fuck i dont remember today, or since its the 10th, yesterday, i went to school, slept in history,and then went to go see my grandpa, and then went to the yc, i saw alecia and i was gonna yell out, but then i decided that my grandfather wasnt in the mood to meet someone. anyway yeah got home by sitting in the passenger seat of dustins car. i had to listen to metal-icka, but its better then his little sister, shes luckey i didnt shove my foot in her face and tickel her fucking brain, stupid cunt. anyway then i went to jars and the grad meeting and read books instead of listen. i made the joke, quietly "what if my date is 12? *trucker/rapist/white trash laugh*" and some lady was like "GEDLGJB>SBLSHVG" so i laughed, and then shes like "i wouldnt go with you" and i said "good, uyour aura would make me into a fugly beats of darkness." hahaha i lied, i just laughed again and glared at her. and then she said i have to shave fro grad, so i said too bad, thats descrimination against jews!!! HITLER!!!

anyway i'm gonna rent a suit of armor for the entire trip, it'll be awesome!!!!! A SUIT OF ARMOR!!! WOOOOOOOOT

yeah
got to home number 2 and watched some tv with my brother then went to home nmber one and slept? cool, what a day!
250 bucks for 2 if i fundraise.....i can get my lazy ass off the couch and do it right? no? o ok fuck it then

alecia woke me up today not that homo nathan. lame wad. anyway biology i built a futuristic horse with not TWO but THREE legs, 2 feet each. AND a alien cowboy with guns! william loved him. anyway then i went to mc dicks and i ate a good FRESH big mac! it was good. anyway then wicked chemistry, i owned the work, and then i worked history. at 3:05 the bitch from the chief came to take a pick of american beauty, what a whore. well then ryan mooney was late and so we just ran lines. aaaaanyway i stole merrisas keys as a joke. so i walked home after i have them back, got home watched kick boxing, it was friggen horrible, a belgian, with a french accent kick boxing in bangkock for america! its baaad. anyway then i went to alecias and we watched the best comic ever, demitre martin. yeah hes awesome, anyway i have to go....to the couch....yeah....

well, was late for school, nathan failed me. anyway got to biology and it was more of a chemistry class, which is shitty, anyway then i had a free block so me and nate went to go visit my grandpa and we talked a bit, mostly about acting and school. well got back at about 11:30 and chilled out with alecer and yeah, talked to people etc. u know. then i had chemistry and worked that class, then history and that was...fun i guess, fuck i'm bored. went for coffee with my mom, gonna move out of the hosue soon, cuz no one likes morrice, its gonna be like a military opperation, its gotta be set up all discretely and in one day we're gonna ahve it done. anyway harry hates me, but whatever its no big loss, one less moron on my friends list. anyway morrice decided to yell at my sister and call her a stupid idiot and yell at her, why....? no reason, hes such a fag, anyway i dont feel like writing more so yeah i'm out

i woke up and watched some more macgyver, hahaha yeah, i love him. and then me and jar went to the video store and they didnt have fight club in, so we went to bretts and hung out there and played halo 2, and shit. and then i think we got on bretts nerves, cuz he got really irritated and said "All weekend i've had people come over and i havent ever invited them" well brett......you never invite people over. its the way it goes, we just show up. well we left since brett mad isnt fun, its funny, but very awkward. ANYWAY jar came over and farted tonnes, so i punched him in the stomach and leg. and then gave him 5 bucks to fill a zip lock bag and breath it in through his nose. let me tell you, it was worth 5 dollars. anyway we watched fubar and then he installed his stupid "garage to glory" game, its lame. ANYWAY he went home and my mother returned from victoria. so we talked a bit about swimming and my van city trip and then i decided to write this and right now i'm listening to a real nice song, i recomend u dl it, by Remy Zero Fair
go get it now

