Kailyn, I just read your e-mail and I almost cried too... Kailyn I want you to know you are loved and always will be. You'll never be alone... ever. I am only a phone call away. And if you need me I swear I'd be with you. I will always be with you. You have not only changed me but make me feel so good and make me want to keep changing. How is it that you tell me exactly what I need to hear? I don't feel distant from you... our love seems to just keep growing because the fact that we can't see eachother everyday... makes me want to love you more and more. Brenna is your bestfriend, Megan is mine, but I have ALWAYS felt something different with you. It doesn't have a name I don't know what to call it. I can open myself to you, and I want to keep opening myself up to you and pour my heart out. Sometimes it may not always seem but I get sad, very sad, but you make me feel so alive and the only reason I can be as kind as I am today is from the love I get from those around me... people like you. I trust you K.Setiz, I trust you with everything I do, I say... and even if something happens, who knows what, that maybe you feel wrong for, I will forgive you without question, I will love you unconditionaly, and besides... it's easier to doubt then to trust... so I choose to trust. I hope you feel the same. But I almost feel like I don't even have to ask, "Don't tell anyone, k?" or "This is our little secret" because I know you, and I know what goes and is said between us stays with us, they are our memories. It's hard to say everything I think and feel for you but I'll try my best. ... Trying my best... trying our best... let's do our best okay? Sometimes it feels like it's impossible to stand on your own, I've felt that, and if you ever do, come to me and no you may not lean on me, but I'll pick you up (literally) right into the sky. I beleive in you everyday. I want to smile for you... with you. I want to live my life for what I have and not think about the things I don't, for the positives not the negatives, because I am gratful, I am so gratful for what I have. I want to give and give and I don't want to say "I hate him/her" or "I don't like him/her", because every person has at least one wonderful quality, (your's go on for pages)... sometimes it's hard to see your own good qualities and that's the reason people get jealous of others... because it's easier to see the beautiful qualities in someone else. But love yourself Kailyn, love yourself so much, because when I look at you... talk to you, I don't know what's not to love. It's hard to say why I'm here... why I'm on earth, but if someone asked, I could honestly say,

"for Kailyn Seitz."