i love, love, LOVE coming on here every once in a while and writing random ish. makes my life. (: speaking of life right now, its quite fantastic. besides not having my phone untill friday-ish, which sucks major butt. but everything else is greaattt. finished my cd finally! feels like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. not that making music is a weigh down on my life, i have just wanted to get it done for soooo long its insane. and the boy! everytime i say i dont want one, one just comes strolling in. seriously, the key to finding anything is to stop looking. i mean, if your looking for something like that. not a phone or a remote, obviously. but he's fantastic. goodness gracious. this may be hard to believe, but im not one to gush and swoon. but i have wanted him for like five months. so this is kind of a big step for me. im happy, minus my phone, which means i havent talked to him in a few days. and im okay with that! we also probably wont hang out this week. if he's even here on the weekend. :/ which is uber lame. but, absence makes the heart fonder, am i right? yes i am, but i am also gay for saying that quote. regardless, thanks life. (: i will work on things with mom, i promise. right now. because i dont like how this weekend was, at all. it actually quite upset me, so no mas. mmm, also, sasha and evan have their first night at wal-mart tonight as overnight stockers. how jealous are you?!? im extremely jealous. i want to work at wal-mart soooo bad. you know, since i cant work at the olympics. i should probably be hitting the ol' dusty trail, here. i will not be a happy camper in the a.m if i stay up any longer. i dont know who im talking to, since no one comes on here, and im probably the only one who is ever going to read this. but if by chance anyone else is reading this, your a champ. and i secretly adore you. (; i guess its not a secret anymore.
this spring break has been one big fat shitfest. i have done ZERO. besides go to movies. honestly, i think i've seen everything at galaxy besides one.
i love making devious plans. too bad they backfire sometimes. i guess we'll see what happens. maybe i'll get my phone back soon, and it can continue. =)
ah, well. I have not been on this good ol' site for a good while. its nice to be back. sort of. im kind of lost in terms of, they changed this whole dealio around since i was last on and i feel like one of those old people who live under rocks and cant handle technology. good deal, though, that i can still write a blog, relatively well. live has kind of been a bit of a poo hole lately. im doing my best to stay as strong as possible. theres only one person that i truly have. no one else really understands me, i have no one else to talk to, its not so great. i thank god i have her, or i may have gone crazy a long time ago. my three "bestfriends" have not been quite so bestfriendy for the past five months or so. and you-know-who, well thats a whole different story. but then again you-know-who could refer to a number of people. cause, really, three different guys since school started, shaeane? really? your losing your marbles for real this time. haha, one was a good kisser, but liked to say i love you, and took pleasure in being too sensitive and too arrogant. and too stupid to realize he was either of those things. so, big fat no. one was amazing, the perfect guy. there was nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing, wrong with him. except for the fact that he liked me, untill i liked the other guy, and then "he lost the feelings." im an expert at sabotaging myself. he played guitar, he was kind of nerdy, and jsut all around perfect. and the last one was far from perfect. he was amazingly nice, and charming, and hot, and cocky, (sometimes joking, sometimes not) and had an amazing sense of humor, and i could be completely myself around him. and for him, i could've fallen. hard and fast. maybe i did. just a little, if theres even such a thing as falling "just a little." untill one day he decides "your too immature, your a little crazy, and i just dont have feelings for you anymore." thank you, for making me feel so good about myself. i'll give you one thing though, you sure put on an amazing show, and it was fantastic while it lasted. too bad. we were perfect for eachother. or so i thought. i guess what im trying to say is that i need life to pull up its socks, please and thank you. i need some new inspiration and for once, i'd like it to not come from a guy. i feel a little young to be saying this, but what the hell. i've been hurt one too many times. so im done. i dont know for how long, but im done. i need to focus my energy on my music and dance and my relationships with my friends, because those are what i need the most right now, besides music, and they are going down the crapper. and that was a really good vent. so if, for some unfathomable reason, you are still reading this, your dumb. but thank you. =) sometimes you just need to get everything out, and when you dont have someone to say it to, you write it, and hope someone reads it.
but heres a little message for you three:
1. you suck.
2. you suck.
3. you suck.
=) that is all. <33
-shaeane jimenez
WHAT HE SAID:
goodlookng99
Can I strip 4 u on msn? u r hot and so I am I.
AND WHAT I SAID:
oh really? i bet your actually ugly. haha, considering you dont have any pictures. so, person whose probably an old man, no, you cannot strip for me on msn. but you know what you can do? back off. and not be such an effing creeper. thanks! have a grand day. =)
lost my phone. friiigggg. had it for about a day. uncool. someone up theres got it in for me.
music is the only way i can escape. take that away from me and i have nothing. take anything else and i can survive, scrounging up the last bits of music i may still hve in my soul. alot of people die with their music still inside of them. thats going to be me. ill die with music still alive and well in my soul and in my body. and then maybe ill get to stay there in my body and enjoy the music. because i can depend on it. 110%.
-shaeanejimenez
The School Year is Over Honestly Bold Everything You have done this school year.
lost a friend
stayed in a relationship the whole year
stayed single the whole year
kissed someone new
kissed in the rain
fell in love
had your heart broken
broken someone else's heart
kept a boyfreind/gf for a few months
had a stalker
questioned your sexual orientation
came out of the closet
got married
had a divorce
had a gay marriage
loved someone you'll never forget
done something you've regretted
lost your true love
lost faith in love
cried over a guy / girl
kissed under mistletoe
shoplifted
caught a shoplifter
been caught shoplifting
got a promotion
got a raise/changed jobs
lost your job
quit your job
applied for a job
got fired from your job
did something you were proud of
discovered a new talent
were involved in something you'll never forget
painted a picture
wrote a poem
ran a mile
listened to music you couldn't stand
skinny-dipped
went to a sleepover
went camping
threw surprise party
had a party
laughed till you cried
slept the whole day
flirted with a boy / girl
visited a different country
cooked a disastrous meal
lost something important to you
got a gift you adore
realized something new about yourself
tripped over a coffee table
dyed your hair
came close to losing your life
someone close to you died
went to a party
did drugs
got arrested
read a great book
saw a great movie
pretended to like someone
saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
saw one of your favorite bands / artists live
saw someone famous in person
did something you wanted to tell everyone
Yesterday was pretty cool. =) i wish that we could've gotten to know you sooner though, its kind of a shame, considering your really attractive. darn. well, hopefully we can still hangout and stuff, after your gone. Even if were just friends, haha, cause your awesome.
oh my god, okay. dont take everything so seriously please. she just did what you said. and i know this isnt my business but honestly. obviously theres a whole lotta pms involved in this because you guys are totally over reacting. half the stuff your saying isnt even what she said. so just take your pms pills and chill down a bit, and then maybe try to not be such an idot. your just making yourself sound stupid. you and your little followers.
this is taking way too long. this is shit. i hate everything.
dance was just AH-MAZING. i freaking love you. all of you. and monday will be 20,00x more fun. yea-hah. possibly because of the people *hint-hint* or just because i got my other dance too, yo. anyways, im super excited. and i think im going to re-do my page. but currently i am doing my religion essay. which is taking allooott longer than expected. and i told you that i was going to do the math. which will be done last minute, tomorrow night. i just know it. but i dont even care, im still over tired from this morning, and my stomach still hurts, so i got bigger things to worry about.
oh nexopia, i have missed you so.
im not sure. but i think im ungrounded.