i love you alecia

woke up and did the whole tv, game cube thing till 4, then i left and walked up robson till i got to granville. hahahah fuck some people are weird and fugly. jesus christ i wish i could kill them. anyway i went into a mac donalds and some fucking crazy crack fiend homless "woman" walk right up to me when i'm listening to music and tapps my with her dirty paw and shes all like "EXCUSE ME!??? CAN U BUY ME SOME COFFEE??" now, imagine that in the most annoying most disgusting toothless voice, old on top of that, voice u've ever heard and tripple it. i got mad and i stood up being taller then her and was like GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME ask someone else u fucking psycho. people snickered, some gasped, and some stared. so i left. and walked down to the sea bus, and saw some black blob walkin down the street and then i saw eyes. hahaha wow that could be classified as racist, but hey guess what? YOU CAN SUCK IT!!! anyway i got onto the seabus listening to Hands Down by good old dash board and i started to think about alecia and how much i wanted to see her and i looked at her picture and the tears just came. what an emo moment. it was weird, it felt as though i ran away from squamish cuz i had my pack full of clothes and a bit of food and i had been wandering for about 2 hours....it felt as if i'd never see her again and it was my fault and it felt really bad. anyway thats depressing. these 3 girls, *cough cough justine timberlake and ashley simpson types cough cough * asked me what was wrong and i told them and they were actually really nice. well londsdale arrived later then i wanted it to, so i walked up to sev and baught some protein bar and orange juice, hahah 1st square meal i had all weekend, jk i had some coke and crackers the day before yeah i didnt feel poor at all with my 7.50....anyway so i chilled out at the presentation house again and listened to some music, like i always do, since music kicks fucking ass. anyway we got our private adjudication, we as in me kevin and brittany, and we got some good and bad feed back, which is what it was for, then came crunch some retarded "play in a day" type thing that brian was in, hes fucking hilarious, but the whole play thing, was pretty fucked up, made no sence at all. dancing and random lines and no plot...yeah the way he described it was perfect "fucked" yup, it suuuure was

then AWARDS!!! YAY!!!! this si what we won
Sarah Fuller: Best supporting actress
Brittney Dake: Best actress (fucking good job brittney, amber would be proud, american beauty for life)
Team: Best team spirit
Team: (my favorite and the biggest) Best Performance!!!!
YEAH THATS RIGHT FUCK YOU MAULGRAVE AND WEST VAN AND YOU OTHER PRIVATE SCHOOL LOOOOOOSERS!!!! RED NECK SQUAMISH PWNED!!!! yeah!!! and apperently brain says it can fit 4 beer in the cup, which is nice...right?
OH it doesnt stop there! we got 2nd in....
Costumes
Music
and me jeevan, brian kevin tied for 2nd for best actor!
and we got 3rd in best director and audience pick WOOOOOOT
you shoulda seen ms carrolls face, she was really happy.
amber would be really happy, and i think we did her ideas justice since we did uber good. fuck look at me, i'm talking about her like shes dead or something. shes nto everyone! its ok!!!!! shes in england or france being cool.
anyway i got a ride home from brian and we talked about work and the play and shit, and it was cool, well i got home and BAM! i had a shower, cuz i smelt like homeless person, and it was fucking sick, the shower of course came after talking to alecia. anyway i went to her hizzouse and then on my way there i got rocks thrown at me, good aim might i add, only 5 feet short. well then we went to kevins and there were tonnes of people on the school field so we chilled at kevins and watched elf, man that shit is funny. hahah, well then i went back to alecias and guess what i got!??!?! YEAH the 1st season of macgyver!!!! HAHAHA WOOOT well then we just chilled out some in her room and yeah


kids suicide isnt funny


i talked to duncan and he said he was bleeding and feeling dizy and he couldnt stop it and his arm was numb and he was drunk. well i almost called the ambulance for him, but he swears that he made it stop and he was ok....i really hope he is....anyway yeah if u read this duncan, dont, and dont scare me like that anymore

anyway then i went to jars and we watched disk one fo my collection, oh yeah....it was good.
and then i zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............​.

well i woke up and watched tv, and chilled out. and when collin came home i watched some more tv and then played game cube and fucking they got drunk, and we played LOTR the 3rd age and i fucked shit up while they yelled at the tv. good times, and i played that till about 2 and then zonked out. thats right, i did SHIT ALL that day, i didnt go outside, i breathed bachalor single guy air for 24 straight hours! and slept on a couch! wooo hooo

well since i'm writing this on sunday, i dont remember much, all i know is me and kevin went and in his f550!!! (MASSIVE BTW) anyway and we were early and so we walked around and went to the quey and i ate some china food and shit and yeah then we went back to the presentation house and did our little tech thing and ran lines and waited and waited and stuff. then back to the quey for fish and chipses and that was dinner. well at 7:30 we stayed nice and quiet and what have you and then it was our turn at 8....OMG it was wicked, it went sooooooooo good, u have no idea, kevin was brilliant and as was sarah, fuck thank god for her! jeez. anyway one little fuck up someone was in the light that wasnt supposed to be there, but no biggie. anyway we were done and there was this little fatty there and all he said was "ok, your creepy" and his fatty little sister ate pure sugar fucking losers. hahah little fatties....poke poke hahahahah heehhehehehe pink pillow ahahaha. anyway yeah so miss Carrol gave me a ride to my moms ex's from high school (yeah wicked van conections eh?) cuz thats where i was staying till saturday. anyway i walked in and we watched some tv and talked and when to bed, miss carrolls car is so fucking wicked i mean its a mini!! and it kicks ass, its the normal one and the speedometer says 240!!! its pro. yeah friday was quite the day....just u wait to read it....

