When you want everything and nothing at the same time,
when you want to let go but you keep holding on, when
you want to move on but your stuck right where you started,
when feelings come and go and you cant decide what you want.
Look boii.
I really do like you alot.
and i know you like me too.
But why aren't we something more yet?
Cause i'm really not ready.
And waiting for me..might just be forever.
And i'm sure you can only wait so long..
I'm sorry that things might not work out.
But i did share a moment with you.
And i'll always cherish it.
I hope you're still gonna talk to me and stuff.
But if were meant to be...
Then something will happen..
but just not right now kay?
and if you move on or anything.
I'll totally understand =)
p.s. Your the best xD
Hmmm...
life is so confusing..
and everything lately is so depressing..
Everythings falling apart.
People are being gay.
Schools even worse cause i kinda hate my classes cause i know like NO one.
I've Been even coming home on time...
whats wrong with me!?!?!
Ahhh i guess some things never do change...
Was the one who was always left out...
and always will be..
phoooeeeee.
I hate you life.
hmm..
i really dunno what to do.
I really like him.
Part of me just wants to go for it.
But the other part of me is just holding back.
I'm so scared=/
I dunno what to do.
I keep on thinking about it all the time.
And i can't get him off my mind..
But i dunno if i can ever trust again...
Rawr =/
03/02/08
So my parents were fighting today...
It was so scary =/
I was sitting there watching tv and they just started arguing!
I didn't know what to do..
I just grabbed my books and ran upstairs.
I locked my door and i started crying...
I didn't know who to call..
well i had one person in mind but he was kinda busy.
But he called me back.
But i've never felt so alone in my whole entire life.
I dunno..i feel like i just have no where to run
I just feel like hiding or locking myself up forever.
The two people who i believe in the most are arguing.
What more do i have left to believe in?
But tomorrow will come right?
It'll be a brand new day.
And they can make up.
I hope.
I will always be me. Emotions may change, but feelings don't.
sometimes it's tough being a girl. if you hate a pretty girl, people
will think you're jealous. if you like an older guy, people will call
you a slut. whenever you get into an argument with your best friend
no one will care and say oh, you'll be friends tomorrow. and when
you fall for the right person, everyone else thinks he's wrong for you.
Sometimes two hearts
just can't dance at the same beat.
Life takes your dreams & turns them upside down;
friends talk about you when you're not around.
People make promises they just can't keep,
& I've come to realize that talk is cheap.
Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone;
too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong."
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts,
& we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.
A life without friends is just a boring routine.
A life with friends is always a new experience.
Don't let your goals, replace your dreams.
You can't live your life for other people.
You've got to do what's right for you.
Even if it hurts some people you love.
imagine the people you see everyday right now, the people you would least
expect to not see tomorrow. in a couple of years, college will come & with it new
friends & new experiences. the people you see everyday in the halls .. your
friends, & some of them, your best friends, will disappear from your life, each
going their own way. you’ll see them once every ten years at some random
reunion if that. these are the people you have grown up with, & friends with
them or even if you’re not, there will come a time when many of the them wont
even cross your mind .. the truth is -- you’ll see your best friends maybe once a
year, because time goes by so fast & everyone is so busy. enjoy today & enjoy
tomorrow because these days come but once in your lives. be thankful for
what you have & most of all, for who you have in your life because life’s plans
for you may bring you away from these people. but no matter what anyone says,
& no matter what time can do, your heart will always bring the best back, & your
memories with them will forever hold a place in your soul.
