Peace, Pot, Tequila shot, Jesus loves you, stoned or not.
Sex, drugs, rock & roll, Speed, weed, birth control.
Lifes a bitch, then you die, So fuck the world, lets get high.
We are stoners, we have class, Dont fuck with us, we'll kick your ass.
So all you preps who think you're cool, Go to hell, cause stoners rule!
Weed is a seed that grows in the ground, If God didn't want it,
it wouldn't be found. So be happy, smoke some pot,
Jesus loves you, stoned or not

so i say all this shit to you about how i feel and how much i want you back. what a mistake it was breaking up with you. and you say how you have feelings for me too. and yous till love me. but then the next week you ignore me, and dont try to talk to me, and when i ask why you say that you just dont have anything to say to me right now. what the fuck happened to the guy i was talking to last week. im so angry over this and i dont even know why. im getting to be one of those girls that rant on fucking nex about my problems. so pathetic i am coming down to this. but whatevr i need to get it out, and i dont care if anyone reads this, im writing it for myself. not for anyone else. you have made me a miserable person this last month and a half or so. i dont understand why though. whats so special about you? nothing really.. is it just because you were so nice to me? that im not used to that? im used to douche bags that use me and hurt me in every way and leave me when i start getting attached. i cant believe you turned out to be one of them. i really thought that everyone i had introdiced you tpp was wrong. i wouls stick up for you when they would say shit. because i loved you. you can rot in a deep fuckin hole you though you son of a bitch. i dont even understand this my god. your making me such a wreck. all i think about is you. and i dont want that. i wanna get on with my life, meet new guys and like other people. i cant even look at other guys right now because of you. im still too caught up on you.. whats wrong with me. fuck i need help. im asing for help now. i obviously cant do this on my own. everytime i tell myself that im moving on, i start to think about you and it all comes back, but im done with it. ill get the people that really love me to helo me. i can get over a peice of scum like you. blahhh

WITH 2009 COMING TO AN END. . .

2009: In The Beginning
Where did you go on New Years?: kates house with mandy.
Who were you with?: mandy me and kate lmao
Did you kiss anyone on newyears ? noo:(
Did you make any resolutions?: not that i can remember

2009: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?: yes, I have. i do drugs and smoke now
Did you dye your hair? Like, twice each month.
Did you get your hair cut?: yeah but nothing drastic
Did you change your style?: not really
Were you in school?: yuppers
Did you get good grades?: not really
Did you have a job?: yeah
Did you drive?: yup:)
Did anyone close to you give birth?: nooo
Did you move at all?: Yes
Did you go on any vacations?: no no no
Did you leave the country at all?: nah

2009: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone?: yeah
Did you meet anyone special?: yes
Did you fall in love? yeah a few times actually

2009: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? yes!
Did any of your friendships end?: no
Did you dislike anyone?: no
Did you make any new enemies? no
Did you resolve any fights?: no
Who were your closest friends?: jordan, alysha
Did you grow apart from anyone?: yeah many
Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: no

In 2009 I...
[x] broke a promise
[x]fallen out of love
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[] kissed in the rain
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[] forgot your new years resolution
[] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[] left the country
[] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] was never home on weekends
[] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x] had someone close to you die
[x] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend
[] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[x] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[] stayed single for the whole year
[] kissed in the snow
[x] celebrated Halloween/Samhain
[x] broke someone else's heart
[x] had a stalker
[] mooned someone
[] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[] came out of the closet
[] had an abortion
[x] done something you've regretted
[] kissed under mistletoe
[] painted a picture
[] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[] shopped at Hollister
[] posted a blog on MySpace
[] listened to music you couldn't stand
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] laughed till you cried
[] laughed till you peed in your pants
[] visited a foreign country
[] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you weren't
[x] partied to celebrate the new year

1. Have you had any relationships this year? yes
2. Have you had your birthday yet? in july
3. Kissed two or more people in the same night? haha yep
4. Been on a diet? not really... just watched what i ate
5. Pulled an all nighter? ive tried like three times
6. Drank Starbucks? yeah but its nasty
8. Bought something(s)? thats a no brainer
9. Met someone special who changed your life? lots
10. Been out of the province? yea

intimate details on '09..

