How could the lesson not be learned the first time. Everything, for spontaneous and different. Not once, but twice. So as I sit here, a weakened version of my own relfection, I appologise aloud...........I'm sorry Moon...forgive me, you won't. Forget me, you can't. Pity me, for eternity.....I will.
The man that says it can't be done shouldn't interupt the man whos doing it
WHOO WHOO BITCHES, I GOT CLOWN LOVE! TEST THE RAP AND GET BITCH SLAPPED
OMG babe i miss you so much i cant wait to see you. YoU know I love you and cant wait to hold you in my arms again. One week was way to long away from YoU
I,m over it. You see I'm falling in the fast of this. Clouded by memories of the past. At last, I see. I feel it fading. I can't speak it or else you will dig my grave. You feel it fimd my, always winding. Take my hand now be alive. You see I can not be forsaken, becauseI'm not the only one. We walk amongst feeding raping. Must we hide from everyone? I'm over it.Why can't we be together? Erase it! Sleeping so long taking off the mask. At last, I see.I feel us fading. I can't speak it or else you will dig my grave. You feel it find me always winding. Take my hand now be alive. You see I can not be forsaken, because I'm not the only one. We walk among you feeding raping. Must we hide from everyone?
Mom, Mrs. Johanna Naubert. This is for you.
I respect my mother. With every step I take
She was there for my first step in the first place
Everybody wants out on there own
Now that I'm grown, I wanna be back home
In a world full of vipers only my mother's love was rightous
I feel it to hell and back three times, I could never sum it up with these rymes
Looki'n for a story to share with somebody, but they never seem to care
While I'm looki'n for this person everywhere
I'm slippi'n cause my mom's right here
Life moves along so fast, when I see real love at last it's past
That ain't gonna happen to me. I can hear my conscience rappi'n to me
It's like hey
You only got one real friend from the cradle to the grave and back again
With unconditional love
That's my mother I'm speaking of.
(Suicide Hotline, may I help you?) Ya, uh, well I'm about to fuckin' kill myself.(Listen, you don't want to do that.Ok? You don't want to do that) I'm gonna... Theres so many fuckin' reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore.(Theres no reason to...) I'm gonna put a slug in my fuckin' head.(You don't want to do that. You want to be here on Earth. Ok?)Fuck that shit man, I got a gun right now, (Put it away.) and I got it right under my chin man, fuck that! (Take it away from your chin) I'm gonna fuckin' blow my head all over the celing.(NO your not. Ok?) Fuck this shit,man.( Hey, just talk with me.Ok?)It ain't no point to me wakin' up. Everybody's time I'm takin' up.(No.) I got nobody, there ain't a shoulder near. I can't stay here and it's colder there.(Where?) I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt. I slice my wrists and it's gonna squirt. (Oh, no.)For me, everyone holds a hate, I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake. There's no roads to take. I'm in a circle drive. Bustin' at myself and I'm trying to survive.(Oh.) I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down. I ain't got many home boys commin' around. (No?)You don't understand ,(Oh, yes I do.)so don't say you do.I swear I'll put a mutha fuckin' slug in you.(Now, now.) I'm the only one, the lonely one, at home alone loadin' a gun thinkin' "Why not?" (Why not? What do you mean "Why not?" Ok. You have fellings inside your head,ok? I understand those feelings,ok and feelings lead to depression. When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside your heart,ok, and your heart means everything in the world, ok?) I got court coming up. I stole a truck. I got a bitch pregnent and I'm broke as fuck. I wanna high but I got piss test.(Well.) I'm always first name on top of shit lists.(No.) Get this! The witch has made my chest it's permanent nightly visiting nest.(What?!) There ain't no clothes that I look good in. I'm the mutha fuckin' big red train that couldn't. I got no family I stole their shit.(Ok.) Restraining orders, and I still won't quit. I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole, then I fell through the floor in that hole some more. I've been missin' for a year, nobody's lookin'.(I am.) I got beat down, and my shit tookin'.(Oh, no.) I look ahead now, all I see is the same, this self-inflicted bullet hole poured in my brain.(Ok, now I understand your in pain,ok. I understand everything you're going through, I've been there myself.ok? Now your pain is my pain, alright? and I feel your pain and I want us to be friends, Just me and you, friends) I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel.(What?!) The dreams are gettin' serious, I think I'm in trouble.(Oh, my.) I don't hold memory for more than an hour. I'm tired as fuck, and I'm drained of power. I ain't half way there and I'm all outta time. I'm like a crushed lightbulb, all outta shine.(Oh, no.) I've been around the world and no place is home. I wanna see the other side where my face gold. I'm but naked. I've been jackin' off, gettin' drunk. It's my last hours alive who gives a fuck.(Me.) It don't matter.(No?) I'm doin' this shit in the garage, so I can make it easier for them to clean my head splogde. This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me. Still up in a chair with my thoughts behind me.(Wait, wait.) I'm 'bout to do it.(No!) Can you hold for a second?
