to have my feelings out for them to hear, but to fall on deaf ears is disgusting. when your job takes over your life and your own family takes the back seat.. dont you think it hurts just a little? to have no one to talk to about it because its just another "family matter" fuck you. for me to make the effort but you just stand there and look stupidly at me like it's some kind of joke just shows me that you're even more pathetic then i thought. i dont need someone in my life that takes advantage of what i have to offer. you never showed me and decency or respect that was supposed to be mutual, you just go up and left. you were the strong silent type that never let anyone see you cry, but now i see through that, you're just a bastard, plain and simple. you dont deserve me, you dont deserve me in your life. that's why you packed up and left right? oh wait no, i had to pack up all your shit and put it on your new doorstep. a wrenching feeling comes in the pit of my stomach, like a whirrling hole that gets bigger with the emptiness that is supposed to be filled with you. the awkwardness i feel everytime someone talks about family knowing that mine is just another "statistical failure". fuck you for leaving the ones you loved... in theory anyway. who knew that you could have a family and when you got bored with it you could pack it up in a box, write fragile on it then cross it out and toss it to the curb before the weekly garbage pick up.