well i woke up, had a shower and went to school for rehersal. what i had planned was to go to vancouver with mrs carroll and stay with my moms ex boyfriend ex druggie collin, very cool guy.....well at about 2:30 someone didnt show up still so we went off in search of kassie. we went to lizzy's and then to her dads and then back and then to schoool and then to katias and then back to school, finally affter searching and searching to no avail we decided to give up and drafted sarah. shes doing wicked. well i talked to the kassinator the after i came home and we're cool i think but others apperently were bugging her and "were treating her like a deer carcase while being a pack of laughing highenas", quite the....expressive analogy eh? anyway the show must go on. so yeah i beat Vice City finally, showed that fucker sonny who was boss, yeah burn on him i own vice city now bitch!!! anyway that the culmination of my day, well xcept an outing to buy 1 litre of OJ and the 2 pizzas mrs carroll ordered and yeah....did alot of hackey sack...and standing around....and I HAVE TIGHT PANTS NOW!!!! (not thaty i like them, alecia does, shes stoked) and yeah......i need to eat i'm fucking hungry, i could probably eat an entire horse right now, cuz my stomach is that empty

i went to school. waste of my time, i didnt even bother taking the stupid work experiance exam, why? cuz i dont care, as long as i grad, i'm happy, plus i slept in cuz i suffered some terrible insomnia. anyway i got to school and drove with jake to jens house where we forged his socials work so he could pass the course, the entire years projects, in 2 hours!!!! on a side note, jake is rather good at driving, better then most people for their 1st week....mabey hes just relaxed and comfortable with me?


OH GOD!!!!! he isnt gay is he!?!?!?
no hes not....BUT HE IS GERMAN!!!!!
now i'm scared
anyway i went and ate with tyler, he lent me "1/2 a rock" wich means 4 dollars ish, wow, learn something new every day, yeah apperently a rock is 7 bucks, a rock of crack that is, not a normal rock, this one is special kids, now dont u waste em, bring em on down to crack for....sopmething clever and give it to your uncle peter.....k i'm done. so we returned and i went to rehersala nd then i raaaaaaan too vally spliff where i procedded to get my hair removed. then i spotted OHHHHH BIG BOI!!!!! so i watched him and his friend ryan fix the "big green lawn gnome" ie jarretts rust bucket piece of shit good for nothing pontiac firebird, and it run!!!! OMFGBBQ it ran, now all jar needs is a trottle cable and a pedle and a new angle bracket and a new rad since his is broke and windshield wipers and thid and tha, he dont work, so t wont be on the road any sooner.... oh well, its a piece.
well then aaron gave me a ride back and rehersal was over, with me being an hour late....but no worries theres a dress tomorrow!!! since we totally need it cuz we're not ready. anyway i got a ride home, and slopped some baking soda on my nose to make it less red since acne is gay....and then i talked on msn and geeked it up, which i havent done in a while....anyway yeah it was cool and i really miss alecia, i wanna hang wich joo cuz its lame not. fuck and i'm going to van tomorrow ARG!!!!!!!! why meeeeeeeeee??????? and i wont be able to write in this till thursday night, which i guess isnt tooo bad...i guess......oh well we chall over come and conquer! adios i shall sleep in a few min
hmmmm adios reminds me of rammstein i should dl some they're really cool, and i hate metal, oh well there is ALWAYS an acception.....like not all retards should be gassed, but thats once in a blue moon, and the moon is never blue....so that means never should they be spared. holy i'm a nazi!

