fuck you.

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If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.

If you go under 10, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. done drugs.
TOTAL: 9


1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. cut yourself.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 8


1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL: 3

1. been to a wild party.
2. seen the Mardi Gras.
3. drank more than four beers in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. own a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 4


1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. had someone sneak into your room.
TOTAL: 3


1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your best friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut
6. called someone a slut.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 3

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaraunt without paying.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 3

1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. cheated with someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harrassed.
10. been verbally harrassed.
TOTAL: 5

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 12 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 12 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 5

Grand total: 43

Alright, well. Yesterday was a pretty good day.
I got to see Steven, and my friend Charmaine that I have been friends with for 10 years this June. ^^
It was her birthday dinner, boy, oh boy the food was good!
My bestest friend Miranda (Cheescake) called, and confirmed that we have plans on both the 15th & 19th. I haven't seen her in forever, so it should be good. ^^
Um, well.. A couple downsides : I now offically have no family left in BC.
Back to the positives : I'm planning on soon going back to visit my Highschool to see my friends that are in Grade 12 this year.
OUH, I made a new friend in my English 12 (060) class at TRU. Her name is Kaitlyn, and I kinda like her, she's cute, and very, very pretty. (She doesn't know this, and I don't plan on letting her in on it anytime soon).
What else?
Oh, yeah.
My current relationship.. Kinda complicated, but we're working through everything that is causing the faults, and, good news. It's getting better!
~* 5 months yesterday. *~ <3
Annnnd : I think that's it for now.
Baii..

Well, well, well...
Last Mcdonald's shift on Sunday...
I feel lonely....
I need a hug....
Feeling lost for
words when I try
to tell her the truth.
I love her..
I want to cuddle her, and never let go...
Never Letting Our love END!
I want to cry, to show how I feel,
But somehow,
i'ts just not possible.

<3

If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now

and can't get them out of your head

then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are

missing will surprise you.

T'was the worst birthday ever...

CRYING SECTION:
When was the last time you really cried your heart out? Last Night.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? Lots!
Ever cried over the opposite sex? Nope
Do you cry when you get an injury? Not very often.
Do certain songs make you cry? My Heart Will Go On - Titanic, and Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

HAPPY SECTION:
Are you normally a happy person? Depends
What can make you happy? Music,Friends, Money,...
What makes you the happiest? Friends.
Is being happy overrated? Nope! It's Natural!
Can music make you happy? Yupp!

LOVE SECTION:
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? Yep
Did you ever love a guy/girl, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply? No But I've said that to oneof my ex's.
Have you ever said i love you to a boyfriend or girlfriend? Every day.
Did you mean it? Well, to all the 'previous' times, no. But I did
with my ex girlfriend.
HATE SECTION:
Who do you actually hate? Nothing?
Ever made a hit list? Naw...
Have you ever been on a hit list? I don't know.
Are you a mean bully? No
Do you hate any one that breaks your heart? Naw
Do you hate George Bush? Should I?
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low? Yepp
Do you believe in yourself? Sometimes?
When people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are? Yes.
Do you think you are pretty? Sometimes.
Are you happy with who you are? Maybe?
Do you wish you can be someone else? Yes all the time!

LOOKS SECTION:
What's your natural hair color? Light Brown
What is your current hair color? Black?
What color are your eyes? Hazel
Current piercings? 2 -- Ears and belly button.
Long or short hair? Medium
Straight or curly? Straight.
How tall are you? 5'3

CURRENTLY SECTION:
What shirt are you wearing? Grey T-shirt
What kind of shorts/pants are you wearing? Skinny jeans.
Socks? Black
Necklaces? Nope
Bracelets?Nope.
Eyeliner? Naw, not today
Any other make up? None.
Is your hair up or down? Down with a grey head band

HAVE YOU EVER:
Kissed the same sex? Yes!
Hugged someone? Yeah
Been on the phone until the sun came up? Yesss! xD
Put a song on repeat for more than 2 hours? I think so.. maybe?
Flashed anyone? Nope
Mooned anyone? Nope
Laughed so hard you pissed in your pants?Uhuh...
Got in a fight with someone (not including siblings)? Nope

