes in Screaming his thumb is stuck in his back pack strap and its Blue and Black eWW any who there are people flying all over dealing with me and NOW NIK!! lol so Nik faints funny the EMS come and the constipal lol and janitors funny as hell then my sister comes and the shit gets cleared up my friend jill who was with me when i took the jacket kisses me and says "man i Love your mom" (it was my sister but w/e) then the cop comes out with my sister he calles my fiend Jill whos coat it was well she was pissed and wanted her coat BACK!! well then she saw it was me runs and starts apolgizing lol every thing was/is good then we get her coat from my locker and its now like 2:00pm i had been in the office soooo LONG!! any who we go to my Scocial class and every one must have heard some shit or gossip cuz every one was happy to see me and was worried about me (thank you..Im fine NOW!!) well i get my home work and leave well i go to my sisters house and chill have some coffie and then i get home well i turn my cell on and every thing is gone my downloads and phone book voice recordings EVERY thing and Im FREAKING I was on the phone will TELUS for like an hour at least the man i was talking 2 was funny and sounded HOT AS HELL and who i get told to go to a TELUS store and they can play with my phone so Tara and I run to deervally mall and some dumb ass chineese man was like um i no clue go to where you buy it!! and im pissed well i come home after getting a rootbeer YUM!! and then i got to work...eazyst part of my day well here laugh it up now...so my lession leard every thing good i do i get in shit then the bad stuff i do i dont get cought!! thank GOD!! oh and think before you do some thing stuped there is alwasy some one watching !! thank god i didnt pick my nose and eat it or some thing that would have been Gross!!

peace out ALY

So as i was @ the mormon dance last night and (on some thing) the thought came to me head that mormons have some crazy flurting habbits.As I stood danceing by myself lol i watched them all....no i feel so bad for them its like there traped in this box with a list of rules dont move dont talk dont cry for help! and the list goes on...any who there just like a normal human hormones and ?? about stuff i watched this guy ony 14 touch some 15 year olds butt eww lol jk and so i thought you know what there just human waiting to find that some one who will push the bands on the mormons rules step into the under world for a spec in time and then come back.I feel for them and i to have pushed the bands of my religion only to find life is a little funer out there....parents you cant choose who they are or they choices they make or punish them for choosing free agencie you can only show them what life can become!!