Dr Dre - Chronic 2001 = The soundtrack of my petty white-girl life.
Raving my ass off tonight. Hella.
<3
Last night was decent.
But a few people really pissed me off. I don't deserve your shit.
So don't dish it out while I'm trying to make you happy, understood?
My biggest sympathies to Conall, Jo & Danny. You guys are way to awesome
to be dealing with so much shit. I wish I wasn't so goddamn young, so I
could have a voice and try and make things easier for you.
On the up side, my septum is starting to heal, and I have lotsa mary jane
to smoke. WIN.
you might not be king of your town,
but you'll forever be king of my town.
even if i barely ever see you, your not someone i could easily forget.
maybe i'm wrong, but i'm pretty sure i love you.
and i think thats why i havent been able to be with ANYONE since you.
& i wish that she didn't hurt you, and you were able to let me in.
babe, if i had the chance, i'd beat her ugly face in.
Remember who I used to be? Talkative, outgoing, social, & fun?
Why the fuck am I not this person anymore.
I DO NOT DO ANYTHING OF VALUE.
All I do, is smoke pot, smoke cigarettes, lounge around,
listen to music, and think. I'm like, so quiet and un-social now.
I'm always tired, always pissed, always bored.
And I'm fucking sick of it. My god, I could be a whole different person.
Not look haggard, burnt out and smell like a friggin ashtray.
I could have nicer hair, better skin, better breath, better teeth,
better lungs, fucking nicer clothes that arent all ripped up because I got baked
and somehow ruined it. I'm so fed up with all this bullshit,
I need fucking change. Fuck drugs, they got me nowhere.
Life is a party, but one that you don't piss away because you were too fucked
up to remember it. Fuck that.
"So send my best regards, cos I dont know who you are,
and I lost everything I loved, just to move on from what I once was.
Let's turn a new page, the sun will start a new day,
where we learn from our mistakes and forget all of our old ways"
Parade the day? I know I'm emo. But if any song can sum up how I feel right now,
that's about as close as you'll get. Say goodbye to haggard stoner burnout Aidan.
She has left the building.
AFI AFI AFI. a fucking idiot.
last night was so amazing. words don't even begin to describe how fucking
cool last night was. some of you saw my sobbing. so i think it's safe to say...
AFI is my life. a fire inside...always ♥
& when davey sang, he looked at me. he knows i exist. thank god.
PS: drunk with julie & kayla at 3 in the morning was also fun last night.
why can't i just say things how i want to say them?
and why the fuck are things like this?
fuck. i can't deal with this much emotional pressure.
greatest night.
the first night i was fucked over, and i didn't make an ass of myself.
aidan - 1
life - 0
i fucking hate the fucking cunt-smelling ocean.
here's some deep shit for you:
without life...there isn't anything. but if we begin dying when we're born,
then do we ever really live? what is life? how do you experience living?
people who lead these lives of working, eating, sleeping an shitting...
are they alive? they do the same things everyday. the same sequence....
the same mindless cycle. but if thats not life, lifes never really lived, and
without life theres nothing....then what is there?
best weekend. oh my shit sucking god.
last night was living life to it's mother fucking fullest.
breakwater at like 2 in the morning is magical.
sadly, link wasn't there, and we didn't get to watch the sun rise...
but all in all: this weekend made my life.
