mydrinkiniskillinme

But its been a month besically now since i last heard from him... what? May 4?
not bad. if he keeps this up maybe i can move on by Mexico! *praying

i miss you

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

please get out of my head.
that is all. good day.

i have no life. work is all i have right now... and i ... kinda like it lol

T E N A R E Y O U S ..

1. Are you single - Yeeep.
2. Are you happy - Noot at all.
3. Are you bored - nopeeee
5. Are you Italian - Nope
6. Are you pregnant - hahah fuck no.
9. Are you Irish - Noo
10.Are you Asian -noope

T E N F A C T S ..

1. Name – Shaylaa
2. Nicknames – Shay, Shay shay , shaybear, seaweed, chickenhead, pickles
3. Birth mark – On my hand and back of my head
4. Hair color - Brown
5. Natural hair style - wavy.
8. Facebook Mood- Uh.. iduno
9. Favorite color(s) - Purple .
10. One Place to Visit - Las Vegas

T E N T H I N G S A B O U T Y O U R L O V E L I F E ..

1. Do you believe in love at first sight – Yes.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Yeep
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart – yea
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – yep
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - yep.
8. Are you afraid of commitment - no
9. Who was the last person you hugged - Kirsten.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to – chad.

T E N T H I S O R T H A T ..

1. Love or lust - love
3. Cats or dogs – dogs
4. A few best friends or many regular friends - few bestfriends.
5. Television or internet - internet.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - depends on the mood
8. Money or Happiness - money can't buy me happiness
9. Night or day - Both
10. msn or phone - Phone.

T E N H A V E Y O U E V E R ..

1. Been caught sneaking out- noppeee
2. Been skinny dipping - yeah.
3. Done something you regret - yeah
4. Bungee jumped - Noo
5. Lied to someone you liked - . yeah
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - Yeaah
8. Started going out with an ex - Ya
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Nope .
10. Wanted to disappear - yes

T E N P R E F E R E N C E S I N A P A R T N E R ..

1. Smile or eyes - bothhhh!
2. Light or dark hair – either
3. Hugs or kisses – both
4. Shorter or taller – taller
5. Intelligence or attraction - both
6. Romantic or spontaneous- both
7. Funny or serious - funny but can be serious
8. Older or Younger- older
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing but quiet at times
10. Sweet or Bad Ass- both

T E N H A V E Y O U S ..

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yeah
3. Ever been pregnant - nope
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - noo
6. Ever Been on a dance team - ya
7.Ever been on a sports team - yup.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yup.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes - no.
10. Ever been in a rap video? - no

T E N L A S T S ..

1. Last phone call you recevied - chad;
3. Last person you hung out with –Kirsten.
4. Last time you worked – Lol.. few months ago.
5. Last person you tackled - Kirsten.
6. Last person you IM'd - No clue.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – Daddyy
9. Last person/thing you miss - My grandpa :'(
10. Last thing you ate - Chicken.

L A S T P E R S O N T H A T ..

1. Slept in bed beside you? Kiara.
2. Saw you cry? Kirsten.
3. You went to the movies with? already answered that .
4. You went out to dinner with? Mom..
5. You talked on the phone to? Chad.
7. Made you laugh? Chad.
8. slept on a couch with you? Me .

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R ..

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose. its pierced.
2. Be serious or be funny? depends.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? skim
4. Die in a fire or drown? drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents

A R E Y O U ..

1. Simple or complicated? Both.
2. Homosexual? nope.
3. Retarded? - uh no . sometimes.

D O Y O U P R E F E R ..

1. Flowers or candy? flowers
2. Gray or black? black
3. Color or Black and white photos? both
4. Sunrise or sunset? both
5. M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles.
6. Staying up late or waking up early? late

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y ..

1. Do you like anyone? Sure doo
2. Do they know it? yees they do.

D O Y O U P R E F E R

1. Sun or moon? sun
2. Winter or Fall? winter.
3. Left or right? Right.
4. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? chocolate
5. Vodka or Jack Daniels? Vodka

A B O U T Y O U ..

1. What time is it? 2;17
2. What is your birthdate?: March 15
3. What do you want? Food.
4. How many kids do you want? 2
5. You want to get married? Yeep
6. What kind of music do you like? pop , rap . that shit. dubstep

U N I Q U E ..

1. Nervous Habits?: Bitting my lips and cheeks.
2. Are you double jointed? yes
3. Can you twist your tounge around and roll? no
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yeahh
5. Can you cross your eyes? yep
6. Do you make your bed daily?:Nooooo

Q U E S T I O N S ..