What are you thinking about?
wayne and whats going to happen with us

Would you get married if you could right now?
No.

How did you feel when you woke up today?
i was in a bad mood

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Nope

Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
noo

If you could change your eye color would you?
no i love my eyes

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
wayne

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
yeahhh

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
long

Are you over the age of 25?
nah

Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?
no

How do you currently make your money?
my job

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
course

Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
ashia i think lol

Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours?
noo

How many texts are in your inbox?
as many as it can hold

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
yeaaa

Who was your last text message from ?
wayne

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
my daddy

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
today

Who took your profile picture?
me

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
cry over the truth

What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
uhhh have no idea

Do you trust people too easily?
yeah way too easy

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
kinda

Have you ever cut class?
all the time

Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you?
yeahh 21 is the oldest

If you had a baby with the last person you texted, what would the baby' s last name be?
abot... lmao

Last thing you ate?
spegetti

How many people are you texting?
no one. im on the phone

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
no its only 9

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
fresca

Could you ever forgive a cheater?
yes, but not get back with them

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
not anymore

Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
yuppers

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
not today

Do you make every decision as if your parents are watching?
no not really. only when they are actually lol

Have you ever gotten the butterflies?
lots and lots of times

Do you like to run?
not really.

Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
yeah. i really

Do you put candy canes on your Christmas tree?
love to, but not this year, we didnt even deorate the tree this year

Do you get snow where you live?
yeah theres snow on the ground now

Do you believe in love?
i do

This year have you ever been heartbroken?
yeahhh:(

do you think 2010 will be better?
well i believe that if i think positive, then good things will happen. and so im trying to think positive. the future holds tons and tons

hair:
[ ] Extensions
[x] Dyed at least once
[x] Dyed it more then 5 times
[x] Use hairspray, hair gel etc.
[x] Change hairstyle regularly
[x] Have layers, hair feathered etc.
[x] Straighten your hair
[x] Curl your hair
[x] Blow dry your hair
[] Lots of clips, hair bands etc.

So far = 8

Face:

[ ] Foundation DARKER than your natural skin tone
[x] Foundation which matches your skin tone
[x] Mascara
[x] Eyeliner (including liquid eyeliner)
[x] Blusher
[x] Bronzer
[x] Lip gloss, lip stick etc
[ } Fake eyelashes
[] Eyelash curlers
[x] About a million makeup bags and brushes

So far = 15

Body

[x] A piercing
[x] More then one piercing
[] Fake tan
[x] Have/had fake nails
[] Eyebrows waxed/threaded
[] Have used a sun bed
[] Have had a pedicure
[] Have had a manicure
[x] Legs waxed/shaved
[] Tattoos

So far = 19

Others

[] Worn/wear coloured contacts
[x] Worn/wear contact lenses
[x] Own fake designer stuff
[] Follow the latest trends
[] Look orange regularly
[] Pretend your fake stuff is real
[x] Wear a lot of perfume
[] Wear flesh coloured tights so your legs look darker
[] Wear a more then 5 pieces of jewellery at a time (1 pair of earrings=1 piece)
[] Most of your clothes have fake diamantes on them

So far=22

Have you :

[x] Considered a boob job
[] Considered/had lipo suction
[] Wanted your lips to be fuller
[] Considered/had botox
[x] Considered/went on a diet
[x] Gone to the gym
[] Had your teeth bleached /whitened professionally
[] Bleached/whitened your teeth at home
[] Had work done on your teeth so they are perfect
[] Had any plastic surgery

Total =25

Now multiply your answer by 2

and repost this note as I am (50)%fake

i dont know how to say anything to him. he makes me so angry...
all he ever does is talk about justin. all he ever does is say how proud he is over his accomplishments. i have done some pretty good things to you know. i get better grades then him and everything. i have been able to keep a steady job for two years for christ sakes. all he talkes about is him. does he not get how it makes me feel. and there he goes again, talking about it AGAIN. fuck i feel so under appriciated. i always come to his house when hes home. justin picks and chooses yet dad still likes him more... wtf. tahts pathetic. all i ever do it talk to him on the phone or text him or something. i try so hard to become close to him but he doesnt even notice. he drops everything when justin comes around. i hate being here this is retarded. i wanna be home so i can be with my friends. i wanna get fucked out of my mind just to smite him. ill get back to the max and maybe get pregnant and see if he notices me then. i think thats a pretty fucking good idea dont you? fuck my father omg

