speaking to you stirred up so many old emotions, you're so amazing and beautiful, so many things I want to say, but I can't seem to say anything, it's not fair.
To fall asleep with you would be heaven.
Your smile makes all the evil go away.
To fall asleep with you would be heaven.
Your smile makes all the evil go away.
This movie is based on true events, a woman puts up an add for wanting to be killed, and somebody responds, they basically fall in love, but she wants him to kill her so bad, this movie is the ultimate mind fuck.
I really want to talk to somebody, but I don't have anyone.
I really want to talk to somebody, but I don't have anyone.
I have literally been laying here for 10 hours straight lol, my life fucking sucks.
I need friends so badly, I'm going nuts in this city all by myself.
Nothing like telling all the people I possibly can that I blow my dad just to see the reactions I get. xD
I need friends so badly, I'm going nuts in this city all by myself.
Nothing like telling all the people I possibly can that I blow my dad just to see the reactions I get. xD
Even after a week and a half, she still finds a way to ruin my entire week, I'm in so much pain right now, I really truly need a friend out here.
For the first time since it happened, I was having a really wonderful day, I should have known terrible news was going to pop up and ruin everything.
My heart is so fucking broken.
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For the first time since it happened, I was having a really wonderful day, I should have known terrible news was going to pop up and ruin everything.
My heart is so fucking broken.
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Me and Andrew just played through the entire Donkey Kong Country 1 on Super Nintendo, kicked each others asses at Street Fighter II : Turbo, and now are working our way through the original Mario. 
I've probably sent out like a hundred messages by now to different people, and I think I've only gotten like 1 reply, this is fucking depressing, so much for meeting people and getting out this weekend. 
Smoking is so fucking disgusting, I wish I didn't start last week, I went 14 months without the shit, I really need to quit before I'm in way over my head, I'm tired of having a headache and sore lungs and shit. :'(
Well, I haven't used this site in like 3 years, kind of grew apart from it, it's so fucking weird being back on, reading my old posts and shit, so much nostalgia.
I really hope that I meet some cool people, Calgary is so fucking lonely for me right now, company would be very much appreciated.
I really hope that I meet some cool people, Calgary is so fucking lonely for me right now, company would be very much appreciated.
sleep is successfully avoiding me tonight
It's so hard to be an optimistic person when you have so many pessimistic people telling you pessimistic things.
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Straight up want to rage so hard, but I need to keep it together.
My house is being raided by my sister and my niece
followed by another family of 4
My home is no longer a home ATM
and I need my peace
I am also stressed by my boyfriends parents.
They are almost 70 years old and they have a 21 year old son
They adopted him when they were in their late 40's.
and I have never seen such a toxic relationship.
They have the need to control EVERYTHING in his life.
When he eats, who he calls, what he does etc.....
Complete Assholes.
We all got along for the first 2 years, until they no longer needed me.
They used me to get into their sons life (LONG STORY)
Anyways, since they no longer need me anymore, they treat me like shit
So I stood up for myself.
They do not like me because I was trying to get my boyfriend to get control over his own life
They do not like me because they cannot control me.
Anyways, they have encouraged him to go cheat on me, they now listen in on our phone calls, they took all his medication, his ID's, and they have been taking his cheques.
I am so sick of seeing the way that they treat him.
Straight up so sickening.
The only way he can get his life back is by moving out
Which is what I am trying to do.
THESE are my stressors ATM.
Anyone have any advice I would love to hear it.
My house is being raided by my sister and my niece
followed by another family of 4
My home is no longer a home ATM
and I need my peace
I am also stressed by my boyfriends parents.
They are almost 70 years old and they have a 21 year old son
They adopted him when they were in their late 40's.
and I have never seen such a toxic relationship.
They have the need to control EVERYTHING in his life.
When he eats, who he calls, what he does etc.....
Complete Assholes.
We all got along for the first 2 years, until they no longer needed me.
They used me to get into their sons life (LONG STORY)
Anyways, since they no longer need me anymore, they treat me like shit
So I stood up for myself.
They do not like me because I was trying to get my boyfriend to get control over his own life
They do not like me because they cannot control me.
Anyways, they have encouraged him to go cheat on me, they now listen in on our phone calls, they took all his medication, his ID's, and they have been taking his cheques.
I am so sick of seeing the way that they treat him.
Straight up so sickening.
The only way he can get his life back is by moving out
Which is what I am trying to do.
THESE are my stressors ATM.
Anyone have any advice I would love to hear it.