09/14/07
10/05/07
10/17/07
10/25/07
10/31/07
11/22/07
11/25/07
12/01/07
12/03/07
12/08/07
12/13/07
12/21/07
12/27/07
12/29/07
01/25/08
01/31/08
02/04/08
02/14/08
2/28/08

honestly, i never wanted this to be a huge deal in any way.
but knowing that you actually had the integrity and was
sincere enough in wanting to tell me what you had to say,
it actually made me feel better.
it's not like i'm forcing you to tell me the things you want to say.
i really don't want to force you,
because that is the last thing i would ever do.
but because you initiated wanting to talk to me first,
it's why i'm encouraging you to tell me whatever it is that's on your mind.
i know the timing hasn't been right for the past week.
but it's not up to you to get angry and accuse me of wrong timing.
i don't really know what to do at this point
because i might have spent too much time waiting for you to finally speak up.
so now the ball's in your park.
i'm not going to say anything about it because i don't see why i should care so much.
so ...
it's up to you now.

contradicting my last entry.
this is not a good feeling.
it's funny how things can change in a matter of 7 days.

but what can i do right ?
i gave it my best.
sometimes things just don't work out.
but i guess it might be for the better.
i just hope this doesn't hurt for a long time.



Everything's falling, and I am included in that.
Oh, how I try to be just okay;
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you . .

this is a good feeling.
somewhat haha.
actually i don't really know.

what i do know is that.
you're really really cute
and such a nice guy.

damn.
what have i gotten myself into ?

today was a good day.
happy birthday to jenn chin !

i'm pretty sure half of you guys are in the same boat as me: can't wait for this week to end and the 4 day long weekend to begin !

but anyways. the only reason i wanted to blog today was because of one thing that made me quite happy today.
as some of you know, i'm quite sick. and i've been working on this annoying 2000 word history paper that's bugging the heck out of me.
so as i was typing along about an hour ago, i get a phone call from my home dawg sars.
so i'm all expecting she's gunna tell me something interesting but this is how our phone conversation goes:
e: hello ?
s: HEEEY
e: WHATSUP MAN
s: what chu up to ! did you just wake up or what ?
e: no no .. i'm just really sick. and i'm working on this 2000 word essay.
s: oh damn. okay can i call you back in 10 minutes ?!?!
e: .. okay !
so i'm all confused like why would someone call you to tell you that she's gunna call you back in 10 minutes ?! LIKEWTFRIGHT.
so anyways, i'm all okay i'll wait for her to phone. might as well take a break right now.
after my break, i go back to typing. then the doorbell rings and i hear dad going ESTHER IT'S SARAH.
so im thinking .. sarah ?! THE PHONE DIDN'T RING. WTF. COULD THE DOORBELL BE HER ?!
yes yes it was her .......
so i go to greet her and im all omg you drove here by yourself ?!?! NO WAY JOSE THAT'S FRICKEN INSANE.
anyways sars runs downstairs to the basement, closes the doors - pchha it's like she lives here herself.
so she's all SO OMG WHAT'S WRONG I WANTED TO SEE IF YOU'RE OKAY YOU SEEMED SO UPSET.
and blah blah blah long story short, i tell her what's up with me and everything.

yeah okay maybe i was lame in posting this blog entry. but you know what ?!
i just feel really loved today and i'm glad i have a good friend like her.
she fricken steals the car her mom doesn't like her driving to come and see me because she thought i wasn't okay.
damn.
i love that girl. ♥

just one of those days.
that start off really good,
starts off with you smiling.
but end off really bad,
ends off with you crying.
yeah yeah
it's just one of those days ...


sometimes the strangest things can happen out of the blue.
sometimes they're good,
sometimes they're bad.
but i guess what i learned today is,
you gotta take the good with the bad.
and no matter how much you feel like quitting,
you just gotta search inside of you and
pull out that inner strength;
to get you through life's shit.

“We also often add to our pain and suffering by being
overly sensitive, over-reacting to minor things, and
sometimes taking things too personally.”
- the 14th Dalai Lama

why'd you have to be so cute ?
it's impossible to ignore you.

ahhh - those butterflies are f'kn endless.
just like those smiles.
so insanely into you ♥

i've learned a lot of things this past year.

- some things are just not worth fighting for.
- karma will hit you like a bitch.
- people will use you at some point.
- your friends will disappoint you.
- don't sweat the small stuff.
- it's not all about the marks, it's about the improvement.
- learn to trust your judgement.
- good things can happen when you least expect it. bad things as well.
- just prepare yourself for life's curveballs. anything is possible.
- don't compare yourself with others.
- the family is the number one priority.
- you are the only person you can count on.
- don't procrastinate.
- sometimes jealousy can cause you to do stupid things.
- don't get mad when things don't go your way.
- faith goes a long way.
- this is the time in your life when you have to realize what's going on.
- and you have to choose how your future will end up being like.

THE WHOLE STORY
presale:
esther finally getting the password for the presale.
the plan - sarah's bro to buy 4 tickets for esther jaymie sarah & shelby.
the results - ending up getting only 2 tickets in the 200 level.
actual day of sale:
esther sarah & shelby 3-waying it at 945am.
going crazy when 1000am hits.
shelby finding 2 tickets in the 200 level - she buys them.
15 minutes later of a bad search ...
sarah screaming OMG I GOT 2 FLOOR SEATS
2 seconds after
esther screaming OMG I GOT 2 FLOOR SEATS TOO
everyone's all hyped up in excitement because there are 4 floor seat tickets.
esther buys them OFFICIALLY
something's wrong with sarah's form ... it won't let her select "canada" as the location.
everyone freaking out on the phone.
sadly ... unfortunately ... those 2 floor seat tickets get released back to the public because sarah's form didn't work out.
everyone all upset/pissed.
everyone STILL upset/pissed.
but overall result: 4 tickets in the 200 level (2 from presale, 2 from actual sale) and 2 tickets for floor seats.

**it's okay girls we did our best. now we're pro at this.
we got tickets okaaay !!


all i can say is: TIME TO BRING SEXY BACK

something on my mind.
- they can tolerate me.
- they will listen to me.
- they know exactly the right words to say.
- they're not afraid to release their inner crazyness.
- they make me a better person.

i may not see them all the time, but they're the ones who know how to make it right.

i appreciate it.
thanks you guys.

haha so here are daily updates of rounda and stickany:
- getting the chinese class assignment of going outside but ending up running to the store instead. how stickany treats rounda as her slave "hold my gloves." "i don't want to." "you're going to hold my gloves !" "fuck fineee."
- "we'll do the essay .. just hand it into the wrong bin and if the teacher asks why it's late, say it was always in the wrong bin even though it wasn't."
- "HI FATTYY !" "oh were you talking to me ?" "of course !" "oh. i thought you were talking to your fat ass. i thought you named it."
- getting the projector cart from the library and rounda goes "i'm gunna ride it !" stickany goes "NO WAY !" and rounda says "YES PUSH ME PUSH ME !!" and they end up running into a teacher who laughs at them.
- stickany being half dead in class and rounda feeling sorry for her but then all feelings get pushed aside when they get handed a period 3 spare