as it my fault this whole thing went down? losing the guy i really thought i cared about. i got dumped, i never get dumped. it so sad. and i dontknow how i feel about things now. i dont know if i want to be single for a while or jump into a relationship, i feel like a bitch. i think i had this coming though. i was pushing him away. u knew this would eventualy happen. i just thought i would be the one youdidnt mind. the one that got over it fast and moved one. i was the one that would be thedumper, not the dumpee....

i hate how i get so damnjealous. hes not even mine and im like all upset. i really shouldnt be either. this sucks:(

Sex
Have you ever made out with the opposite sex?: Of course.
The same sex?: no
Someone you weren't in a relationship with?: Yeah.
Have you done anything that qualifies as 'almost sex'?: A lot of things.
Have you lost your virginity?: Obviously.
To both genders?: No.
Had sex in a public place?: Yes.
Have you cheated on someone?: Yes
Been cheated on?: Not that i know of
Looked at/bought/DL'd/watched porn? : Yup
Do you take birth control/carry condoms around?: Birth Control.

Drugs
Have you smoked cigarettes more than once?: Yea i do
Used weed or other natural substances, like shrooms or salvia?: Weed yeah
Used hard drugs? (Idiot.): Not really
Used needle drugs or inhalants? (Bigger idiot.): Nope.
Used prescription pills to get high?: No.
Bought drugs?: Yes.
Sold drugs?: No.
Introduced someone else to their first drug?: A few people
Overdosed?: No.
Been in rehab or in trouble with the law for drugs?: Nope.

And...Rock N' Roll
Do you listen to hard rock, metal, punk, grunge or hardcore gangster rap?: not so much
Have you been to a real rock/metal/punk concert?: Nope. =(
Have you moshed, headbanged, or slam-danced, or do you often?: no
Are you or have you been in a rock/metal/punk band?: no
Have you had complaints from neighbours for loud music?: Yeah for sure
Do you rave, or have you been to one?: no
Does your music typically contain screaming or lots of profanity?: profanity def
Does your music typically talk about anarchy, crime, suicide or drugs?: Yeah, most. and sex:P

Smashed
Have you drank hard alcohol?: Yes.
Do you drink often?: not all the time.
Have you taken shots?: Yes.
Have you thrown up from drinking?: no.
Have you passed out?: no
Have you played drinking games?: Sure have.
Was your first real drink before the age of 15?: Yeah like 12 or something
Have you woken up not remembering the night before?: there were parts that iwould forget about from the day before or thought i just dreamt it.
Have you done anything sexual while drunk that you wouldn't have sober?: LOL yup.
Have you ever paid a stranger to buy you booze?: nah

Five-Finger Discounts & Mailbox Baseball
Have you shoplifted?: no
Have you gone joyriding or broken into someone's house?: No
Used a fake ID?: no
Have you done real graffiti (other than bathroom stall notes)?: no
Any other kind of vandalism, like mailbox baseball or breaking a window?: no
Been naked or drunk (or both at once) in public?: yes
Are you/have you been in a street gang?:no
Packed a weapon?: no
Caused a fire, car accident, or other dangerous situation?: no
Ever been arrested?:no

A Disruption to Other Students
Have you failed a class?: nope
Been suspended?: no
Been expelled?: nope
Cut class?: yea
Cussed out a teacher, humiliated/pranked them, or vandalised their stuff?: yes
Stolen from someone's locker, or put something nasty in it?: no
Held or participated in a protest at school?: no
Got into a fight at school?: no
Done drugs at school?: many times.
Deliberately offended or humiliated the principal?: no

She's Got A Septum Ring and Green Liberty Spikes
Have you gotten piercings in places other than the ears?: will be soon
Have you dyed your hair unnatural or unusual colours?: many times.
Have you gotten any tattoos?: no
Have you ever had a mohawk, dreads, liberty spikes, or other odd hairdos?: no
Have you ever cut your own hair or shaved your head?: yes
Do you wear dark or unusual makeup? (or any makeup, if you're male): yeah
Do you wear any unusual accessories (like bunny ears, fangs, armwarmers)?: no
Do you ever dress slutty, gothy, punk, raver, gangsta, artsy, hippie, etc.?: no
Do you usually sag your pants, wear chains or spikes, or wear all black?: no
Do you like to make or modify your own clothing?:not really
Do you break the school dress code often?: i don't think there is a dress code..

