I have fully realized that you really do appreciate everything you have more when you have to leave it behind. I love my friends, I love my Job, and I love my family back home.
I miss everyone and everything so much already...
Even after all the time i've spent away from home,
You still manage to give me that warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach,
making me wonder yet again what would have happened if I had spoke up...
I can't help but think about situations around me,
and how two people can be SO close one minute, and so distant the next.
How can two people go from sharing everything with each other to barely saying a word to them, and never seeing them around?
I just don't understand how that connection breaks so quickly, and so easily...
Do they ever think about the other person? wondering the exact same thing?
Life takes us in strange directions, and shows us things that just don't make sense...
maybe someday it will all add up,
maybe someday it will be clear..
until then, I'm still wondering.
Still clueless.
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
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Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore.
Where you kissed last?
In my room
What was the reason why you and your last relationship didn't work?
You'd have to ask him... I still don't really know.
What do you want for your birthday?
I have noo clue, aha that's a long ways away!!
Ever kissed someone whose name starts with a A or S
Nope, I don't believe I have
Who is your "newest" friend?
I have alot of new friends, I can't really say just one
When's the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't?
Today
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Idunno, probably
Do you consider yourself lucky?
aha not really
Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
I suure have
Are you currently mad at someone?
Moreso bitter then mad...
Who did you spend your summer with last year?
Everyone!! =D
What shirt are you wearing?
A yellow collared one with a black vneck vest
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yep
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
sarah, danae and alison I believe
Is anything bothering you?
Yeeah..
Have a best friend?
I sure do =)
Are you in a good mood right now?
Umm... I'm not as bad as I was before, but i'm still not the best.
Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
I really hope so!
Who was the last person to make you smile?
Nick lol
Is there someone who had made a difference in your life?
sure is
Will this weekend be a good one?
Whooo knows, I guess i'll see when the weekend comes!
Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try and get it to work?
Nope, aha never heard about doing that before
Do you walk around the house naked/in your underwear?
Not really lol!
What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
It depeonds on if anyone is there or not... if they arn't, I usually drop my stuff and start singing/turning on really loud music
Do you like horror or comedy?
comedy
Where do you want to live when you are older?
Anywhere by the ocean <3
What did you dream last night?
I actually don't remember...
Are you named after anyone?
My great grandma
Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
There's a number of people, they know who they are =))
Do you think any of your ex's will eventually want to be with you again?
No idea
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
ugh... yeah =(((
Last person that hugged you?
Sarah I think
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
HAH... Thats such an understatement for me right now
Are you in a complicated relationship?
I used to be... now I'm just not in any sort of relationship with that person at all.
Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Most Likely.
Tell me how you got one of your scars?
Paintball! shot for shot =P
What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
aha I really don't remember, and to be honest I wasn't paying much attention to what colour of shirt I had on.
Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
A musician =)
Does it annoy you when people play dumb?
It depends on who and why...
Do you hate to hug people?
No, I love hugs =)
Are you starting to like anyone new recently?
Umm... more like starting to try and NOT like anyone recently..
The last person you kissed says they want you to be theirs. You say?
I don't believe you, and I can pretty much guarantee that within the hour you will take back what you just said.
What were you doing when you found out Michael Jackson was dead?
Sitting on facebook being lazy aha
Who is the ugliest person you know?
Why in the world would I answer that?! thats just mean.
Is your best friend a slut?
LOLOLOLOLOL Nope, but apparently when she is dressed in sweats, baggy hoodies and ponytail hair people at the UofC think so.
You're going on a road trip, what MUST you bring with you?
Friends!! and awesome music ... and food!!
Could you see yourself dropping out of high school?
Nope, I have already passed high school!
Do you want kids when your older?
Someday, yeah.
Do you currently like someone who doesn't know you exist?
Nope... well... if you don't count danny jones =P
Did you have any unread messages when you woke up today?
I don't believe so
Last text message?
From Kelsey!
Do you take walks often?
I sure do
Have you ever searched for your own house on google earth?
ahaha yep!
Is there anyone who really relates to you?
Numerous
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Everyone has at least one reason to smile.
Is there at least one ex-girlfriend or boyfriend you can trust?
There sure is!
Why did you take the last pill you took?
To fight of a cold
Ever read an entire book in one day?
ahaha yep!
Something you really want right now?
...
Would you ever get a tattoo?
Mhhhm
Ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?
Close to it... I don't know how to give less.
