belugosi - 21, Female, Canada
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moving out november 1st
kind of a fixer upper but it has to be done
i'm scared and excited and anxious and i just want out
going into holts with brade yesterday made me realize that i will probably not able to afford anything from there anymore even if i tried
then of course i have to have the new lv 10 karat gold plated pumps thrust in front of my face for an hour
at least i get to see them everyday, not worn by me of course but

im not looking forward to being broke
and my job is a joke these days
and i cant figure out my love life if it killed me
i'm stuck between right and wrong, morality and spontineity
and its scary and anxious and worried
i hope i can handle this
 

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Do you have your eye on anyone?
meh

Does this person know?
mehybe

How much longer until your birthday?
like 11 months

Would you go back in time if you had the chance?
probablyt

Who was the last person that texted you?
neil

Is there a difference between love and in love?
yep

Do you prefer hot or cold weather?
hot

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
mini sk8r boys

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
only when i see them and even then i dont know

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
i think

What was the last thing you laughed at?
annoying athiest boys

Do certain songs remind you of certain people?
duh

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
brent

Can you watch scary movies?
yes

How's your life lately?
weird. i dunno, stressful and steady. im working on getting my life together

Has anybody ever given you butterflies in your stomach?
ya

When was the last time you had butterflies?
when a cute boy picked a flower for me yay

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
um its army print

Does seeing couples in love make you mad?
not at all

Do you mind sleeping on the floor?
not really

Do you plan on going to college? For what?
we'll see

You're in the hospital, who of your friends would come to see you?
lona, mdgb, neil, lisa

Do you cry easily?
ya

What's a movie you want to see?
star trek

Would you ever get plastic surgery? If so, what?
maybe i dunno

How does your hair look right now?
in a touqe hiding

Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
no

Do you trust people?
not really

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
ya

Is there someone you want to fight?
no

What color is your underwear?
white

Would you go in public without looking dressed up or put together?
yes

Who is the last person to call you baby?
i dunno like molly or something

Is there a certain movie that you just can't get sick of, no matter how many times you watch it?
breathless

When's the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
pulp fiction at zach's house on sat

Were you happy when you woke up today?
no

Do you still speak to any of your classmates from elementary school?
now that i think of it, no

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
barcelona

Have you ever kissed someone that smokes?
yes

Do you get jealous easily?
yes

Where do you see yourself in the next 2 years?
hopefully not here but its likely i will be

Ever been called a bitch?
yea

When's the next time you'll see your closest friend?
fuck soon i hope

Is anyone over protective over you?
no

Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
yes

Are you starting to realize anything?
yes

One thing you're looking forward to?
showering

When will you see the person you like?
before he leaves again i hope

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
dead, lung cancer

Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
ya

Honestly, whats your middle name?
mariah

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
so nice

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
water

Are you listening to music right now?
ariel pink

Do you like Chinese food?
duh

What is the last movie you saw in theaters?
i like dont go to movies anymore i think it was slumdog

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
yes and no

Do you get distracted easily?
ya

Where was the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
saturday

Was this the best year of your life?
could be but probably not

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
i dont know

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
ya

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
yes

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
dunno

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
no

Have you ever dated Someone Older Than You?
ya

Where is your boy tonight?
i dont have a boy

Where is your best girl right now?
i dont know probs at home petting her cat or eating finger food

Last person you text messaged?
molly

What are you doing right now?
blogging

What are you doing tomorrow?
going to school

Would you kiss the last person you SAW?
yes best kisser ever

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
like a month ago over text

Where were you 1 hour ago?
at home

Who knows a secret or two about you?
some peeps

Last person to emotionally hurt you?
lots of people have but i keep it a secret

Last person to make you laugh?
neil

Last thing you drank?
water

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can tell everything to?
ya

Who is the last girl you talked to on msn?
elijah lol

Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
no

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
molly

What do you wear more; jeans, sweat pants, or shorts?
jeans

Where do you go if you are butt naked and locked out of your house?
i'd hide

What is one thing you do before you go to sleep?
read or depending on the day watch the hour

