monday june 15 - schoool @ 12
tuesday june 16 - schoool @ 12
wednesday june 17 - school, ortho appointment @ 2:40, dr's appt. @ 5
thursday june 18 - math exam 9:00-11:00
friday june 19 - english exam 9:00-11:00 / babysitting
saturday june 20 - nothing yet
sunday june 21 - grandmas house/swimming in neighbors poool FINALLY
monday june 22 - nothing yet
tuesday june 23 - nothing yet.
wednesday june 24 - nothing yet.
thursday june 25 - nothing yet.
friday june 26 - nothing yet.
saturday june 27 - nothing yet.
feelings & thoughts`
- you make all of my worries just... evaporate into nothing. your amaziiing <3
- i had a blast todaaay. we gotta do it more often
- glad i saw you today. it's beeen way too long. i missed you !
- god child, your hilarious.. "thats right. clean my shoes bitch!" hah
- im glad your staying strong.. you've worked way to hard to just drop everything now.
- i feel like im letting everyone down now? = (
- PS, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
PAATRIICKKK !!!! your insane. you cant just go buy a gun ands do away wwith yourself. YOU CANT YOU CANT YOU CANT. iv beeen through this kinda stuff wayyyyyyy too much. it's not worth it = (
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
itll be worth it if my life was out of the way of everyone elses
im just goin to keep growin up as a fuck up and if that keeps up then whats the point
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
= ( how are you a fuck up? yeah, sure you've made some mistakes in your life, but who doesnt? you've gotta keeep your chin up, and pull through all of this bullshit.. if i would have just killed myself when i was going through everything, i would have beeen dead when i was 12 years old. i thought the exact way about myself as you do, but i pulled through. knowing people were there to help me,.
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
and that people loved me.. and look, im still here today..
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
yea i understand
everyones life is different they learn from their actions in the future
we are all growing up and realizing what to do with ourselves
but some of us and most of my friends are goin through stress with it and losing more loved ones and best friends
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
& you wanna put your friends through that again?? it's only gunna make then want to do the same thing = (
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
no its them dealing with their own stress and they get depressed about it but everytime i try to help no one listens and i fuckin lose a good friend every fucking weekend
so far i lost 3 best friends
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
wow.
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
3 friends, in 3 weeeks?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
no
2
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
wow.
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
the past few weeks were fucking bullshit
u dont really wana hear all the stories
plus my girlfriend lost some friends and my friends that i lost are losing their friends
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
everythings falling apart bit by bit
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
i cant say i know how that feels.. because i dont.. but i do know, that suicide isnt the answer.. 2 wrongs dont make a right.. there are MAAAANNYYYY people who love you, & care for you, and only want the best.. it may not seem like it, but it's very very very true.. sometimes, shit has to be learned the hard way ( unfortunatly ) but think.. what would it do to your girlfriend if you did that?
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
she would be destrot.
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
yea she would have the worst time of her life..
but why talk to me about this now
even though we barely know eachother
we barely hang out
i barely hangout with anyone because their getting on with their own lives and i would probably just get in the way with it
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
im talking to you about this, because i know how much it sucks when someone commits suicide.. my mom almost did it twice.. and i have cousins and aunties that have done it. i know how much it sucks... and yeah, we barley talk anymore, but i still wouldnt be able to stand the fact that you'd be gone..
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
if i was gone
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
then the only ppl who would miss me on the inside but not the outside would be my family and friends and if i lost my life to my girlfriend i duno what she would do with herself
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
exactly. so why put them through that.?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
so they dont have to worry about it in the long run
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
who says it's even gunna happen in the long run? what if your just cutting your life short, because you think it's gunna happen.. but maybe it never will?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
sometimes when this usually happens
i think of the better things in life
go back to school....start a business
live on my own without a worry in the world
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
goood !!! there is so much in life that you would be missing out on.
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
but i dont know how to do it thats the thing
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i dont know where to start
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
start off, first of all, by thinking how much your girlfriend loves you.. & how she would do anything and EVERYTHING for you. no matter what.. then, maybe go and get a job, work your way to sumer, then register to go ack to school. take classes that will help you get a careeer in your life. doing whatever it is you want too. '
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i already have a job
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
is it something you like doing?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
yes and i want to start a business with it
i wana put in enough time and hours so that i can learn and then put my knowledge to the test and eventually be my own boss and live successully
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
sccessfully*
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
so why dont you ask them for more hours?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i usually do
but the weather is the main interference of roofing
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
so it's basically, only a temporary thing, that your not working as many hours as you'd like?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
its usually decent hours
i wana learn enough to become a foreman then just start my own business
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
how long would that take?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
fuck....all life is about is just money
but eventually ppl realize that money isnt happiness
happiness is nothing anymore
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
it's what life has come down to.. yeah, i agreee. it's dumb.. but what can you do?
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
absolutely nothing
just work hard at life and die a rich man in the end
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
ecaxtly.
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i wish everyone could hear my thoughts about life and society
theres over a million civilizations in this universe
and if our solar system died out and civilization was completely gone in our galaxy then there would be no trace of memory or care if it happened
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
the universe will just keep living on
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
yep = (
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
were just a small spec trying to make something of ourselves
making OUR society grow
but why do we do this?
howcome we all have to live this way
its just one big game
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
yep. & everyone coninues to play/
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
exactly
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
dont let the fear of striking out, keep you from playin the game though.
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i know
you just have to be the one that turns everything around
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
& who's gunna stop you from trying..
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
usually lifes dramatic changes
-- one mind, one million thoughts` . says:
they shouldnt stop you from trying..
..Patrick*[StartintoDJonSaturday!!]>>> i love and care for you the most and nothing can stop it says:
i know
thats why u have to overcome and overwhelm the possibilities
you have to get through the dragon's to find your princess
