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"deep"



Some emails from guys that have changed... so much

A crush…
“Hey you, long time no talk how is every thing?
how are you? Hows school? And how about the family? HOw has every thing been since the last we talked? I miss you.
Well i hope to hear from you”

“amanda guess wut i got my L baby
lol but we will figure out how to hang out we will find a way. ok ? I promise”

heres to those summers with you<3

The best I had…
“well, do what you need for us to be friends, ill do it”

“well dont get me wrong amanda, what we had was really good, better then anything ive had in a long time..but it didnt work, and it wont work we know that”

“amanda please im so sorry..i want to do everything i can to fix this amanda dont do this, i can;t have you not in my life, you actaully are a really good, nice, caring person what i did was wrong, and dumb, and i cant blame it on alcohol..but i didnt want it to happen amanda i would do anything to make it up to you”
oh what a shame<3

A best friend…
“wow amanda peacock, how can i ever repay u ur always there for me when i need u most.
im really happy were still friends.
anytime you need me ill be there just call me up
thanks alot
i couldnt ask for a better friend <3”

Who are you now<3
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friendship...JOKE
when people dont give a shit about you..
whats the point in giving a shit about them anymore?


 

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Cold AS.. YoU

You have a way of coming easily to me.
And when you take, you take the very best of me.
So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin'
And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted.


Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray.
And I stood there lovin' you and washed them all away.
And you come away with a great little story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

You never did give a damn thing, honey.
But I cried, cried for you.
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you.

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending give to a perfect day. Every smile you fake is so condescending.
 

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memmories last a life time

Through your life, you will have a million
"bffs" some will fade. some will break up for un wanted
reasons. and somtimes people just grow up and grow apart.
i love you and i always will. even though were not the
same. this is devoted to you because you were such
a big part of my life, part of why im the person i am today
even though we grew apart from that "bff"maybe somthing
will change in the future. just know i cant thank you enough
for always being there. thats unforgettable.
 

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muah

Karmas a bitch`` just like you =)
 

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&lt;3

dont you love when you just cant get enuf of someone
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your new... your cute. i dont care
what other people say. your mi oh mine tonight <3
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want one? give a shout
matt says:
your paper airplanes in my room
[ ámándá ] says:
hahahaha
matt says:
i think ill keep it
[ ámándá ] says:
it works good eh!
matt says:
yeah kinda
[ ámándá ] says:
no.. shutup it does try it out right now
matt says:
i know
[ ámándá ] says:
muahah i rock
matt says:
yeah


hehehehe
 

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yum

..damn. in my dreams hes mine
 

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blah

so we will happen later. so we werent ment to be
right now. so we you let go to easy to fast to hard
to forget to hard to let go. to simple to fake it to simple to pretend.


Love was when I loved you,
one true time to hold on to
In my life we'll always go on.

 

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you..
"STUCK IN A MOMENT"
HERE'S TO THE TIMES WE HAD



"I DON'T BELIEVE THAT ANYBODY FEELS THE WAY I DO ABOUT YOU NOW"
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gusse i let you get the best of me; i never saw it coming
i shoulda started running a long long time ago
i never thought id doubt you, im better off without you
more then you, more then you know. im slowly getting closure
i gusse its really over, and now im picking up the pieces
im finally getting better im putting my heart back
together its the day i thought id never get through..
i got over you..

What really defines what kinda of relationship
you had with him? ... another


Dear you: you were my first everything... you were my everything <3
+ there isnt really much more to say then that.
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wutta night
the beggining...


latter on...










...the endd =)
 

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all about ME
ARE YOU:
1. A Cuddler?: yes.. ask anyone who sleeps with me
2. A morning person?: who is?
3. Are you a perfectionist?: not at all
4. An only child?: seems like it
5. Catholic?: hardly
6. In your pajamas?: no
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart?: um im almost all better
8. Okay styling other people's hair?: yes
9. Left hand?: righty
10. Addicted to this site?: a little..
11. Shy around the opposite gender?: sometimes

DO YOU:
12. Bite your nails?: not any more
13. Get paranoid at times?: yep
14. Currently regret something that you have said?: no
15. Curse frequently when you get mad?: all the time
16. Enjoy country music?: yep
17. Enjoy jazz music?: no
18. Enjoy smoothies?: strawberryy
19. Enjoy talking on the phone?: im addicted
20. Have a lot to learn?: ..many would say yes
21. Have a pet?: yorkiee- molly
22. Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person?: i don't think so
23. Have all your grandparents?: no
24. Have at least one sibling?: yes 1 sister
25. Have been told that you are smart? all the timee...
26. Have a broken bone?: no
27. Have Caller I.D. on your phone?: its a must.. damn creeps.