Shit Happens
Have you ever been in juvy or prison?: no
Have you been the victim of a violent crime?: no
Have you committed a violent crime?: no
Have you ever almost died?: no
Do you have any mental illnesses?: nope.
Is your family a dysfunctional mess?: not really
Have you attempted suicide?: thought about attempting
Have you ever self-mutilated or had an eating disorder?: nope
Have you ever had a substance habit?: smoking cigs

We're Very Disappointed In You, Son
Ever snuck out of the house or snuck someone in?: yea
Ever had a party while your parents were out?: kinda
Ever steal from your parents?: yea
Ever crash your parents' car?: no
Run away?: no
Been grounded for a month or more?: like four years ago..
Been caught by your parents in the act of doing something illegal?: nope
Been caught by your parents while doing anything intimate with someone?: almost
Had a parent say you couldn't hang out with a certain person?: LOL yup.
Had a parent toss (search) your room/backpack/car?: nope

Amateur Jackass
Ever skinnydipped?: no
Set something large on fire?: no...
Stapled yourself?: wtf??
Jumped into water with all your clothes on?: yeah
Played a well-planned, huge, public practical joke on someone?: yup
Ridden or raced in shopping carts?: yeah
Streaked? no
Danced on a table Coyote Ugly style?: no lol
Stayed up for two or more nights in a row on purpose?: not that i recall
Set off illegal fireworks?: nahh
Made mass amounts of prank calls at once?: thats a waste of time lol

$8.00 Had sex
$20.00 Went past first base
$10.00 Only went to first base
$1.00 Smoked
$7.00 Got drunk
$100.00 Went skinny dipping
$6.00 Kissed someone of the opposite sex
$8.00 Had more than one bf/gf at the same time
$50.00 Cheated
$75.00 Fell asleep in class
$1.50 Cheated on a quiz
$50.00 Been expelled
$100.00 Been suspended
$75.00 Been in a fist fight
$2.00 Yelled at a teacher
$6.00 Done oral
$8.00 Got oral
$8.00 Prank called the cops
$4.00 Stole something
$100.00 Done drugs
$10.00 Dyed your hair
$15.00 Done something with someone older
$4.00 Went out with someone over 18 if your under 18
$10.00 Ate a whole thing of oreos
$0.01 Cried yourself to sleep
$50.00 Said you love someone but didnt mean it
$0.50 Been in love
$3.00 Got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing
$10.00 Went streaking
$7.00 Got arrested
$3.00 Made out with someone at the movies
$2.00 Peed in the pool
$0.75 Played spin the bottle
$10.00 Done something you regret

hair:
[ ] Extensions
[x] Dyed at least once
[x] Dyed it more then 5 times
[x] Use hairspray, hair gel etc.
[x] Change hairstyle regularly
[x] Have layers, hair feathered etc.
[x] Straighten your hair
[x] Curl your hair
[ ] Blow dry your hair
[ ] Lots of clips, hair bands etc.

So far = 7

Face:

[ ] Foundation DARKER than your natural skin tone
[x] Foundation which matches your skin tone
[x] Mascara
[x] Eyeliner (including liquid eyeliner)
[ ] Blusher
[x] Bronzer
[x] Lip gloss, lip stick etc
[ } Fake eyelashes
[ ] Eyelash curlers
[ ] About a million makeup bags and brushes

So far = 12

Body

[x ] A piercing
[x] More then one piercing
[ ] Fake tan
[x] Have/had fake nails
[] Eyebrows waxed/threaded
[ ] Have used a sun bed
[x] Have had a pedicure
[x] Have had a manicure
[x] Legs waxed/shaved
[ ] Tattoos