1. Which shoe goes on first?: Idk.
2. Ever thrown something at someone?: Yep.
3. On average, how much money do you carry with you? I dont know
4. What jewelry do you wear?: necklace , bracelet
5. Do you twist ?: Uh......
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? yeah,
3. Favorite ice cream?: chocolate
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?:like 6
5. What's your favorite beverage? roootbeer
6. Do you cook?: Yees.

I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , H A V E Y O U ?

1. Had a relationship? No.
2. Bought something?Yeah
3. Sang: yeah
4. Been huggedyeah
5. Missed someone: A lot.

Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone? Everynight.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months? - Uhm yeah,

Are you on a Laptop or Computer right now?- laptop.

Have you cried today?- Sure have.

Do you have a bruise from the opposite sex?- hahah uh no.

Miss anything from your past?- Yep

Do you smile often?- Yeeeah.

Is your mother happy with you right now? She is.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?- Yes .

If you were in the hospital on life support, would the last person you kissed be there for you?- Uhm.. id hope so .

Is anything on your body currently hurting?- Naw.

What are you currently listening to? Music

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your #1 friend? Yeah

Are you currently angry?- nope

Do you regret doing something today?- No

Are you happy with the way things are going?- Sure.

Have you held hands with somebody in the last five hours? - no,

Honestly, have you done something bad today?- no

Are you ticklish?- yep

What are you doing tonight?- seeing my bestfriend

How was your day?-Great so far.

Has anyone upset you in the last week? Yeep..

How did you feel when you woke up today?- Really upset.

Were you single on your last birthday?- Yeeep.

You're locked in an empty room with the person you last kissed, any problems?- naaw.

Is the last person you kissed older than you? yeah.

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?

Hows your heart lately? Alright.

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?- yeah. ready.

Think back eight months ago, were you single?- yYeep

What do you carry with you at all times?- cell phone.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?- Chad.

Is something wrong right now?- yeah

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?- yep

Are you jealous of someone right now?- yep.

Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig? i did

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth? water.

What are you suppose to be doing right now? my hair.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?yeah.

Could you handle a long distance relationship?- Depends.

Could you cry right now?- Already am .

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?- Am right now. .

Are you okay with the life you live?- sure.

Did you enjoy your day today?-yeah

So i had nothing to do on saturday night so I asked KC what was goin on
he said there was a "party in the wonk" if i wanted to come lol So i said yeah
sounds good. I get there, the Keg is alreay gone, everyone is wasted and i
know like four people ... it was weird. But either way, one of the four people
i did know, Evan Crook, we got to talkin cause almost every person asked me
where Kyle was and I was like I dont know lol And they're all like.. What? And
Im like i dunno, I think he's in Mexico actually and they're like well what do
you mean you dont know? And i said me and Kyle arent together and they were
all shocked and im like.. what? like no issue with it but Evan... Evan seemed to
want a little more of an explanation so I got into explaining how it was all up
to Kyle, and how it was him that threw a kink in it everytime and that if he ever
decided to smarten up and grow a pair that i would be there.
However Evan thought that I was being dumb in waiting. He said and i quote:
"I think you could do so much better." and I dont know why but.. like i've heard
that from a bunch of people before and its like.. wow. this time it kinda hit me like
Kyle's a loser lol What am i doing??? such a wein.
But meanwhile the whole time he's bashing Kyle, im still defending him and KC is
right there listening to it all and KC is BUUUUUDS with KL and frick. I dont want
him to tell Kyle and have Kyle think that im hung up... cause im not. Im just doing
my own thing.

well it wasnt one month... it was a week.
BUT! i was right about the late at night and drunk part
however... with the new "thing" i feel with D.J. ... I just
really dont care lol he makes me all giddy inside when
I see a message from him... and the fact that I never
kissed him or anything makes me feel all that much
better about it cause, I dont know. Cause I think he's super
hot and the guys I think are super hot never go for me...
maybe he has a small dick? lol whatevs. wouldnt be a first lmfao
Oh Megan you dog you ;P

So it was Rachel's birthday party this weekend and we went out to Slick's in wetaskiwin
and i knew a bunch of people there and Rachel was playing pool and then we played these guys
and one of them was totally cute. and actually like... innitiating with me and i was like... uh... okay?
wtf? you're too cute. anyways so im like crushing now and i love it. sigh