"I'm obviously not a hermaphrodite, though some people think so. There's an area between the two of those, you don't have to be heterosexual, bisexual or gay, it's just sort of everything" -Twiggy

I'm currently working on my first and only album, Which is thus far a solo project.
the name of the album has not yet come to me

Euphoric Black Metal, Intense lyrics and a dramatic output of creative energies. Terrorizing yet seducing vocals, Captured with pleasing music to any well trained ear. I dont know how I do it, But let me tell you : I Love nuendo and technology and high quality music instruments and love of what I do.

I am a member of http://www.head-fi.com as well as http://www.hydrogenaudio.org and lest' we forget, http://www.garagelan.com

Fragapalooza lover/helper since '02, Missed last fragga though! (that was 05) I got kicked out of Fragapalooza 2006 4 hours before it was DONE WITH AND OVER for smoking a joint.

I am amazing.
_____Below, a song I wrote while ago one of many.. Blah. Im working on the EP now
. ©Cide, Nigel McLeod. [2006]_____

Spectacular time in present history,
Rapid change of consciousness - occurring silently
Warping your future and altering the mind
Is this the earth, or the control of mankind!

Teaching in schools the hunger for fuels
Laborsaving vessels to pay feverish dues
Silently the change, screaming it comes from within
Transforming useless genetics into etherized limbs

(Earth the Stage, World the Laboratory)
(What will become of all this insanity)
(Seeking my art, to live it as well)
(Endlessly pondering is all really well?)
(somehow I seek to avoid finding hell)

(Seek and you shall find)
(The truth will set you free)
(Multiply by thought)
(suffer eternally)
(Now I am aware, I seem to see)
(Earth the stage, world the laboratory!)

Knowledge cries forth discerning chaos from help
Griping your mind, turning it completely about
Now all you find is the same old story
Your own mind, thoughts - becoming your enemy


Laced with confusion but vibrate of truth
Oblivious to society's soup
Distress or harmony
The key to more
polarity initiates ascension soar

(Earth the Stage, World the Laboratory)
(What will become of all this insanity)
(Seeking my art, to live it as well)
(Endlessly pondering is all really well?)
(somehow I seek to avoid finding hell)

(Seek and you shall find)
(The truth will set you free)
(Multiply by thought)
(suffer eternally)
(Now I am aware, I seem to see)
(Earth the stage, world the labratory!)

Man
or
Universal

God?
...

evolution
or
meet your maker
Something is aloof in this endangered great sphere.
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-Seeing UFO's or rather "Star Visitors" in the day, or night sky. It's so precious. They are so beautiful.
-Leading, teaching, helping, holding, touching, feeling, loving, needing. Hearing, Breathing. Fucking & Sneezing.
-Anything
-Making the best out of anything that isn't by default good to me.
-Good Food
-Euphoric states of altered or unaltered bliss
-NOT being a smoker. [I]

Here is some of me and my opinions, not all. Most things I didn't take into consideration for here fall obvious under common sense pertaining to the below categories. Don't take too literally the things I say. Words suck, and are a horribly primitive, inferior form of creative expression, or expression in general. Kthx!

