she is my love
she is my angel
she is what i dream about
she is what i care mostly about
she has a bunch to teach me
mainly cause im a dork
i dont know a bunch of things
mainly cause im scared
such a successful fashion show
im glad you guys invited me got to support my friends
and see some cute girls but nothing major
all you guys did awesome
shame i dont get to come next year
its pretty sad when my own mom says if your so miserable go and end your life
just cut your wrists kristian
fucking end it cause you are a miserable fuck
ohgod how cani be so blind
you were right
i was your edward cullen
but you threw that all away
watching twilight
the mere film brings back feelings of you
the same ones you tell me to forget
oh god my heart is breaking a million times over....
someone so important to me
you lift me up
you are a dream come true
i hope you feel the same too
colorless life
a new day
another time to talk to her
so much more things to say
motives unclear
cannot explain
how does one make me feel
like i do this day
do i move on
is it supposed to be like this
every single memory
is there something i missed
question this life
question my motives
question how i feel
my hearts is one big explosive....
mess
something new
aside from you
the pain went away
because i met someone today
shes really awesome and thats clear to see
wounds inside start to heal
lets pray to god she can be the one to make me feel
seeing how you make it clear we'll never be
im so confused
what is true
all the lies
about you
they make no sense
im lost inside
casey come help me
lets try and break free
aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
what do i do
she is awesome
im still hurting
am i out of my mind?
all i know is im gonna make things work for casey
so fuck it,....
you dont care
we are friends now
my hearts feels no pain
but will there be a chance
that well be together again
i do not know the future
but nor do i care
all i want to know now
is will you be there
i have stood with you through everything
and now i suffer the consequences
you are the only one that makes my heart sing
but now i must live with indiffrences
ill try and make this work to the best of my ability
will you be by my side
when all this is right?
i do not know
but if you are my heart will not die
i stand and watch you from afar
i wish upon you like a star
you see me not
you come
you go
still, i love you better than you know
but now your mine
im yours to keep
your the reason
i lose sleep
im in your arms
you have kept me
from great harm
i owe you thanks
i give you love
your like my angel
from stars above
i want to be friends
another chance to be civil
without words of hate
comeing from your friends
i want to hang out again
i wish to be there for you
i wish to be the closest of friends
i want to be what you can come to if you have trouble
i want to talk to you
without words of hurt
i want to have conversations
like before when we were more than what we are now
i want to hug you
so you know how much i care
something so comforting
could be good for the both of us
i wish for peace for both our sakes
because im in no mood to raise hell
ill be civil
as long as i can start again
but slower if you will it
im a fool, i have misread everthing
all the time i though i knew
and i fucked it all up
i hope your mom get well from surgery
and i hope your all right
i never meant anything by my blogs
cause you are all i want
you creep into my thoughts and i know i put my self in weird positions
i put myself in my own hearteache
and its more than i can take
i just want a second chance......
you are not what i want to lose
you are what my heart wants to keep
you are not the same
but you are the reason i lost sleep
i thought i had your heart
and youll always have mine
i want so much to happen
so much in little time
i dont know your feelings
or if you even want me back
there can only be so much healing
before my mind loses track
ive gotten better
the pain is alive as it was yesterday
i have 42 poems all of which are the same
im not supposed to show you,
i wish i could share
but mayb guidance thinks that you just wont care.....
im tired of you ugly skanks
always trying to get in my face
want to be alone, im in the zone
get the fuck put of my space
no time to be fair, no time to justified,
cause in no time at all you'll all be crucified
on your sins and the faults that you trip and fall over all the time
you'll never know of all your crimes
this is never over
i wish upon the clover
push me off the ledge now
ill find you again somehow
time for my leave
i had no regrets,the setting was perfect
you were always worht it
and now
your all i ever wanted
