After I got home early from Kate's my mom and I played a Zillion questions. > and very few answers.
I got mad and left the house (it was like 10 30 pm ish)
when I got home there were more questions and even fewer answers
I wound up telling my mom: that Silina, Kate, Victoria and I went to Tilicum mall
to get bubble tea after going to the park
then Silina Started to feel Sick so I wound up heading back to Silina
we were at the mall and we caught the bus to her place
I didn't want to walk around with my Stuff so I left it at Kate's.
I'll go get it tomorrow
then I'll probably go to aunty's or something.
but Idk I'll leave you a note or a msg or something to tell you were I am.

Mom: you better leave me a not I don't want to be running around town searching for you!
then I said ya I will I'm going to bed.
then I went in my room and that was my fun night. haha but What I told my mom was ALLL lies and haha I told her the same story twice the first time I was at Silina's and she called wondering what i was doing?

Me and Silina decided to hang out on Friday nite so I spent the nite at her place so at like 2:30 am we were trying to fall asleep(and my head was pounding witch didn't help). then she was like 'can you turn the light on and tell me what time it is?' then I was like 'shure' and I was so tired that I could barley walk let alone stand up. and then when I feel we both started laughing and couldn't stop. when i turned the light on It just made my head hurt more. It didn't help that Silina woke me up at 6 am saying ' my aunt's water broke wake up!Unless you want to come to the hospital with us' (she was pregnant and over due by like a week) 'no thanks I'll be dressed in a few mins.' so I have like 10 mins to get dressed so her mom and her could bring me home. and when I got home I went back to bed.

I Hope the school dosn't call my mom about the hole skipping gym thing if so I'm screwed haha well if soo so is Silina :P. Oh but then theres the hole '3' thing I SWARE If Emily dosen't keep her mouth shut I'll be in deeper shit then I'm already in eeep.

Fri.

- school
- Go to library with Silina and that's when Silina brakes her shoe
- Silina calls her mom to pick us up and take us to her place to get her a change of cloths.
- Me and Silina got on the 28 bus to my house
- we tell my mom that we want to go swimming (well silina did)
- We go to the park near my house then go to Gordon head to swim
- after we swim I call my mom and tell her to pick me up at 10:15 ish so that silina and i can go to the backdoor
- I want to walk around but We didn't do much of that because Silina and I were in our P.J.s and we didn't want to be seen
- my mom picked us up
- when we got home silina and I went to my room and talked about random stuff
- We went to bed at like 12:30ish.

Sat.

- wake up 9ish
- eat breakfast (pan cakes i think)
now I can't remember what we did but i think we went to the park I don't know.
Go to silina's to spend the night (8:35 pm) or something like that.
- watch T.v. (10 - 11)
- go to bed 11:30
god that what time i go to bed at on school nights

Sun.

- I hear kids yelling and talking ouch someone just jumped on me OW some poked me on the check > What time is it
- 'Silina what time is it???'
- 'like 8:30 i think'
- 'Whose jumping on me?!?!'
- I look around "WELDONE STOP JUMPING ON ME I'M AWAKE!!!" (Silina's little bro hes like 3 i think)
-W: 'whats that?'
-A: 'that's my retainer case.'
-Tasha (silina's Lil sis):'whats it for?'
-A:'to keep my teeth straight'
-T:'like braces?'
-A:'yap sorta.'
- Silina's in the shower
-T:'Andrena want to come and watch T.v. with us???'
-A:' ya but i gotta get dress first I'm in my p.j.s'
-T:'OK but promise you'll come out?'
-A:'yap but you can't come in when I'm changing so go I'll be out in a min.'
- A few minutes later I stuck watching Family channel with a 3 y.o. and a 8? y.o.:P
-Silina got out of the shower and plopped down in front of the T.v. with us until breakfast.
- And that's my amazing weekend or what i can remember of it and I can't remember what happened after silina got out of the shower and we ate breakfast so um. TADA.

I just

want to run away.
I don't

want to

die maybe tomorow.
but until then I'll

see you.

Soon.

- Alexandrena

Tips:
this is so kool.
try reading the green by it self.
then put them together.
(If you read just the violet it dosen't work.)

YaWn, stand up, fall down, head herts, can think, owch, were are you, far away, miss you, tear, try to stand, slip, laying, crying, black, late, fast, faster, pounding, heart beatting, heart racing, omg I'm gona die, owch... Dark. .Light ...ahh, omg I'm gona sevive, heart slowing, heart thumpping, tapping, slower, slow, erly, white, hugging, sitting, crowch, try to rest, hug, find you, feel you, see you, ahh, mind clear, pain free, stand up, fall down, SiGh.



I'd use black and white but it dosn't work. you can't see the white

Just let me go slip away, fade away, stray away but stay with in reach.
Hold your breath for a moment, for a minute, for a mile but always come up for air .
Keep away from me, from your self, from you life but don't lose tuch with your self.
Love friends, love me, love family but alway love your self more.

But who realy know what is to far, what is far enugh,who will take the risk and who will take the time. So as you read thes words I hope you see the truth that you can find in u or me thx


Alexandrena M. H.
Jan 22 2009
dedacated to all the ppl who incuraged me to do my best at this thing we all seam to call life.

I hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate some mornoic dum asses who think they can run my f******g life !!!!!!!!