marthas wedding is nov 6 2010
you were my confidence and my only consequence now is how I'll never forget this.
you were my confidence and my only consequence now is how you were worth every minute.
as we tried to say goodbye there wasn't a dry eye in the room, but then again it was just me and you.
Jimmy says:
so you discredit yourself a lot and then try to bring up. when i say i'm nerdcore, that you're more nerdy
you have a hard time saying that people care about you don't you
like
you assume a lot that people don't like you or really don't care about you easily
don't you
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
somewhat to all three
and the more nerdy bit was just because i liked mega64
Jimmy says:
ohh
well like you said you were dumb th eother day when we hung out
but you are totally not
far from it
in my opinion
and like you have this joking tone but it's coming from somewhere and i can tell !
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
hahahaha, well i am joking most of the time, in a lot of ways
but maybe you're right about underlying things
Jimmy says:
it's just
i know that i've had troulbe sometimes accepting that people actually care about me etc etc
so i can see where you're coming from
and you say you're not social but you really don't like attention that much sometimes i think
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
i dont like attention
Jimmy says:
yah exactly
it makes you really uncomfortable
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
yep.
Jimmy says:
and other than sarah (i think)
your friends change a lot
and basically you're used to only having yourself most of hte itme
!
time*
and it's not usually a fallout that happens between all these people and you
there's no real argumnt or something that really set it off i think
but you end up finding really hard to relate to a lot of people
AND ONE Thing i know for sure is that you often hate it when, at real social gatherings, the whole idea of nkowing people only on a real shallow level bugs you a lot
and how everyone at a real social gathering resorts to almost being a politician
i.e. you hate insincerity / dishonesty
because even if a lot of people aren't actually lying
in a sociail gathering i mean
the way they're acting cool twoards everyone and falsely interested in peoples lives is really dishonest
the way they act is dishonest, not what they ncessarily say
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
it's disgusting how accurate you are even hardly knowing me
Jimmy says:
hahahaha
Victoria. - Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. says:
hahahaha, it just scares me a bit
but i think you're kind of right
Jimmy says:
well no this sounds dumb i just see a lot of things that are similar between you and me
and i notice a lot of little things
thatacutally mean things that are way bigger
babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
got the jetta
got syd and bo
got rodney and sarah vists
got some killer plans with nicc
all i need.. is a breath
FUCK IT CAME TOGETHER
I've made an appointment this thursday to cut all my hair off
I've been bitching about it all summer long, and i know I'm going to hate myself for throwing like 3 years of hair away
but it's time
to stop the bitching
and MAN THE FUCK UP
bye bye bye
i still have to run out to the bank, find time to buy a solar shower, and go to work, to then pick up taelor to pull myhorses mane (thank you god someone will do it for me!) to come home, have dinner, do laundry, wait i forgot to eat lunch, oh well
