it takes a second to say i love you
but it takes a life time to prove it
you make me want to jump around and giggle about you over and overr again <3
-our adventures
-our shadows
-our late night talks
-our homework nights
-our sleepovers
-our handshake
-the tingles
-"fwb"
"HD"
"potatoe"
"talk it out"
"two for one"
"bfffffff"
"supppermann"
i bet you dont remember half of the things i do
Everything you can imagine is real.
-Picasso
"Never apologize for saying what you feel,
That would be like apologizing for being real."
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the
girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was
mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew
it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before and handed
them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She
was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love
had broke her heart. She asked me to come over
because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I
sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft
eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew
Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided
to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and
gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I
wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date
is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't
have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if
neither of us had dates, we would go together just as
"best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything
was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared
at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her
crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't
think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I
had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that
I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just
too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could
blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect
body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like
that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came
to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then
she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my
best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I
wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and
I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting
married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to
her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to
be mine, but she didn't` see me like that, and I knew
it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said
"you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I don't
want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who was
my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry
she wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice
me like that, and I know it. I wanted to tell him, I wanted
him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he
would tell me he loved me! I wish I did too...
I thought to my self, and I cried.