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
sure

Have you ever said you'd never love again?
no

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
dunno

Do you say sorry first?
no

Whats in your pocket ?
nothin

What are you going to do after this?
clean my room, watch tv

Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher ?
ms jennings

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
molly last night

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
jamaica

Are you flexible?
not

What is your favorite song at the moment?
everyday i die miyagis by ariel pink

What’s the worst thing that happened to you today?
being told that a dummy girl is still being a dummy girl, and that my friend is secretly using me for free clothes

Can you touch your toes?
no

What was the funniest thing to happen to you today?
uhm... nothing funny happened today i dont think. maybe troy pouring his heart out to me but that was more cute than anything

When will your next kiss be?
i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwww okay

Last time you were truly sad?
last week, alot of last week actually

Do you like your life as of now?
its ok

Are you tired right now?
i slept for two periods today so no

When was the last time something bothered you?
lots of things bother me

Who were you with Saturday night?
hanna for a bit.. then kara and molly.. then mac and some sk8rs and a dummy girl and then kara molly zacheb jack neil ryan then zzzzzzzz

Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
good friend

Is there drama in your life right now?
its like behind the scenes drama... think gossip girl's cast members

Are you close with your mother?
no

Could you go a day with out eating?
probably

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
on a beach in barcelona

Who was the last person you talked to on facebook?
lona

Has someone ever cheated on you?
no

Are you a girl or a boy?
girl

What's your all time FAVORITE movie?
breathless... closer is up there or annie hall

Why is that?
they're sad and romantic and ironic and that's my favorite kind of anything

Look to your right, what do you see?
a plant and my tea

Look to your left, what do you see?
a shelf

So far, do you think this note is like totally boring?
ya

Do you like peanutbutter?
sortof

Do you love taylor swift?
no

What you do today?
went to school, came home

Are you waiting for anybody to come online?
no

Do you think your a stalker when you wait for people to come online?
yes

Name someone who annoys you:
a handful of people right now.. which sucks

Do you like your friends?
yes

Say, what time is it?
456pm

Would you like fries with that?
ya

Do you like pepsi or coke better?
diet pepei

Do you think life is going by too fast?
whatever

Do you listen to songs that are related to your life?
huh

Do you live in canada ?
yes

Where in canada ?
alburta

Do any of your friends have jobs ?
yes

What's the closest orange object ?
this weird creepy geisha statue of my moms

So, are you like totally freaked out by needles ?
no

Has a boy sat on your bed before?
ya

How old is the last person you kissed?
20

Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
no

How many cousins in total do you have?
4

Why did you last cry?
marley died

Have you ever held hands with anyone?
yes

What do you usually do right when you wake up?
get dressed

What kind of cellphone do you have?
piece of shit blackberry pearl

Are you wearing socks?
yes

Do you get cravings to smoke?
yes

Who last pissed you off?
dummys

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
lisa

Do you still talk to the person you last made out with?
yes

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yes

How many texts are in your inbox?
alot

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
miki last night

What is your relationship status?
shingle

What are you NOT looking forward to?
school tmrw

Does anything on your body hurt right now?
no

What's your favorite place to go when sad?
my bed

Know anyone on birth control?
ya

Can you play any instruments?
no

Would you go swimming right now if you could?
no

Are you tired?
ish

What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months?
whatevrerrr

What are you known for?
being a badass i dunno nothing

What town do you live in?
calgs

Have you ever had a serious accident?
no

Do you want to get married?
not reeeally

Has anyone ever threatened you?
not really

When's the last time you burned a candle?
it's been awhile

What's your dream job?
working in the only industry i can ever see myself working in... or maybe a writer