well woke up, on time, WITHOUT nATHAN!!!!!! BREAK OUT THE CHAMPAG-EN!!!! then baught some water wtc and went to go my english 12 government *BUM BUM BAAAAAA* it wasnt hard, its over rated, anyway there was this guy, kim and he decided to fill pot holes with his front end loader right out side the window. well this machine runs at a decible point only reserved for theater sound tests, like the imax....thats it....so i looked at the supervisor mr massey and shook my head and pointed at him and did the fist to plam "i'm gonna mash your face" gesture and pointed at the front end loader. so massey sent me out side and i told him nicely we're writing an exam thanks. and he left. anyway yeah ryan isnt choked like and emo whore at me anymore wich is good. so then me and jamie went to tony's and played foose ball and it made me late for my hair cut. which never happened. but alecia dont rejoice yet, i'm getting one tomorrow, cuz i need it for american beauty. yes....for the play....speaking of it, its on THURSDAY cuz i'm dumb and said wednesday. SMRT!!! anyway then i went to jars and watched hellraiser: Hell seeker. it wasnt bad for how old it was, nto scarey at all tho, and then we threw paintballs at stuff and then ate doughnuts and tea and watched car shows and UFC, very cool, then i went home and wrote in this! i have a fucking exam in work experiance tomorrow, isnt that lame? plus it doesnt help i have 31%. you see the work experiance was....well A WASTE OF TIME! why? i learned shit all and did shit all. yes, i watched tv for 2 months. well i wish i never took the course since it did nothing for me and if i fail i'm going to smash some skulls and raise some hell, mabey i'll bring pin head along for the fun of it. fuck my cat wont shut up, i should feed his hungry ass, TOO BAD ASSHOLE WE DONT HAVE ANYTHING! fuck its late and i think i have cavities, stupid teeth, how did the cave men do it? good nigth

clever title eh? like the future tense of the famour song by flock of seagulls.

anyway woke up about 12 and watched tv and ate jolly ranchers and then i went home at 5ish and watched some tv and ate dinner and thats about it, wow....what a life.

i wish i didnt have to be here. i wanna go some place, i wanna run anywhere from squamish and vancouver, i wanna change of climate, and culture. i'm sick of this town and the rain and the green. i hate green. i hate squamish!!!!! FUCK THIS! i wanna leave. i guess i'm pretty sick of everything including my life, i wonder what would happen if i just dissapeared one day and came back in 10 years, would people forget about me? would squamish change? i need something new and different. i wanna go on a train.....yeah

i'm always forgetting to write in this thing, i always skip a day. oh well. anyway went to alecias after bretts house and a stop off at mine for a shower. and we watched some tv, and i ate some greek salad and some good spaggettiiiii then we watched some more tv, after that i joined "dad" and watched


BIG TROUBLE IN little CHINA!!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHHA it was excellent! yeah even alecia liked it, but its something she wouldnt like if "she watched it byherself" anyway then we watched soime more tv and i dont even emember going to sleep all i know is that i was really fidgity before i fell asleep. anyway yeah i dont remember much cuz i'm not exactly there mentally right now, i just wanna fuck off from squamish i hate this town and almost everyone in it, i hate this day and age too, fuck

well didnt really have to go to school today, kinda waste of time. but the hackey sack was fun. well anyway i have nothing to fear, for i'm not fucked due to my marks and lack of certain classes. like math 12, and physics 11. and 54% in english....ANYWAY school sucks on the most part, its full of retards. well i went to alecias after school with her by way of bus, now, i suggested we walk, but she laughed and said no, well, woo hoo i got stuff thrown at me and i could hear people talking about me, well whatever i dont care. i mean it got me worked up at 1st, but i realised who dumb it was so i relaxed then we watched 1/2 of bad santa, funny shit that movie and then we chilled out. well at school i decided with tony that we'd go to bretts get baked and then try some halo 2 with xbox live. well what a waste of time! i ended up falling asleep and then yeah waking up and doing nothing. weed is just as dumb as i remember it.

well fucking got to school on time again, judos to nathan! my wake up caller. anyway ran lines, decided that it was a waste of time, so we wung it and it happened to be better then the script! well then it was lunch and then i had a free block and talked to tia, yeah, she talks to me. weird. anyway i'm not fucked for marks so thats good. THEN! after school, well i didnt bother going home, i went to the yc to pick something up and then we hung out in the theater (me and alecia) watching Present tense practice. well we left cuz we seen it, and we wandered for a bit, u know....IN THE SCHOOL! anyway! then we yeah, preformed wich went amasing for the amount of practice or lack thereof, had. good job to everyone, apperently the audience saw me moon the other side of the stage, anyway went uber good, then got a ride home from "dad" and i thaught i boke something off his car but it was already on the ground i just kicked it, anyway he threw it back on the ground and i said thanks, more for ghetto ville, which is true sice i live ina shit box house while alecia lives in a castle on the cliff....she has a mellon baller! i mean wtf? if i was rich i'd buy one! anyway i'm so beat, i'm gonna crash soon. vartanis....out