HAVE YOU:
28. Changed a diaper?: yess
29. Changed a lot over the past year?: i wouldnt think so
30. Talked back to your parents?: yes
31. Had surgery?: no
32. Killed another person?: yep 19 actually
33. had your haircut within the last week?: no
34. Had the cops called on you? no

LAST PERSON WHO:
1. Slept in your bed besides you? lauren and haley
2. Saw you cry?: probably kels
3. Went to the movies with you?: nicko and kels
5. You went to dinner with? lauren
6. You talked on the phone with? my mom
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?: it wasnt there yet.
8. Broke your heart?: i wont get into that. he knows.
9. Made you laugh?: amanda j from work

WOULD YOU RATHER?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue
2. Be serious or be funny?: funny
4. Die in a fire or drown?: ..neither would be great
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?: parents

ARE YOU?
1. Simple or complicated?: complicated
2. Gay?: uhm no
3. Hardcore?: obviously

DO YOU PREFER
1. Flowers or candy?: flowers
2. Gray or black?: black
3. Color or Black and white photos?: color
4. Lust or love?: love
5. Sunrise or sunset?: sunset..
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles
7. Staying up late or waking up early?: staying up late

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY!!
1. Do you like anyone?: of course
2. Do they know it?: im pretty sure..

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon?: sunshine
2. Winter or Fall?: winter
3. Left or right?: right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?: 2 best friends
5. Sun or rain?: sun
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla
7. Vodka or Jack?: vodka

ABOUT YOU!
1. What time is it?: 11:45pm
2. Name?: amanda
3. Nickname(s): unfortunatly.. panda
4. Where were you born?: calgary foothills
5. What is your birthdate: august 14th
6. What do you want?: to be with him
7. Where do you want to live?: downtown
8. How many kids do you want?: 4 or 5
9. What would you want to name a girl?: duno
10. What would you want to name a boy?: duno
11. You want to get married?: yes
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
13. Who was the last boyfriend/girlfriend you said
" I love you and i mean it? : kev was my closest.
14. Are you still togther?: unfortunatly no
15. Do you still love him/her?: in a friend way, always.

UNIQUE!
1. Nervous Habits: i bite my lip or nails
2. Are you double jointed?: nope
3. Can you roll your tongue?: i think so
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yes
5. Can you cross your eyes?: no it makes my brain hurt
6. Do you make your bed daily? no i just make it mesyy again in hrs
7. Which shoe goes on first?: i dont have a lil routine
9. Ever threw up on someone?: i love you lauren
10. On the average, how much money do you carry with you?: 1 penny
11. What jewelry do you wear?: necklace + ring from him
12. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl
13. Have you ever eaten Spam?: nope
14. Favorite ice cream?: prailines and cream
15. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet?: like 1 or 2
16. What's your favorite beverage?: ...coca cola all the way
17. Do you cook?: occasionlly
18. favorite song?: dun have one

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU? (YES OR NO)
1. Had a b/f or g/f?: no
2. Bought something you didn't need?: deffinatly
4. Sang in front of people? ya at work muahaa
5. Been kissed: yes
6. Been hugged: yes
7. Felt stupid? yes
8. Missed someone: yes.. terribbllyy <3
9. Got drunk: yes
10. Got high: yes
11. Danced Crazy: yes
12. Gotten your hair cut? no
13. Cried: yes
14. Lied: no
 

