ITs the weirdest feeling you know, to be caught between wanting and dreading....yet i feel as though there is turn to this road. So long ive been living the same day, i feel like Bill Murray in Groundhog DAy...i seriously do. Work, party, work, sleep, party...its becoming so that im enjoying the same thing over and over again...still expecting somthing to happen.
Well somthing is happeing, my flight on saturday to europe. Going alone means freedom, complete independence, and a frightful feeling of aimlessness that will dwell in my stomach. "a fever you cant sweat out" so to speak i guess. luckily im blessed with my awareness of people and opportunity...i have a job lined up that might take off...or not.
either way im left with an experience that will add to the mosaic of a young person that has yet to become fit.
I am so sad to leave everyone here that has become my friend, or has not, becuase you not only live here with me as a person, but as a feeling you give me. Trials of human connection is what really shapes us...
Farewell to all my friends and i will see you again in 6 months (or not) and lets see who we are then.

BYE SUCKERS