.. You got my hopes up so high this time, to the point that I have realized that I've been walking down the same path over and over again. I only noticed it now when the exact same heart-breaking pain kept on slapping me in the face and finally woke me up. THANKS BUDDY !
I always thought I knew what I was doing with you.
It was a dream that we believed in. I was wondering when it would change. Why would it change. I was vulnerable to all the things you told me. I believed all of it because you were ... you.
Some things were wrong, but I would ignore it. I was hoping that it would fade into the distance and I was all that you could see. It never really happened for you and I was holding on with a strand of ...hope.
Yet you were so blinded with your selfishness. I had gone too far and couldn't get to where I was before I knew you. I should have listened.
Were there lies? Maybe not direct lies, but I was never informed. There was Hope standing in the corner lurking to come alive again. For a moment it died.
I was to stay away from you. I had decided. For a short time I was doing so well, but the truth was... I was lying to myself. No apology can amount to how much I cried over you.
I may look strong, but you broke me down. Not once did you hurt me. Twice it took me to understand that you were no good.
So I fall back in with Hope growing, Lies fading, and made up Truths. Dare I say I felt that pain?
But I am here and you are far. Far off in the distance in the past, buried in my mind, but always a reminder of my naive ways.
I don't care if i believe your bull shitting lies but
You do not deserve to hurt me.
Yet it means a lot to me that we are friends.hopefully.
