first off, you like boys right?
yup

Ever kissed a Jordan, Joey, or Kyle?
maybe

Do you tend to fall for players?
nope

Will you have a boyfriend in 2 months?
i dont know

Have you ever had a boy best friend?
yup

Does the song you're listening to remind you of a special boy?
not listening to a song

Do you find it cute when boys call you babe/baby?
yeahh.. well babe

Has a boy ever complimented your hair?
yess

Has a boy ever asked your best friend about you?
yup

Do you like hugs from cute boys?
yup

Longest you've ever liked a boy?
4 months

Has a boy ever asked you for advice regarding a friend of yours?
yup

Last person you talked on the phone with?
carlos

Who do you blame for your bad mood today?
not in a bad mood and i dont blame peopl

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
nope i ddidnt really sleep

Whats your relationship with the person you last texted?
jenelle.. shes a pretty good friend

What are your plans for tonight?
study and try and forget

Do you wish someone would call you right now?
not in the mood for that

Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
yup

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
im frustrated with something or really bothered and upset

When was the last time you cried?
lastnight...

Do you have a best friend?
yes i do

Will you be in a relationship 3 months from now?
i dont know

Are you happy at the moment?
nope

Are you a morning person or a night person?
night owl

Do you want to get married?
yess:)

Do you think your pretty?
i dont like to say taht about myself

What are you wearing for a top right now?
shirt and sweater

what color is it?
green and yellow

what are you wearing tomorrow ?
dont know

do you wear lip gloss daily ?
i never do

do you wear makeup daily ?
yes

do you ever wear sun dresses ?
in summer the odd time

do you wear a bra ?
no.. all natural.. you kidding obviously i wear a bra

are your lips too big or small?
im not sure

do you think guys eyes are nice ?
some have really nice eyes

do you spend a long time doing your eye makeup ?
not really

are you boy crazy ?
nahh

what are you doing right now ?
thinking hard..

where is your phone ?
beside me

are you happy with your life right now ?
kind of not really

what grade are you in ?
11

Life can be so confusing sometimes especially with ones you love. You kept telling me over and over again that I dont care about you, that you don't think I'm ready for a relationship, that I don't show you that I really do like you. I don't know what you are going through, it's hard to know considering we never talk deeply about things that are going wrong. I don't know if you have been planning this for a while. I know that I have personally screwed up and done some stupid things, but I obviously regret those terrible things that I've done. I am an easy going person, and usually let you do what you want without getting mad, but as soon as I do something you freak out on me. I don't understand sometimes and I just wish things would go back to normal. I get really mad when you tell me I don't care because that is a lie. I care about you more then anything in the world, your one of the most important things in my life. This was a total shock to me, I didn't think you were actually serious. I am torn, broken, and hurt because of this. When you told me this, I couldn't sleep, I was mentally messed up, I was crying, but you just don't understand how much you hurt me. Maybe I deserve this, maybe I'm not good enough for you, I won't know because you never really tell me the things I'm doing wrong. I'm always willing to change something especially for you because I just want you happy. I feel like an idiot right now, but just want you to know that I care about you and would do anything for things to be back to normal.

i wish that you would recognize what you are doing to yourself.
you are starting to lose friends, soon enough people aren't going
to care with the decisions you make. i am worried about you, i
would love if you would stop that addiction that keeps continuing.
you are scaring people around you, even though you might not think
so. i don't necessarily want to be around you, just in case i get
tempted into doing the wrong things, because that can easily happen.
im going to try and force my friends away from you, because what
you are doing is horrible. it would be nice for you to take a look at
what is going on because your life is gonna fall apart sooner or later.
you are a sweet loving girl, but lately you have just changed and it hurts.
i will still be here for you and love you, but change needs to happen.

friends are an important thing to have in your life.
unfortunately friends come and go, some stay.
the friends i have made are a joy to my life.
sometimes i dont make the right decision daily,
but thats what friends do, they support you and
trust you to make the correct decisions.
right now in my life i have a variety of true friends,
but the problem is we dont all hang out in one
group. i hang out with one specific girl all the time,
and that is probably the most precious thing to have.
i have a lot of friends but i wonder if i am doing the
right thing, and if i should even be hanging out with them.
i find them great, but its hard having a certain friend
who i get along with then dont who tells me i have to
know if what im doing in life is right. i get frustrated and
anger builds up inside of me, all thats left to do is pray.

halloween tomorrow
super excitedd.

summer 08' was the best ever. so many good memories..

no one can ever seperate my bestfriend and i.. we are simply inseperable.. we are with eachother whenever we get the chance to.. i havent always told her everything but now i think about it i really should because thats something important and well i would die for her.. a bestfriend should be caring and support you and tell you everything..we have only been bestfriends for about 11months which is weird but i could never ask for anyone better than you.. you mean the world to me and i love hanging out with you. we never get sick of eachother no matter how long were together. i think we have done almost everything together well not everything but we go throught a lot of stuff whether that regards being a bit rebellious. i think people now know us as inseperable even deb describes us as bff we have so many memories together and way more to come. i dont know if you realize but i actually love you so much i cant even describe that.. i dont think i could ever live without you its impossible.. your amazing and i love everything about you. i hope we can be friends forever.. your all i could ever asked for. best friends forever <3

osoyoos on WEDNESDAY!!
im super excited

sorry for not seeing you as much as i should,
sorry that i screwed up and made wrong choices,
sorry if i dont show that i truely care about you,
sorry that i am going away alot..
sorry i dont always make you happy..
i am trying my best.. and im sorry

i love you

i have never met someone so unbelievably physco in my life. why dont you stop being such a control freak and stop thinking that your daughter is a sweet innocent angel because shes not. we have never done anything wrong but you assume all this bad stuff from us. i think you know that i dont liek you.. and i am happy you know that.. i have ndone my best to respect you but you have just gone crazy.. do me a favour or maybe i'll do you a favour and i'll buy you some pills so you can start acting normal again. calling the police just because you told your daughter to leave is ridiculous..i dont care what you say.. your nuts and i dont thinkg anything will change my opinon toward what i think about you. i have had it with you..get out of my life.. its would be the best for everyone. your gonna lose your daughter and your gonna have no one.. i think you should have a good look at yourself in the mirror and notice how retarded you are acting. dont you dare call me a bad infulence ever again cause you wont see the next tomorrow if you say that a gain and im not even joking. i have never been this mad. i am sticking up for a friend infact my bestfriend which you have never probably had because ur ntus. i think whatever my firend thinks.. and i dont even care about you anymore. im done

i miss you so much. i want to see your face again..
i didnt want to let you go, i really didnt but i had to.
you mean more to me then anything in this world.
i care about you so much and i just wanna see you.
soon enough i will see you, i miss you, i love you

TWO hundred milles from my home
and so many miles from you
living without you onmy own you
know its hard to do
and through the nite feeling its gone
you know i need you so

you may be miles away but that doesnt matter if you have taht certain feeling that you only get around that one special someone, you know something is right.distance isnt an issue, cause as long as you know you love eachother things will go smoothly. the time will go by fast and soon enough,the two of you will be together and spend quality time together and make up for all the time lost

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we'll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?