Do you and your last ex hate each other?
Nope
Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
Umm aha sometimes I guess
Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your top friends?
Yep!
When was the last time you talked to the person you like?
yesterday i think?
Have any of your friends ever hit you?
Not in an actual abusive way
Are you dating the person you text most?
definitely not
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
It's ok... a little strained sometimes.
What will you be doing in the next 2 hours?
Sleeping hopefully...
Have your past mistakes made you wiser?
I'd like to think so...
When was the last time you felt like just disappearing?
Throughout this month
I bet you miss somebody right now?
I miss friends at home SO much.. =(
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
My parents
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
sorta..
Do you prefer call or text?
Depends on from who
When was the last time you saw your mom?
2 weeks ago... =(
How many houses have you lived in?
3 but i only remember 2 of them
Whats your favourite colour?
Red
Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Not really, I sprall lol
Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
I was still extremely tired lol
Have you ever fallen off the bed in your sleep?
Once I think..
Did you do anything risky last night?
Naah, just stayed up until 5:30 in the morning... lol
Who was the last person to carry you?
Josh xDD that jerk!
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
Yeah... =((
What are you currently listening to?
use somebody - kings of leon
Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
Danielle
What's under your bed?
A mattress ahaha
What's in your underwear drawer?
Underwear.. duh!
Has someone ever called you beautiful?
Yeah
Are you wearing WHO WEARS short shorts?
Nope...
Do you like messages or comments better?
I like them both!
What are you drinking?
Water
Are you a bitch?
I guess i can be sometimes, but all in all i don't think so
Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
... It can be for some people I suppose.
Are you a girl or a guy?
Girl
Did anything dramatic go down yesterday?
Not really...
Are you afraid to stay home all alone?
Nope.
You get what you deserve
you get what's coming to you
what goes around comes around
all of these are true.
So thats it, i'm done, i've given up. You win. have fun, I won't take another look back. I guess i'm just destined to be unhappy.
In The Past 48 Hours:
1. Talk to a cute boy/girl? MANY!! <3 best day of summer by faarrr =D
2. Kiss someone? Yep
4. Miss someone? Yeah
Random:
5. Last person who laid in bed with you? ... I actually am not sure...
6. Last person who made you cry? The Maine, with their one song about friends.
7. Made you laugh? Jasmyne
8. Last person To tell you they love you? Uhm.. hmmm my mum?
9. Does anyone like you? Yep!! I’d hope so at least =P.
10. Do you like being around people? For the most part, most definitely!
11. Have you cried recently? Oh God, yes. A lot this month lately, mostly because I’m leaving soon…
12. Are you lonely right now? Not really actually!
13. Song stuck in your head? Well right now I am listening to You left me by the Maine
14. Have you been on radio/tv/newspaper? All but TV
15. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? Lol that I have actually.
16. What time is it? 10:03
17. How much cash do have on you right now? 45 dollars I think in cash and then my debit
18. Whats your favorite food? Pasta! Mac and Cheese… Pancakes…
19. Who got you to join? Join what?
20. Can you lay in your bed all day? Depends on what I’m doing. If I have a good book, then yes, yes I can.
21. Wish someone was next to you in the morning when you wake up? Yeah, it’d be nice
22. What web site do you visit the most? facebook
23. Who was the last person to talk to you? Kysha
16 Secrets:
1. What is your display name about? I’m not sure lol
2. Where was your default picture taken? In a park
3. What's up with number 3? It’s the day I was born on =D
4. Honestly, if someone were to tell you how they felt, would you listen? Of course
5. Wheres 5? Up your ass.
6. Whats your most valued possession? My car
7. Whats your status? Taken =)
8. If you could go back in time, and change somethings would you? Yes.
9. If you must be an animal for one day what would you be? Hmmm I’m not sure. Something that can fly!
10. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? Many many times! =)
11. What's the first thing(s) you notice about the opposite/same Sex? Hair, smile and eyes.
12. What do you usually order from starbucks? It changes a lot. I usually enjoy a grande nonfat 3 pump toffee nut 2 pump caramel coffee misto.
13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or t.v shows? Sure do!
14. Do you have braces? I used to, and I effing hated them
15. Do you speak any other language? Nope. Not yet at least
16. What hurts right now? My back
I miss you a lot, there is so much I need to talk to you about.
End of summer is going to be hard for me... leaving people like you behind =(
I'm done for the last time.