And all the girlie's say, "Gah Daammm!"
25 now (woo-hoo). Finally got that spiritual awakening called, "growing up", finally chose a career path, finally got over the ex, and finally got over what's been bugging me all my life. So, I'm right on track (kinda, I DO live at my mom's, my car's STILL in the mechanic's). 25 was my time to shine, but shit hit the fan hard, and to be honest, it made my appreciate life, MY life, and the lives of the people around me. I'm no longer afraid to call myself a father, matter of fact, I feel pretty good about it. I discovered the dangers of drugs and alcohol, and had some great jobs, got some great experience, and made some great friends, and rediscovered old ones. I realized my family are my best friends, so there'll be no more questing for popularity, I got a crew. I'm in the calm after the storm, and thankful to be alive. A new love interest might be asking alot, but when I look at the other guys the girls are getting, I should be a catch. Free Love


THIS IS MY FIRST SONG I PUT UP, DO YOU LIKE IT?
Take Me As I Am, by Brian Simmons

I'm 10 minutes late, my car wouldn't start
She acts like I showed up in a shopping cart
My clothes don't match, my hairs not right,
Everything's another fight.
Your friends and I don't get along,
and I've never heard that song.

Im just being all I can be,
And if you don't like what you see

I tried so hard to make you proud
And all you do is put me down
I like my friends, I like myself,
Take me as I am
Or take it somewhere else

My parents say hang up your dreams
They couldn't see, they wouldn't believe
And if I don't do as they say,
Then I fail in every way

But I gotta take my own road
And your right, I don't know where it goes
And maybe I should just go with the flow
Or maybe I should tell you where to go....

I tried so hard to make you proud
And all you do is put me down
I like my friends, I like myself,
Take me as I am
Or take it somewhere else

When your alone on a dark cold night
All you need is a little light...

I met a girl, i think she's steeped
She has big bright eyes and shiny straight teeth
She never does wrong but she's always bad
And she loves making my folks mad
When we go out she's a movie star
she looks so wrong in my car

I've never felt so good in my life
And im the only guy she likes...

I dont have to try, to make her proud
And I don't want to be part of your crowd
I love my friends, and I love myself
Take me as I am
OR TAKE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE!
or take it somewhere else
or take it somewhere else
It's better over here
So just go somewhere else!
Birds by Brian C Simmons
I watch the birds
They come by for the seeds
My Dad used to do it,
Now I deliver the the feed.
When the sun comes up
They fly in round first light
Come around all day
And leave at night.
It looks quite different
when they aren't there
Without the life and colors
The yard looks so bare.
If my Dad had never
gone out and put the seeds there
I wouldn't know the treasures
That nature could bear.
I've stopped writing. It's a shame. I am very good at reading, and writing. Starting to get back into it though.
OK, some new stuff, nov 26, 2006
"ROBIN"
What do you do when you lose your soulmate?
And the scars on your heart hurt when you move
and you don't wanna try again
if you don't play you don't lose
so the doors are closed and you hide
inside yourself
And you start to cry as you realise
your in love again and need some help

Cant you see how I feel by the look in my eyes
do you notice how bubbly I get when you arrive
And that smile I get when I'm daydreaming
I hope you noticed,
Cause I can't say a thing
"Untitled" or "AvAA"
Good morning beautiful,
thanks for the ride.
Why do I feel, so hollow inside?
It seems like all the wild oats, have been sown
And what do I got to show?

I dont think I've ever, felt at home
how can i have lovers and feel so alone

I want to feel my heart miss a beat every now and then
So don't even touch unless your prepared to be, my best friend
I'll try and I might fail, but I wont give in
Cause i just wanna fall in love again

There's nothing quite like thoughts you dont' have to say
Cause i can see in your eyes you feel the same way
I dont think we ever once, had sex
but we sure made alot of love, and it was, so intence
so please take a minute and pick up a pen
and tell me in a letter, why you left

I want to feel my heart miss a beat every now and then
So don't even touch unless your prepared to be, my best friend
I'll try and I might fail, but I wont give in
Cause i just wanna fall in love again

"Countrified"

Well I just moved back in with the folks
and I felt like my world was gonna end
an hour drive to the nearest city
and long distance, to ring a friend
I didnt think that I'd survive, but to my surprise...,

I got Countri-fied! Countrified!
I traded in my loafers for some ropers and got some new boots,
My best friends a calf and i think she's mighty cute
I never felt so alive....
I've been countrified.

Well, thats it for now. Maybe someday I'll do something with it, I dunno[http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d173/hotsh​lt213/angermgmttour1.jpg]

Johanne Pachelbel's Canon in D. Some chick told me she'd want that as her processional(?) song. You know, when a person gets married? Anyways, i thought that sounded cool, so I'm gonna do it too. Hope you remember that Tracy.