Could you take a nap right now?
probably

Where's the closest stapler?
beside me

Have you ever watched the t.v. show Friends?
yeah

Have you ever gone frog hunting?
yes

Who's the last person to seriously hurt you?
g

Do you ever suffer from dry skin?
noo

Do you still sleep with a stuffed animal?
ya

Do you like getting dirty?
sometimes

When's the last time you were embarrassed?
last night

Are you a very flirty person?
sometimes

Would you rather have a boy baby or a girl baby?
boy

Do you like dogs or cats more?
dogz

Did you like the movie Four Christmases?
no

What's the weather like right this moment?
sunny/cloudy and warm

Who was your favorite babysitter?
my uncle

Are you supersticious?
no

Do you like crowds?
no

How often do you brush your teeth?
2 times a day

Do you swear?
yes

Are you gullible?
sometimes

Do you think your ex will move on and be happier with another person?
hopefully

If you were kicked out of your current residence who would you call?
lona

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
ish

Hows your heart right now?
its there

What is one fact about the last person that called you?
she's great

What are you listening to?
led zep

Do you think long relationships at your age mean anything?
of course

Do you have plans for the weekend?
no

What are you wearing on your feet?
socks

Is there a boyfriend/girlfriend that you will never forget?
of course

What do you think of people that do drugs?
i dont know anymore

What is your current myspace song?
like........ steve aoki? fuck haha myspace

Is there anyone on your bad side right now?
no

Will you be in a relationship next month?
dunno

Where was the last place you hugged someone?
dunno

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
troy

Do you currently have a hickey?
no

Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
happier

Do you have unlimited texting?
i dont know i dont think so

What were you doing at 10pm Friday night?
on a party bus haha

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
hug

Do you have strange dreams?
yes

Who was the first person you talked to today?
robyn

So you know anyone whose name starts with a S?
sarah

When was the last time you had your hair cut?
2 months ago

What were you doing at midnight last night?
reading

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
ya

Do you think that exes can be just friends?
maybe

Are you taller than 5'6"?
5"6

Are you any good at math?
no

If there was a spider in your room, would you leave?
id try to takie it oueside but probs kill it

Who was the last person you told a secret to?
you

What are you doing tomorrow?
school
 

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1 eternal love for you
2 seeing you a minimum of twice a week is the only way i stay sane it seems, you're a great friend even though sometimes i feel you dont really get what im saying and you are the funnest girl to get rowdy with... actually like the funnest to do anything with yayy
2 you are the nicets person i have ever met in my entire life, seriously you're so genuine and sweet and hilarious and awesome and i love doing nothing with you at work all day and drinking with you and being idiots all the time and im SO SAD you're leaving in september i love you
3 so sweet and beautiful and genuine i loooooveeeee it
4 so stylin'. seriously though!!!
5 dont even know what to say to you anymore but i want to be friends again i just never thought it was that easy and i still feel guilty even though i know it wasnt all my fault
6 i love you but sometimes i feel like you're secretly trying to stab me in the back
7 slot
8 we have the best life talks youre so awesome i miss you
9 i kind of hate you, like go away
10 i wish i still had a crush on you but i needa mahn notta lil boi ~*~ you're still cue tho
11 ugh i dont even know i always think i like you but you're so ... something... i dunno. i think im over it tho
12 i love/hate you forever
13 you're pretty much my perfect man
 

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1. The biggest mistake of your life?
maybe saturday night... but probably not. i try not to regret shit but this might be hard.

