ugh, fuck! stupid thoughts running through my head. stop it brain! you're killing me, seriously. stop over analysing things you are gonna fry yourself
the more I think about it the more I hate this town and what its doing to me. my body is slowly dying and my mind is screaming to go. Its simple just pick up my feet and go, but these chains are too strong. these shackles drag me down, and my hands burn from the flames of my accomplishments. it hurts to stay but i can't go, still my mind screams for release.
Soon, soon enough I will be free, I will be gone. Hopefully not to look back, I hate this place
could i be more of an idiot
You know when you have that friend that you actually like, but you dont know if she likes you at all, and then you really just wanna ask them on a date just to see if it would work. However meanwhile some douche bags have gone and started betting on when you will start dating so your chance at that is totally shot, and you have no idea what to do? you dont know if she likes or hates your friends, likes hanging out with you or your group of friends. DAMNIT ITS CONFUSING, one piece of advice if you find yourself in this situation shoot yourself in the foot, its much less painfull and they'll give you morphine
I now have my licence and a car
I need new pictures and to redo my page so bad
one week for free plus ftw!!!
Don't patronize I realize I'm losing and this is my real life
I'm half asleep and I'm wide-awake this hait is always so hard to break
I don't want to be the bad guy
I've been blaming myself and I think you know why
I'm killing time
And time's killing you
Every way that I do
Did you say, please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I'm under the gun feel like the only one
I just can't decide what I'm running from
This isn't what I wanted but I can't keep my filthy f***ing mouth shut
It's not enough
It's never enough and I wish I could breath without it getting stuck
Can't focus it but I try over and over again
Did you say, please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up.
Make me feel like...
Did you say, please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
Did you say, please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I can't stay with someone else
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? yes one or two
Q: Been arrested? Nope
Q: Kissed someone you didn't like? of course
Q: Do you like someone? of course
Q: Held a snake? yes i love them
Q: Been suspended from school? Nope
Q: Been fired from a job? never
Q: Sang karaoke? but of course
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?hahaha yeah
Q: Laughed until you started crying? who hasn't
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? every time it snows
Q: Kissed in the rain? yep not as romantic as they say
Q: Sang in the shower? every morning
Q: Sat on a roof top? who hasnt?
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? oh yeah
Q: Broken a bone? yes...apparently shoe laces are good, and landing on the balls of your feet vs the heel can keep you from dying
Q: Shaved your head? not yet
Q: Played a prank on someone? all the time
Q: Shot a gun? yep
Q: Donated Blood? not aloud yet
Q: Had your heart broken? yeah it happens more than you think
"Who was your last?" just be 100% truthful;
1. You hung out with? Ben, Jeff, Newf
2. You Messaged? Kristen
3. You were in a car with? my dad
4. Went to the movies with? Ben, and Newf
5. Person you went to the shops with? Kirsten
6. You talked on the phone? Ben
7. Made you laugh? Kuhn
8. You hugged? Jeff(that lady was so scared!)
9.You cried with? no one see's me cry
Answer truthfully;
2. Winter or Fall? winter
3. Left or Right? left
4. Sunny or rainy? Snowing!
5. Where do you live? Calgary the eternal pit of hell for music
6.Do you have a best friend? damn strait i do
7. Is there 1 or 2 people who u can always trust and rely on?yeah
8. Do you want to get married? eventually
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? uh scoop?
10. Are you afraid of commitment? Yes
11. Are you gonna have an 18th party? Ooooh yeah!
12.. Do You Cook? very well
13. Current mood? content for the time being
In the last 48 hours have you;
1. Kissed someone? I hope not
2. Sang? sadly
3. Listened to music? when am i not?
4. Seen someone you care alot about? why of course
5. Danced Crazy? sadly
6. Cried? nope
7. Like someone you can't have? hahahaha oh you have no idea the troubles i have
Body Language:
What do you do when you're nervous? whats nervous
What do you when you're frustrated? walk away
If you're biting your lip, what does that usually mean about you? i'm biting my lip
How are you usually feeling when you cross your arms?smug confused or sad
What's your mood if you are more quiet then usual? stressed
When you're fidgeting with your hands/other things? angry
How do you sit when you're totally relaxed? bad posture
What do you do when you want everyone to know to leave you alone?I leave
How do you laugh when you're with your friends? same way i always do
What do you do when you're feeling insecure? feel more insecure
Your People:
Who makes you laugh the most? Ben, Newf, Jeff, Greg, Grant
Who has the cutest smile? hmmm kirsten?
Who has the weirdest laugh? probably kirsten or steph
Who do you think would ditch you in a heartbeat for someone else?
i dunno Stephen
Who are you totally comfortable with talking about anything and everything?
Stephen, Ben, ReaAnne
Who annoys the heck out of you but you put up with it anyways?
Preston
Who do you know loves you unconditionally?
No one
Who has told you they love you?
allot. who's meant it? few
so i've determined i'm going to be single for the next while cause everything i've tried to start over the last...5, 6 weeks has blown up in my face. life just does not go the wat i have planed it lately its like i waited to long and all the oppertunity slipped away. even music seems to be taking a turn for the worse i just dunno whats going on anymore!
God damn I was looking so forward to that trip and now i cant go!? fuck my life. Its getting to the point where i thing "she" is starting to ruin your productiveness. allot more than you think and were not even playing music anymore! GAH so pissed i'm willing to play with someone else!
I determine that teenage life is too complicated to live. fuck life!
every person I have had wish i had a shot with I fuck up somehow and there are so many people i wish i could be with right now :S
so i think I'm about to become single again, which kinda saddnens me but its life it goes on....
I don't know where I'm goin
but I sure know where I've been
hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again.
Tho' I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I'm looking for.
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.
Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.
Just another heart in need of rescue
waiting on love's sweet charity
an' I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.
Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.
Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.
Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go,
here I go again
WHAT!? NO MORE PLUS!!!??? :'( awe no fun!
someone should buy me plus and i will love them for ever!
anyone wanna hang out today? text me 403-803-2567