The Cabal, and their current grip of control and dominance over the worlds media, and general society, Information, flow of knowledge pertaining to star visitors, and are purposely making "ets" look bad to scare people.
The Ego when held in error and abuse.
My own 3rd dimensional-reality based social and sometimes moral procrastination and laziness.
Most Organizations and Controllers of free human will/
How People who think they are in control of their lives, are so unwilling to accept the fact they are not.
How some People think Extraterrestrials are Evil, and negative towards the persons existence. Not in most cases.
How "Metal" is the "Most Hated" music. It is a very advanced music to assist in humanity's evolution.
How "Society" rejects things, makes evil - or rather labels things as evil. What is evil to one, is good to one.
How anyone who rejects society or mainstream society is labeled as a bad/evil person by the mass.
The next time someone says your going to hell for metal, tell them they are going to hell for society. One for all
How some People think Extraterrestrials are not real.
How some People deny Extra-terrestrials as having any part in humanity's current and soon-coming evolution.
How some People follow religions blindly.
How some People think religion doesn't relate back to the fact that WE ARE NOT ALONE.
How some People choose to live a life of greed, pollution, and social distortion without pursuit of a better understanding eternity, and the problems around in plain sight. One person makes the hugest difference, if that person walks the talk.
When people sometimes take words too literally, as if they are a symbol of absolutist truth, Get your head strate, please look at the bigger picture in life - use your creativity and your brain, think and feel words, their energy. The love they radiate, do you resonate with them, or do they cause confusion - pain is only the great spirit trying to teach you something, to make you aware of a mistake, to clear a karmic debt, to make you aware of something you may not be aware of. To make you aware that you may be doing something wrong.
They way people have the ultimate ability to live in the past/the now rather then the now/the future.
Say your damn sorry and live on with the now and the future and the best interests in mind.
The judgmental, separative selfish ego-based drama and opinions that rule our world. Relative to everything, as Rubinstein's (ER I meant EINSTEIN) theory on relativity goes.
Misunderstandings between people in general, I wish everyone would just get the big point and picture. not pick at the little things and belittle instead.
Mainstream Radio/TV/Social gatherings and opinions on things, even on our divine motherearth Gaia.
Male Pre-dominance.



How I hurt Leena, this I vow never to do to another woman in my existence as a human being of love, of light and free of government "liberation". I will do all in my best nature to strive for the most peaceful, humble relationship of kind, caring intellectual love and appreciation, even if I have to spend more time showing it than I do listening to music. I hope you heal someday Leesa, and I will always love you forever, I mean well. You've taught me so well. Your an angel of death, You killed my old ways. I'm an angel of pain, I made you stronger. I am now an Angel of Light, and you are now an Angel of Light. Together we've cleared our much needed karmic debt, We are on our way to eternity soon, someday. Hopefully Once there, Perhaps I owe you, and we shall have a great feast. <3<3<3


Soci-al Distortion
And No, not the punk band.
The General CONCEPT, Which is better than that band anyways.

Jesus, It's all right in front of YOU these days, most of all in the music we listen to that is not mainstream.
Use your brain. Activate your right-brain, strive for an open, creative artistic mind based off the left-brain (Logic/Ego).

And stop claiming your a non-conformist, that just means you conform to non-conformity. Jesus was a non-conformist. Many of you self-labeled non-conformists are against religions, most of all ones such as Christianity. So cram it up your bum. And no, I most certainly am not a "Christian". Not with a c, thats for sure.

Your effectively all conforming to one, your just not aware of it.
Its forever and a day, in everyone even though each person has individual choice and freedom of will, and all ensuing actions and/or positive or neutral/negative choices in this or all life's, or existence in general. The fragile art of it is always kept in check, we shall meet the checkers soon enough.

We have the essence of all the gods, the great spirit and eternal love. I hate how people forget this as soon as they are born into this terrible, but wonderful world. Each one of us a universe.

How does it feel in your heart to know death means nothing to you, you will go on living forever, always existing? It's just a change, people! and its not always necessary, in this lifetime there is exceptions. Thus the "end of time" the "end times". You can live on in this body, it's indeed possible.
I hate how people tell me they have no time for this shit.

I dislike how this hell scenario is accepted, why do you want to continue this dream, of greed and fear, control and pain. Your emotions unstable and your lies in check. I don't know about you, but I want out of it.

And don't tell me to go kill myself, I'm not depressed. I just want to inform you of what is going on, I love life personally, and I believe suicide is the worst possible thing to do in this world, rite next to fear, greed and control which leads to murder, pain, separation, rule, etc.

I Love it all, please don't mistake this section because I'm blissfully full and radiating with positivity - though it seems to take a bit of negativity to get through to some people these days.

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"Each 'Now' moment is a fresh opportunity to awaken
the realization of our true nature,
to allow that magnificent essence to express through us.
This awakening is our heart's delight,
our destiny and the hope for our children's future."