So far = 18

Others

[ ] Worn/wear coloured contacts
[x] Worn/wear contact lenses
[x] Own fake designer stuff
[x] Follow the latest trends
[ ] Look orange regularly
[ ] Pretend your fake stuff is real
[ ] Wear a lot of perfume
[ ] Wear flesh coloured tights so your legs look darker
[ ] Wear a more then 5 pieces of jewellery at a time (1 pair of earrings=1 piece)
[x] Most of your clothes have fake diamantes on them

So far=22

Have you :

[x] Considered a boob job
[] Considered/had lipo suction
[ ] Wanted your lips to be fuller
[ ] Considered/had botox
[x] Considered/went on a diet
[x] Gone to the gym
[ ] Had your teeth bleached /whitened professionally
[] Bleached/whitened your teeth at home
[ ] Had work done on your teeth so they are perfect
[ ] Had any plastic surgery

Total =25

Now multiply your answer by 2

and repost this note as I am (50)% fake

idk what i can do. i dont want to be lied to. i have had to deal with those kinda guys that just use me. and i dont want you to be another one, realy. i dont even think i could take it. but how can i trust you when you lied to me, and i know about all the lying you have done to past gf? its a little hard to trus you. and i hate that i am saying that. i thought it would be different with me. but maybe its not? i dont know though. i really hoped you were different. i want to be abble to trust you. i dont wanna have to loose the amazing friendship we had if this ends badly. but im hearing so many different things from different people. some say i should end it, some say i should stya with you. the only thing i am really truely worried about is the whole kat thing and what happens if you hurt me like you have done to other girls. im not very strong, i get attatched way fast and i dont think i could take a blow like that... we need to talk tho and figure al this shit out. in person. i dont wanna fight on the phone. but im also a lil worried that if were in person ill just turn to mush and not say what i really want to. im kinda torn...

50 SECRETS
Be honest no matter what!

[ZERO] Your ex texted you and wanted you back, would you take them back?
ashia- hellz no
bryce- fuck no, especially if it ended on a bad note
[ONE] Has anyone told you "Forever and ever" then left?
ashia- yes
bryce-no

[TWO] Your relationship status?
ashia-single!
bryce-single

[THREE] Where did you meet your crush(s)?
ashia-theres lots... prob at school though
bryce-mainly at school

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
ashia-no, but i have drifted away from them a lil
bryce- sadly yea. too many in the last few years

[FIVE] Do you smoke weed regularly?
ashia- not regularly
bryce-not much more then ashia

[SIX] Think back to the begginning of 2009, are you still dating the same person?
ashia- no
bryce-nnope

[SEVEN] Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
ashia-depends who but usually no
bryce-no way

[EIGHT] When was the last time you really laughed?
ashia-few minutes ago..at bryce
bryce- a few minutes ago.. at ashia:P

[NINE] Something's wrong first guy you turn too?
ashia- no comment
bryce- prob taylor would be the first GUY

[TEN] First girl you'd go too?
ashia- ashley and bryce
bryce- ashia and nidine

[ELEVEN] Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you did?
ashia-i think there is more people who hate be because of things they heard, not what i actually did
bryce- i think theres always going to be a few people who hate me, but they are intitled to there opinion.. (ashia agrees:P)

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
ashia-more disappointed then anything. but a little anger is def there
bryce- yea, but its not hatered, just annoyance i think

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
ashia- i have crushes and stuff but strong enough feelings to actually go aftr them
bryce-because its complicated...

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried really hard?
ashia-last night
bryce- its been a while...

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
ashia- my mom and brother. and a few select friends
bryce- id do anythign for anyone, if they truely needed me too.

[SIXTEEN] ...?

SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 mins on the phone?
ashia-braydel
bryce- taylor

[EIGHTEEN] What is your favorite song?
ashia-i dont have a fav. theres so many i like
bryce- dido

[NINETEEN] Do you like Red Bull?
ashia-mehh... id perfer a cooler:P
bryce-its not my first choice for energy drinks
[TWENTY] How many people can you tell just about everything to?
ashia-two
bryce-a good handful or more. im very outspoken

[TWENTY-ONE] Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
ashia-yea all the time
bryce- never seen one...