2. Have you ever been in love with the same person for more then a year?
yep

3. Have you ever done coke?
yeah

4. What is one thing you hate about yourself?
i overanalyze

5. What is one thing you love about yourself?
i get my point across

6. Have you ever bought condoms?
no

7. What do you think about the person that hurt you most?
lost soul.

8. Have you ever made yourself throw up?
yeah

9. Anything your best friend does that you hate?
not in the least

10. What do you do when your really angry?
cry

11. When is the next time you are going to have sex?
who knows

12. How old were you when you lost your V-card?
16

13. Have you ever been in a fight?
hell no

14. What is your biggest emotional turn on?
boys who get what im sayin' .. and compassion is a nice thing

15. What is your biggest emotional turn off?
liars

16. What is your biggest physical turn on?
dirtydirtydirty, LONG HAIR, good clothes, eyessssss

17. What is your biggest physical turn off?
dont smell bad... and no shorties

18. Have you ever kissed the same sex?
duh

19. Would you do it again?
duh

20. Tell us about the first time you got your heart broken?
a constant heartbreak from grades 8-12

21. Whats scarier falling in love or out of love and why?
out of love

22. Do you believe you have one true love?
probably, but i bet he lives in like.... iceland.

23. What are your beliefs involving god?
non existent.

24. One thing you would never do to another person?
murder.

25. Have you ever done something completely unlike yourself?
usually not.

26. What are your thoughts on sex before marriage?
it happens.

27. What are your thoughts on drugs, smoking and alcohol?
i love smoking but i wish i didn't because it's gross and will kill me, weed + me = brutal anxiety, coke is dumb but i'd probably do it again one day, ecstasy is stupid, mdma would be fun if i didn't die the first time i did it, alchohol is fun, never done mushrooms, will probably never do any other shit.

28. Is there one thing that always makes you cry?
east hastings - godspeed you! black emporer

29. Something weird that you really enjoy?
cleaning my ears

30. Have you ever had anal?
hell to the no.

31. What is the best way to win your heart?
like the same stuff as me?

32. Do people think your weird?
probably.

33. What about your body do you wish you could change?
whatever.

34. How do you feel about the last person who texted you?
one of the best people i've ever known, ever. kara.

35. Do you like to be alone or with others more?
alone.

36. Do you believe in astrology and horoscope?
i'm an aries, boy. that's it, that's all.

37. Have you ever had a near death experience?
no

38. Have you ever thought you were pregnant?
of course, hasnt every girl

39. What is the strongest emotion you have ever felt?
sadness

40. Are you sleeping alone tonight?
yea

41. How do you feel about that?
cuddle me

42. Be honest, how is your heart?
crushin'....

43. Be honest, Have you gotten laid in the last week?
yes bahahaha

44. Be honest, have you slept with more then 5 people?
no

45. Do you believe people are born good or bad?
nature vs nurture, yo

46. Tell us about one of the scariest moments of your life?
everytime i smoke weed pretty much

47. Are you on any medications?
nah though i probably should be

48. If you were to stop taking them what would happen to you?
nothing

49. Do you have a crush on anyone?
yessssssssssss, one and two and three

50. Do they like you back?
one i thinnnnnnnnnnnnk, two i knoooooooww, three i dunnnnno but i think and i dont really have a crush on them but it would be funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

51. Do you want to date them?
one uhmmmm yeaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh, two i dunno i think so but there may not be a point since hes leaving in less than a month but <3, three no, no i dont think so

52. Have you ever woken up crying, why?
nightmares

53. Have you ever woken up smiling, why?
good dreams

54. Are you a nervous person?
sometimes boys make me nervous but not often

55. Do you think anyone is going to read this just to get to know you?
everyone reading this already knows me
 

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i go through moods like a rollercoaster it's cliche but true
today was amazin and im crushin
my mood is light and im calm and completely okay
wrapped up in some sort of dream world where i'm 13 again
and i'm completely okay.
 

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1. best long weekend ever
2. too much rain
3. death2obligations
4. i'm such a pussy
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CAN I GET AN AMEN???



and............. COOL HAT??????????? i aint mad at you ash. i swear.
 

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my whole body is sore and i somehow managed to smoke an entire pack of cigarettes in one day
last night was so much fun i love everyone
and i love making sexy eyes from across a room on/off for 2 hours shshhh i am so gay
bye emma have fun in LA take a picture beside spike lee's star or mickey mouse or spiderman or something ahhh have so much fun, miss you already love you lots
i'm going to vancouver on tuesday. i need to go umbrella shopping
to call the butthead or not call the butthead? we all know i'm gonna call the butthead.
DUDE it's beautiful outside! i want to go for a bike ride.
does anyone else think katy perry and zooey deschannel are, like, TWINS???