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to be continuedd...
My Spring Break:
Friday 9th
school - last day!!
bye Mr. Hackkerr..
walk home with kai + lauren
soaked each other with puddles ha losers
mcdonaldss
tanning
ice caps with lauren<3
a+w with kelsi.. teen burgers
starbucks with nicko and kelso
movie.. 23 with nicko and kelso
.. creepy ride homee
beddy byess.
saterday 10th
work boo
jogged to sev and back
shower
get ready go to nevadas with kelsi
got fucked up
had fun
homee.. longggg walk with levi and kelsi
munchies then sleep
sunday 11th
woke up
got mad because i had to change all my clocks
kelsi went home.. have a good trip ill miss you<3
hung out with my mom popcorn + movies
curled up onthe couch on a rainy day with
fuzzy blankies
went out for taco time
watched mean girls with mommy
monday 12
woke up at 2
work
hockey game with kels casey
fights wow
kurt and brandon .. u take for ever!
subway mmh
slurpees mmmmh
walk home
casey FALLS ON HER ASS BAHAHH
sleep over with casey (L)
creep nexus pages
i missed you bff baby
tuesday 13
wake upp
mccdicks tripp haha
bye casey, meet with lauren
metro !!
theifs.. hahaha
chinease food
buss homee
wow .. what a bitch "LMFAO"
kelsiis for dinner
gymm/hot tubb bahah
bike ride to sevv SLURPEE + chocolate
in thee rainn = so much fun kelso
watched SHES THE MAN (droool)
made fun of nick while hes stoned
cause hes crazy bahah
wedndnsdday 14
my mom wakes me up by
blasting.. super freak - cant touch this-
makes me get up
clean my room
get ready for work ugh
LEARNED TO MAKE BURGERS
get ready with hals and lauren
go to dereks band thing. parttyy
that song.. that smile.. those memmories <3
tracy gets us time hortons + movie
haha guys think were drunk
texus chainsaw masacre the beggining EEK
sleep overr lovee you ladies so much fun
thursday/friday
worrkingg + more working @ walmart
.. i need the green.
kelsi watchs movie .. candle lit
saterday
work 8 hours
richys din at white spot
..oh shit that wasnt cool
micheellees housee..
coolest cab driver played funky music
richy ron ranveir michellee lauren erika
sean and micheelles bro party it up
dancing like a whore yeeha.. slutty laurenn sheesh
went on an adventure! hehehe
some creep phones
"ello amanda, the condum broke and im
veddy sorry. its gona be a boy"
"oh should i name it after u allie"
"since he gona be a child not a man we call it allie baba"
prank calls are funny who ever did that .. bitches
blazzeed / drunk . ate alot nachos mountain!! home
in seans jeep that michelles brother drove me in
went on computer and nexus SLEEP
sunday
worked 11 to 7 wutta bummer
rented movies. met up with casey
stoped by laurens workk to say hi
got subway dadddy drove us home
me and casey went to kelsis.. went out to blaze
met up with brad.. he drove us to docks. blazed
walked parshly home. needed a lighter.. called
brad.. <33 sorreh bout that lol met up with kels again
watched american pie the naked mile
the thigh palace called casey for interview.. get a job
at a normal place u freak!!
sleepover with caseyy
monday
woke up watched shipwrecked haha so cute.
frapss with kels. gym. sauna. hot tub. subway
lauren comes over. movieess + sleep over <3
tuesday
lauren ditched like a cheap hooker
off to matts. found out he was hiding
a way cuter younger brother.
hockey. spiders. dirty room.
i rock at video games.
cookies.. that matt made with salt
instead of sugar..retardo.
homee. subway.. againn.
get ready for DRUNK BOWLING
erika michelle george ethan kai
kelsi logann. orderd so much food ha
i ROCK at bowlingg. i beat ethan muaha haha
georgies house. chilledd <3
homee. movies with my mommmy.
wednsnsnday
woke up early
mattys <3 haha so much fun with you.
workk boo
lauren and amandas trip to coquitlame
partyy at ddaniels whohoo daniel + lauren = (L)
stonneerssss bff*
haha try to get home
pee on the side walk
SICK FUCKER
amanda-whys that car slowing fucking down
lauren- were gona die
amanda-greatt..shitt shitt
lauren-amanda were at a fucking cross walk there
stoping for uss
amanda- wow were retarded. =)
get lost in the middle of no where for 2 hours
talk to strangers. fuckin mccdicks trip
wreck there floors almost got stolen by
that creep. LOve you laurenzo bff.
scary walk homee super matt makes it better
thursday
relaxx most of day
go to laurens. hang out get ready
..surprisseeee laurennn!
cab to saveon get a boot + juice
cab back. walk to little ceasers with
daniel erika michelle lauren kelsi
tony magic eatt.
cab to laurens. wow were lazy.
go to feild partyy. get fuckkeddd up
meet up with matty. breaking things is bad!
u left tooo soon. back to my house with
kels lauren. sleep overrrr. the sweetest thing!
friday
lazyday.
movies with laurenzo
frapps.
the hills have eyes 2.
lauren screams in middle of theatre
haha
omg i can never pee without lookin down the toilet
ever again!! .. ccreeeppyy movieee.
..bye spring fling.</3
a&w. mmmhhh.
saterday
workk. hha kal makes fun of my
ugly pic on my mccdonalds gold card
.. go home SUNDAY icecream. bahah
nicks with kels. got fuckedd <3 so much fun
awh nicole jack i missed youu!! xo.
walk home with mitchel logan ethan kelsi.
subwayyy =)
nick ur crazyyy! haha loser.
cats are like chips.. u cant have just
one baahha. he cant fined the note
i left him muhahaha
good end to spring break
sunday










spring break is amazingg, make it worth every minutee [group pic.. fucked up haha]

 

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best friends forever
Amanda + Lauren



all the inside jokes…




all the stupid fights…



…all the memmories


all the time spent together …



… all the drunken nights



…all the tears


…knowing your there for me



…sticking together no matter what




A bestfriend is a sister… destiny for got to give to you- bff baby
my life wouldn’t be the same without you laurenzoxox
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Dear: you
There's so much I want to say now
But it's too late i know
There's no way to heal these wounds now
And my heart bleeds for you

And our love is crashing
Like a tidal wave
Coming over me

So I wanted you to know
That i finally let you go
After all i've held on to
This is my goodbye to you

I was always there for you
But you never saw the truth
And the reason that i know
Is i've finally let you go

Yesterday you were my best friend
But tomorrow took you away
There's not much for me to say now
Just goodbye, farewell...


And every time i close my eyes
My heart is bleeding deep inside
But now my eyes are open
And i'm never gonna be the one for you

the one for you...


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