[TWENTY-TWO] Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
ashia-not really..
bryce-yea im pretty sure he does

[TWENTY-FOUR] Describe yourself in one word?
ashia- understandable
bryce- admirable

[TWENTY-FIVE] Do you have anything that belongs to your ex?
ashia-yea i have a few items... hes too pussy to come get them
bryce-nope:)

[TWENTY SIX] Can you honestly say you've had a sleepover with the opposite gender?
ashia-yea
bryce- many times:D

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Do you stil have feelings for an ex?
ashia- no i dont think so
bryce-not really no

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Ever cheated on someone?
ashia- yea...
bryce- " "

[TWENTY-NINE] What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?
ashia-id be a little sad obviously. there life though
bryce- id be a little upset, but id move on

[THIRTY] Do you act differently around the person you like?
ashia-well i thik everyone does a little
bryce- apparently i do..

[THIRTY-ONE] Honestly, who's numbers do you have memorized?
ashia- not really anyones... heard of speeddial?:P
bryce- mandys, danielles, mom, bill, parker, my aunt, think thats it

[THIRTY-TWO] Is it hard to make you laugh?
ashia- not at all
bryce- everyone can make me laugh lmao

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you mad?
ashia- tyler
bryce- taylor

[THIRTY-FOUR] Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
ashia-i really dont care anymore;doesnt matter to me
bryce- i hope not...

[THIRTY-FIVE] Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
ashia- yup
bryce- last weekend:D:D

[THIRTY-SIX] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
ashia- yea but i cant remember who
bryce- not that i know of... just wait. ashia did:P

[THIRTY-SEVEN] Would you like to put a night on repeat, and live it forever?
ashia and bryce- there are those perfect nights that you would love to just go on forever, but it would get old, fast, and it wouldnt open up new doors for me. wouldnt let me make mistakes on my own. you would never know what the end result could be. there would be no sense of adventure, and a variety is a neciesity in life.

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
ashia-yea bryce and ashley:D
bryce- ashia for sure, and a few others that no me almost as well as her

[THIRTY-NINE] Is your best friend a slut?
ashia- at times... lol well most of the time
bryce- she can be

[FORTY] Is hard drugs a turn off?
bryce- yea it can be
ashia-yea def

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with life right now?
ashia- im preety content with it. it could be better of course
bryce- i am content

[FORTY-THREE] Are you still in love with your ex?
ashia- theres a spark there, but nothing would ever happen
bryce- no not at all

[FORTY-FOUR] Have you ever been the "other person" in a relationship?
we think that the question is asking if i have ever been the girl with the other chicks bf.
ashia- yes
bryce- yea i have been :o

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?
ashia- yea
bryce- i dont think so. i thought i did at times, but when i think back, i relaize it wasnt as bad as i thought.

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
ashia- i hope not
bryce- i dont think i have

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?
ashia- yup
bryce- theres a few. theres alwyas that feeling with someone

[FORTY-EIGHT] Where is your best friend?
ashia- on my right
bryce- on my left

[FORTY-NINE] Something your happy about?
ashia- starting a new life and going to medicine hat
bryce- im happy about meeting ashia and being able to start a life with her in it. going to rss with her will make the transition so much easier. and i truely dont know what i would be able to do without her at this time in my life. were closer then anyone i have ever really been friends with i think..

[FIFTY] How is your heart lately?
ashia- no fucking idea atm lol
bryce- well its still beatin isnt it?

"what do i do when my mind is so mixed up. my thoughts are becoming combined, turning into one giant mess. i decided what i want but im not sure if i made that choice on a whim or if it really what i wanted. maybe it was just a sporatic decision on my part. i dont know anymore... and another thing. when can you really say your happy? when you won the lottery or you just got married? well i dont think even then you can say those two words... i'm happy... there is always something ready to fuck up your life as soon as you think your living on a good note. why would a place that is supposed to be so great do that? it just blows my mind. it doesnt make any sense to me. i have tried to look at it from different angles but i can never truely understand. maybe its just me. maybe im just pulling all this from my ass and it doesnt make any sense to anyone but me. perhaps im just weirdly emotional tonight and needed to say a few words. im not really sure."