I dreaded seeing this day so much,
Everyone dressed in their finest dresses
to represent the completion of their
struggle through highschool.
Family watches them from the sidelines,
seeing their children worthy and successful.
This is the the only time special enough to
get my father to come visit.
This was the time i would feel happy and worthy of living.
The special moment of graduation
that is cherished as a memory i will
never even get to hold.
I do not get a graduation,
I do not get any festivities a graduation class holds,
Just a very late diploma and a boot out the door.

cant believe im going to my 4th class today!
its finally starting to click in im in college ahaha. its really weird though.
i dont feel like i fit in there at all. but i know that everything is hard
at first and each time i go it will get easier, it already has been.
i just need to actually start doing the readings