Where art thou, by Brian C Simmons

my love, Where art thou?
I feel you, but I don't see you
You call to my heart, but I never hear you.
I search, but cannot find you.
my love, Where art thou?

my friend, Where art thou?
I am alone, but you are with me
If only in memory. Who will i laugh with?
Please come back; and share my burden.
my friend, Where art thou?

my heart and soul, Where art thou?
Why do i no longer feel
the joys of yesterday?
The pain has numbed, and i no longer
see a future for me.
my spirit, Where art thou?

No drug can numb, this weary traveller
I grow alone, a winter flower.
Where art thou?

Can you believe, that this dopey, loopy guy, actually got a poem published? It's a burden...
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Use the letters to make your name, and substitute it with Japanese sounds to find a crude Nipponese name.
A- ka
B- zu
C- mi
D- te
E- ku
F- lu
G- ji
H- ri
I- ki
J- zu
K- me
L- ta
M- rin
N- to
O- mo
P- no
Q- ke
R- shi
S- ari
T- chi
U- do
V- ru
W- mei
X- na
Y- ful
Z- zi
Dont tell me you love me unless you mean it.

I Love my daughter Violet
GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS!!!!! I'm looking for The One, but till I find her...
Being a boy/ guy/ man
Meeting new people
Lookin and feelin good
Swords
Martial Arts
Anime/ Manga
Video Games
Bein Outside
Hooking up!




MY THOUGHTS ON DOING GOOD:
There are people out there, well, there are 3 types of people. Regulars, Bad, and Good. There always have been these 3 and always will be. Regulars go through life, never helping, never hurting, never being famous, just existing. The Bad, no matter where they go, they think of their own ends, and do not care for who is hurt to acheive them. The Good, Cannot in good conscience leave somebody who needs help, and will always put others before themselves. The Bad prey on all,and conflict continually with the Good, the Good help all, and endlessly clash with the Bad, and the Regulars are always between or involved in some way. If there were no Good, the Bad would have run of the place, and that would be no good. The world, down to your town and city, would be dark and crummy, and nobody would be safe, and even the Regulrs would turn Bad just to get along. So, the Good are always working against the Bad, in order to keep the balance. And the Good have to be just as strong as the Bad, they must stay up as late, risk their lives, all in order to keep order. The Bad will not give up, or go away, or die, they will live forever. That is why, in this forever struggle, we need Good people, always sacraficing whatever is nessecary, always meeting the Bad on their own Level. Things may be bleak, my friends, but everything you consider Good, you must fight for, or else the bad will steal and destroy it. Everytime the Bad win, something is stolen, and lost forever. And if you are not Good or Bad, you are a Regular, and they are bland, and gain nothing. Even if the victory is on in your head, as long as you know you won a small battle, it is a win. Fear not the fight, because to live as a Regular, will not preserve what we all hold dear.
MY THOUGHTS ON GROWING UP:
Someday, we see, that we are not children anymore, more is expected of us. We want different things, our old games no longer entertain us. We laugh only 1/10 as much, we put on masks for the world to see. But once I thought, If I were to stay young forever, would I be content? I think not. There are things in life that only come with age, like respect, status, wisdom. And sometimes I miss the excuse of being young, and sometimes I miss the gaeities that I could enjoy before. But, somewhere along the line, some higher power or intelligence said, Well, people must age, people must die. Lets see whet they get with this one chance. And all we get is one chance. So my lesson learned is, do as much as possible in the least possible time. If you want it, get it, because, you may never be able to get it again, whether it is trying to be a model, or working up the nerve to kiss that special somebody. Because if you do not, you will regret it. When you be a coward, it will stay with you. Fight! Be proud! Give yourself happy memories, not regrets, because when we end this life, what would you rather have? Regrets, or, Fond memories? Take advantage of every moment, because you only have that moment once. And do not forget, be brave when faced with things that you will be shameful of. Shame is a cloud always over you. Pride is sunshine. And be careful of others feelings, and to do this, always speak the truth. Trust me, it helps immensley.

You know who you are. Watch your back...
People who steal
Stuck up girls
rude people
Feelings. I wish I was made of stone, but I am not. Yin and Yang. I felt great, now I feel shitty. Karma is a bitch.
Being alone.
BAD SEX. Ok, a few ground rules. Be Clean. No Fish (smell and facial expression). I ain't the skipper, and your not the catch of the day. Get Involved. FUCK ME!!! LOL.




well, here are my thoughts on it.
I cant do this anymore, I cant take losing someone I love again. It's rare, but sometimes, I meet someone that changes my life. And I don't want them to go. And when I feel like that, I dont cheat, and I think about them all the time. Now, im here again, and if i lose her, how could I believe in love ever again? Sometimes a man needs to be comforted, and made to feel safe and secure. And maybe I do take things seriously, because I know each time may be my last chance. So, I want something that lasts.