THE LASTS:
Person you talked to in person? Kayla
Person you talked to on the phone? Miranda
Person who made you laugh? Katie

RANDOM SECTION:
Do you like surveys? Yeah
Do you ever wonder what your life will be like 10 years down the road? All the time
Are you scared of what life will be like in 10 years? Yes
Do you get along with your parents?Sometimes...
Are you old enough to vote? Nope
Are you happy? Nope
Are you sad? Very!
Did you ever tell you parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school? Yep
Current mood? Sad
Current music? None
Current taste? None
Current annoyance? The washing Machine.
Current longing? ...?
Current thing I ought to be doing? Chores
Current favorite music group? Mariana's Trench, My Chemical Romance, State Of Shock

Current favorite book? HARRY POTTER 7
Current CD in stereo? Mariana's Trench?
Current video in VCR? None.
Current DVD in DVD player? None

She said no...

But Somehow I believe she's not being truthful...

She says she is saving up for something good, but, she won't tell me what it is....
And... She seems so happy to talk to me now.


Sadly I'm very confused....

&&* ii HoNESTLy THiiNK iiv'e
GONE PSyCHo OVER
LOViiNG YOU...

Emma Beaudoin-Lobb.

EVEN THOUGH THiiS GiRl
RiiGHT HERE DOESN'T KNOW
iiT, SHE iiS AMAZING iin EVERY
WAY, SHAPE OR FORM.
ii LOVE THiiS GiiRL.

ALWAYS HAVE &&
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Tell me that this love is wrong...
Now Tell Me Wer'e All Equal.
Lets Prove These People Wrong,
Make A Difference;
Let's Love Eachother Like
We've Never Been Hurt Before.

Be One To Help
Show Your Support
And...
OUTLiiVE HOMOPHOBiiA!

This is a poem dedicated to me,
written by none other than my
favourite poet in the whole wide world,
Miss. Emma Beaudoin-Lobb.

Yesterday Kayla, and I came back from Abbotsford. We attended an event
called " Margarita Ville ", it was pretty exciting! Anyways.. it was exciting except for the fact that the only person I knew there Kayla and Roxy... but what is cool is we get to go to respite AGAIN on sunday [stoked]
Kayla is going to Camp Winfield in 9 days [ so jealous]



I was going through a box of long lost junk and I came across a picture of Emma and I at school about 1 month into our relationship... now I can't stop looking at it.
Just wishing I could have it all back in my arms again. People are still confused on why I still love her and why I dated her in the first place. Well here it is. She is beautiful, amazing, loving, kind and confident in herself. She doeesnt care about what other people think about her. She just is who she wants to be and thats it. She never has tried to change herself for anyone or anything. She was always there for love and support and always understood my point of view in times of crisis and distrust. She was the first person I was ever able to trust with everything! The biggest thing that ever stuck out for me is, she never pointed out my flaws and my disability. Even though she knew I walked defferent than "normal people" she never judged anything I said or did. It was almost like she was there to take the stress of my shoulders. And yes that she did. All she had to do was say my name and I couldn't possibly do anything on my part accept smile and say " I love you." I love everything about her. The way she talks, walks, laughs, cries.. and espesially her glowing smile. everything. and more.... her personality is everything I could ever ask for.
She was always happy, upbeat and ready for the day. I could never stay stressed around or angry around her. She was my angel. Her kiss? To put it bluntly... heavenly amazing!! She was my first kiss and I will never regret it. I would never be able to say all this about anyone else. She definitely one of a kind. I would nevr have had it any other way. I love you, Emma, and I still and always will. Take care.

imu Emma...
i want another
chance still
you wont let me
though,
thats the
sad part...
i still love you.
i cant believe i did
what i did!
im such a fool.

I try to take life
one day at a time,
but now I realize,
i can't breathe without you by my side.
Come back to me,
tell me you love me,
and life will be normal again.

<3